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Sorry about my short post @kiely I've been going through a. Kind of shit time as well. It helps staying as positive as you can...I hope you feel better soon. We are lucky, here if you really need it you can voluntarily admit yourself as an inpatient for at least a couple of weeks. Can you go on a roadtrip or something? Just get out of your head a bit? I hope you feel a lot better soon you really don't deserve to feel like shit.
 
I am a little bit better today. I like to find strength too somehow. I am hypersensitive now so I have to be careful what I take. I guess it is called kindling too.

I know everyone wants to try to understand.


And I hope everyone to keep getting better too. And to keep on trying. I hope everyone will. To keep wanting to go forward also.


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Omg. Its' after 1 o'clock and I feel beat down already. Is that how it is supposed to be !

So I thought it was about 3 o'clock or after. I'm tired already. I wonder if I will start waking up at 3'oclock. I bet I will.

Gawwwd I need to put the energy drinks in a safe.

Or at least put them down. But I have one cooling. It seems to fight the tiredness and heaviness. LoL. And helps me dig my way out for air.

I'm good.
 
thatmf said:
Sorry about my short post @kiely I've been going through a. Kind of shit time as well. It helps staying as positive as you can...I hope you feel better soon. We are lucky, here if you really need it you can voluntarily admit yourself as an inpatient for at least a couple of weeks. Can you go on a roadtrip or something? Just get out of your head a bit? I hope you feel a lot better soon you really don't deserve to feel like shit.
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Thank you. No more road trips. But I try to get out when I can.


You seem to help people a lot. Please pull through.

But yes, It's tough to suffer. You have to be even more stronger than you are.

At least you have the potential to keep on going so you will.


Take Care. Keep helping here. It really is a jungle out there.


Awe thank you for your uplifting and motivation.


Yeah !!! @thatmf :cool:
 
okay just wait. and i'm Really frazzled right now. I will probably be alright in a week or so. Maybe not. Today could be the worst night of my life.

f#ck anxiety.

Alright, where am I. It's fine. It's just borrowed time sometimes. It goes by too fast. Or and I'm switching paths or something.

It was scorching hot today. I got dehydrated. And dehydration doesn't help with anything either. It was very hot today and my anxiety

was high alert. I found a few chill spots to say cool too. I feel a little bit better now. I am trying not to be too much of a downer.

Sometimes that's all there is.

Happy keeping it together. Stay healthy. Be kind to yourself.

Just tryin to keep it lively. Yeah. Lulz and hello's.
 
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how does everyone stay positive in recovery?? I cannot in some moments and it makes it soo much easier to rationalize "just another bag" etc. A few weeks ago I had a relapse with some girl I had just met (we met up only to do heroin) and I started injecting again, which I hadn't done in a year or so. Then I got clean for 5-7 days, then relapsed again and only shot up. Being addicted to Heroin is one thing but being addicted to the needle is another.
Today is day 1 after about 5 days solid of shooting up all day pretty much. I have a smallish stash of 4x8mg suboxone I'm going to use sparingly but it only helps so much and attitude and outlook is the biggest part of it or atleast a bigger part of it. I just cant stay positive though.
It's impossible to find a job, its starting to get dark increasingly early here (yay sweden) and while I do have some hobbies to keep myself busy, they are intertwined with drugs in a way that makes it boring at times to engage in them while sober.
I'm sure Ill figure something out, but any replies are welcome on how to stay positive and on track
edit: changed the time I was clean after double checking my journal. Some days got lost so its still ballpark 5-7 but the initial 1-2 weeks was way off Lol
 
krkkhed said:
how does everyone stay positive in recovery?? I cannot in some moments and it makes it soo much easier to rationalize "just another bag" etc. A few weeks ago I had a relapse with some girl I had just met (we met up only to do heroin) and I started injecting again, which I hadn't done in a year or so. Then I got clean for 5-7 days, then relapsed again and only shot up. Being addicted to Heroin is one thing but being addicted to the needle is another.
Today is day 1 after about 5 days solid of shooting up all day pretty much. I have a smallish stash of 4x8mg suboxone I'm going to use sparingly but it only helps so much and attitude and outlook is the biggest part of it or atleast a bigger part of it. I just cant stay positive though.
It's impossible to find a job, its starting to get dark increasingly early here (yay sweden) and while I do have some hobbies to keep myself busy, they are intertwined with drugs in a way that makes it boring at times to engage in them while sober.
I'm sure Ill figure something out, but any replies are welcome on how to stay positive and on track
edit: changed the time I was clean after double checking my journal. Some days got lost so its still ballpark 5-7 but the initial 1-2 weeks was way off Lol
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Did you relapse on meth? Sorry bit confused. You'll figure it out one day or another. But with heroin there's pathways you can go down (substitution "maintenance therapy?" I think it's called?). With meth you'll just have to go cold turkey. But with heroin I'd say give yourself a date when you want to get your shit together, speak to a doctor get on Methadone or buprenorphine or whatever they have in Sweden. I've seen a lot of people getting their special liquid from a chemist/pharmacist here and they seem like lovely souls and generally functioning pretty well. Anyway I know nothing about this at all, it's not that common here. Meth is the biggest problem we have. But I would try to get professional help man I think if you're honest and want to quit you'll be able to access maintenance therapy, and yeah, it's hard when you've intertwined drugs with hobbies for sure. But I don't think it's worth constantly being on heroin either.
 
thatmf said:
Did you relapse on meth? Sorry bit confused. You'll figure it out one day or another. But with heroin there's pathways you can go down (substitution "maintenance therapy?" I think it's called?). With meth you'll just have to go cold turkey. But with heroin I'd say give yourself a date when you want to get your shit together, speak to a doctor get on Methadone or buprenorphine or whatever they have in Sweden. I've seen a lot of people getting their special liquid from a chemist/pharmacist here and they seem like lovely souls and generally functioning pretty well. Anyway I know nothing about this at all, it's not that common here. Meth is the biggest problem we have. But I would try to get professional help man I think if you're honest and want to quit you'll be able to access maintenance therapy, and yeah, it's hard when you've intertwined drugs with hobbies for sure. But I don't think it's worth constantly being on heroin either.
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I don't use meth no, I haven't for years and even then it was only once or twice. Thanks for the rest of the advice. I am considering getting on a Suboxone/methadoneprogam here but it is sort of difficult due to my situation regarding citizenship here which i wont get in to.
Having a date I want to get clean by is a good idea. I've got my parents visiting in december so maybe I\ll set a date for around then.
Thanks again
 
krkkhed said:
how does everyone stay positive in recovery?? I cannot in some moments and it makes it soo much easier to rationalize "just another bag" etc. A few weeks ago I had a relapse with some girl I had just met (we met up only to do heroin) and I started injecting again, which I hadn't done in a year or so. Then I got clean for 5-7 days, then relapsed again and only shot up. Being addicted to Heroin is one thing but being addicted to the needle is another.
Today is day 1 after about 5 days solid of shooting up all day pretty much. I have a smallish stash of 4x8mg suboxone I'm going to use sparingly but it only helps so much and attitude and outlook is the biggest part of it or atleast a bigger part of it. I just cant stay positive though.
It's impossible to find a job, its starting to get dark increasingly early here (yay sweden) and while I do have some hobbies to keep myself busy, they are intertwined with drugs in a way that makes it boring at times to engage in them while sober.
I'm sure Ill figure something out, but any replies are welcome on how to stay positive and on track
edit: changed the time I was clean after double checking my journal. Some days got lost so its still ballpark 5-7 but the initial 1-2 weeks was way off Lol
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Recovery, atleast for me wasn’t just abstaining from using. On the surface that’s what it looks like but underneath is what counts. Recovery for me was living a life I didn’t need to literally be altered in to survive. And yeah you can say my life wasn’t terrible, it was livable, so why did I start using?..but deep down there was trauma that really fucked me up, some outside sources some internal sources. Before the drugs were self harm, and eating disorders, kleptomania, so it’s always been there. These things went as far back as I can literally remember being concious. So to really get through why I desired substance use I had to understand why I thought like this. Why I had compulsions why I struggled in ways. I had to rebuild things I really liked. They didn’t come in a day, and it’s why MAT helped me. I used both methadone at one point and also suboxone, for years to stabilize. I think it is a good bridge to help people abstain while they figure things out and rebuild a healthy self. Though I’m not saying this is the only way, as it is just MY way.

You need to look at Maslows Hierarchy of Needs, it’s going to be dificult to maintain a job with you in very early recovery and possibly relapsing. You need food, shelter and safety (a stable unaltered/non-WDing mental state), before you can move up and really work toward to the next level.
 
stardust.hero said:
Recovery, atleast for me wasn’t just abstaining from using. On the surface that’s what it looks like but underneath is what counts. Recovery for me was living a life I didn’t need to literally be altered in to survive. And yeah you can say my life wasn’t terrible, it was livable, so why did I start using?..but deep down there was trauma that really fucked me up, some outside sources some internal sources. Before the drugs were self harm, and eating disorders, kleptomania, so it’s always been there. These things went as far back as I can literally remember being concious. So to really get through why I desired substance use I had to understand why I thought like this. Why I had compulsions why I struggled in ways. I had to rebuild things I really liked. They didn’t come in a day, and it’s why MAT helped me. I used both methadone at one point and also suboxone, for years to stabilize. I think it is a good bridge to help people abstain while they figure things out and rebuild a healthy self. Though I’m not saying this is the only way, as it is just MY way.

You need to look at Maslows Hierarchy of Needs, it’s going to be dificult to maintain a job with you in very early recovery and possibly relapsing. You need food, shelter and safety (a stable unaltered/non-WDing mental state), before you can move up and really work toward to the next level.
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Thats true. A job helps me in the way of keeping me to a schedule though and in the past has helped me maintain sobriety for a decent amount of time but it's true, it does lead to relapse once I have money but I don't binge or use at work at least. I will look into that more though I am already familiar with Maslows Hierarchy of Needs.
Also the thing you said about before the drugs were self harm eating disorders etc. rings true for me as well, I am the same, I was working on some of my trauma but I stopped when I started using heavily again. I'll have to restart.
Thank you
 
krkkhed said:
What do you mean? I'm not travelling right now, I flew here from Canada months ago and haven't travelled anywhere since then. Sorry just not sure what you mean
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Sorry language difference. By "travelling" I mean "how are you going"
 
thatmf said:
ie "how is your "journey" going" :)
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oh I see. It's going well so far. Managed to stay on the suboxone, got a job interview on friday, slight sense of stability in my life now, still money troubles and issues with motivation but at least I'm not spending as much now and don't spend an entire day running around the city for heroin. Everythings better in that regard, but I still have a lot of work to do...
I've managed to work on some music and video editing without drugs, so that is good, distancing drugs from my hobby
 
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