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for someone who is still taking medication I can't say if it's good to mix this sports program, sauna and say mixing vitamins and minerals, a very very good doctor would surely be able to answer this.
 
The main tissue where their poison is stored is adipose tissue. he may have a little poison in the brain and muscle tissue and a little poison in the liver.
 
Fanzy said:
Search narconon on internet. They can help maybe. Center of detox. The drug poisons are lodged in the adipose tissue and it is a detox of these tissues that they offer in the center. he claims to eliminate them. if you can't go to the center, on ubuy you can order a daily health kit packet multivitamins and minerals, he says that you have to combine it with sport and do sauna after sport. he also says that niacin greatly helps with elimination. drug poisons in fatty tissues and also claims to detoxify those who take drugs such as heroin.
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Not to be a dick but after a quick search, narconon is associated with (run by) the church or scientology, and honestly not trying to start religious discourse, but I would rather be addicted to fent for the rest of my life than a scientologist.
 
daturetard said:
Not to be a dick but after a quick search, narconon is associated with (run by) the church or scientology, and honestly not trying to start religious discourse, but I would rather be addicted to fent for the rest of my life than a scientologist.
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I Talk about cure
 
daturetard said:
Can you elaborate?
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Yes. The program of nacronon is good I think. Sport,sauna,vitaminés and minerales.niacin is the first on vitamine for the tissus.u can buy vitamines and minérales ,specialy niacin.can buy a complex of vitaminé And minérales so and do sport,sauna and do the program without narconon.i buy a complex of vitamine and minerales with niacin and start leech on fat to eliminate xeplion in tissu,With desmodium(natural plant) for the liver and plant thé for the kidneys
 
These are lipophilic drugs which are therefore dissolved in fats, which are eliminated by the kidneys and the liver but they must first pass through the blood, and they have difficulty because they can be retained in the fat. This is what we note, they are retained
 
i can not feel anything. i have not felt anything besides rage in as long as I can remember. its like i was hand picked for dysfunction and dread. i am broken on the level of the soul. there is nothing that can fix this. i do not know how to, be. i do not know how to live and i dont know how to love. the world always wants precisely what I cant give it, and the penalty for my inadequacy is another pound of flesh gone everyday, as i am the convenient whipping post for every cosmic whim conceived in this midnight sunrise of the universe
 
deficiT said:
i can not feel anything. i have not felt anything besides rage in as long as I can remember. its like i was hand picked for dysfunction and dread. i am broken on the level of the soul. there is nothing that can fix this. i do not know how to, be. i do not know how to live and i dont know how to love. the world always wants precisely what I cant give it, and the penalty for my inadequacy is another pound of flesh gone everyday, as i am the convenient whipping post for every cosmic whim conceived in this midnight sunrise of the universe
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I think you are selling yourself short and not seeing yourself and the amount of good you are doing clearly.

I don't know you personally but when I started reading posts on bluelight your posts struck me as being especially helpful. You have a way of seeing the problem and offering very down to earth, common sense advice. It really is a gift not everyone has.

Whatever this life is, one thing is for sure, there is more to it than what is meeting the eye. Things are not always what they seem. We can be convinced we are not doing anything good when we are actually making a tremendous difference.

Things may look better in the morning.
💞
 
kris66 said:
I think you are selling yourself short and not seeing yourself and the amount of good you are doing clearly.

I don't know you personally but when I started reading posts on bluelight your posts struck me as being especially helpful. You have a way of seeing the problem and offering very down to earth, common sense advice. It really is a gift not everyone has.

Whatever this life is, one thing is for sure, there is more to it than what is meeting the eye. Things are not always what they seem. We can be convinced we are not doing anything good when we are actually making a tremendous difference.

Things may look better in the morning.
💞
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Certainly, I am. I appreciate that analysis and support though. It has been a particularly difficult few years in a not super easy existence, and its a bit difficult to not catastrophize at this time, and im just feeling incredibly blank and losing all optimism and enthusiasm for, well everything really
 
It seems like Wisdom from an old and wise soul.

Just keep going . . . and thank you for helping.

Support understanding and the kindness of that knowledge.

And touching hearts.
 
deficiT said:
i can not feel anything. i have not felt anything besides rage in as long as I can remember. its like i was hand picked for dysfunction and dread. i am broken on the level of the soul. there is nothing that can fix this. i do not know how to, be. i do not know how to live and i dont know how to love. the world always wants precisely what I cant give it, and the penalty for my inadequacy is another pound of flesh gone everyday, as i am the convenient whipping post for every cosmic whim conceived in this midnight sunrise of the universe
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hope ur soul could be repaired by something or someone.....i hope u got at least spirit.......cause my spirit is stolen a long time ago....just a living dead....some kinda organism-to feed my self,to warm up when is cold....even no strenght for rage anymore....no strenght to tight the rope around my neck and to kick the chair belows me....with cry or with smile...does not matter-this world is dying.....ofcourse better not had any children at all
 
Doctor's appointment today. This is a Hail Mary as I don't have time to wait 2/5 months for the ENT/Rheumatologist. While the appointments are crawling this thing I'm dealing with is RUNNING and soon I'm out of time as any further damage means I end my own life.

That doctor is going to have to prescribe the methotrexate and the blood thinners/vasodilators because this thing isn't going to wait for the specialists nor is it going to sit back and wait for their tests. It strikes around Xmas time or within a month of Xmas so I WILL be dead if that happens.
 
Flynnal said:
Doctor's appointment today. This is a Hail Mary as I don't have time to wait 2/5 months for the ENT/Rheumatologist. While the appointments are crawling this thing I'm dealing with is RUNNING and soon I'm out of time as any further damage means I end my own life.

That doctor is going to have to prescribe the methotrexate and the blood thinners/vasodilators because this thing isn't going to wait for the specialists nor is it going to sit back and wait for their tests. It strikes around Xmas time or within a month of Xmas so I WILL be dead if that happens.
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Just take a deep breath. I'm wishing for the best and praying for your strength. Do you have anyone close you can reach out to for support?
 
I will be dead soon, sadly. Doctors are just unwilling to do anything. Today I begged for vasodilators and blood thinners. The doctor had some oppositional-defiant attitude because apparently I knew too much.

Well, I know a lot. And another I know is that I WILL KILL MYSELF IF THIS FUCKING SHIT DOES NOT STOP HAPPENING. I KNOW THAT MUCH.

I have already threatened self-harm, and will follow through with those threats if this problem does not go away. Irrespective of the treatment. The treatment should have started fucking years ago. It is already really too late. But if this gets worse, I know what is going to happen and not a damned soul is going to be able to stop me. There are so many things I can do to my body that will ensure I die very quickly. Sure, they might be painful but at the point where I actually do it I'm probably going to be overcome with such blind rage that I am not even going to feel any pain.
 
distAnTKarmA said:
Just take a deep breath. I'm wishing for the best and praying for your strength. Do you have anyone close you can reach out to for support?
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Right now I am under so much stress and feel so much self-hatred that I can't even calm down. All I want to do is crawl into a hole and die because I know that I cannot even fucking TREAT this thing. I KNOW WHAT IT IS AND I CAN'T FUCKING TREAT IT!
 
Is this a forum for people who think about death all the time? I can't take anymore of reddit. Just looking for folks who get it who maybe can relate and wanna chat back n forth. Hope everyone is hanging in there.
 
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