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DianeMarie

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Hi. Id like to get some insight on ...a question to which I cannot find anyone asking it, let alone any answers to.

So I want to know,.. has anyone had the experience of being in a relationship with someone else who also smokes meth , you both smoke it regularly, but your boyfriend or girlfriend doesn't want you smoking it by yourself?

My boyfriend knows I stay inside when I'm smoking anyway...I don't want to go anywhere because when I'm high, people give me anxiety. It's not like I get all sexual and wanna go get some. But it could be something like this because he's a jealous type ( his past girlfriends double crossed him and cheated on him. Don't think they smoked, though.)

So what is this thing? Also, all the boyfriends ( 2exes) before all got weird when I got spun. It's not like I did anything THEY didn't do.. I think it may be an ego thing. (?)

Thank you for any insights
 
DianeMarie said:
Hi. Id like to get some insight on ...a question to which I cannot find anyone asking it, let alone any answers to.

So I want to know,.. has anyone had the experience of being in a relationship with someone else who also smokes meth , you both smoke it regularly, but your boyfriend or girlfriend doesn't want you smoking it by yourself?

My boyfriend knows I stay inside when I'm smoking anyway...I don't want to go anywhere because when I'm high, people give me anxiety. It's not like I get all sexual and wanna go get some. But it could be something like this because he's a jealous type ( his past girlfriends double crossed him and cheated on him. Don't think they smoked, though.)

So what is this thing? Also, all the boyfriends ( 2exes) before all got weird when I got spun. It's not like I did anything THEY didn't do.. I think it may be an ego thing. (?)

Thank you for any insights
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I was seeing a girl and we both smoked meth together. When I met her we started out doing blow together. Eventually she told me she was also smoking meth. She’s the one who gave me my first hits of meth even though she kept telling me she didn’t want to get me into it. That first hit was so incredible for me it got me hooked, and she proceeded to encourage me and get me so high and even more hooked on it. We began using regularly together. The thing was when we were apart and one was smoking it and the other didn’t have any. The person who wasn’t smoking it would get so jealous. I remember one time she was smoking and I didn’t have any I was so jealous she was getting high and I wasn’t. The same thing happened when I had some and she didn’t and we weren’t together. We literally got to the point where both of us were not wanting the other to smoke it by themselves only with each other, but since we lived an hour away from each other we used separately very often. The jealousy was so bad. So I think it is a lot about that other person is jealous and worried you might get high by yourself and they won’t have any. Where as if your together then your both using it or your both not. If that makes sense? That’s my opinion on it anyway from being in that situation as well.
 
You guys all know I don't judge. After all, I'm a dirty, filthy junkie myself, so I won't throw stones in a glass house. I feel it would be extremely difficult to maintain a true, loving relationship with both people using Methamphetamine. The problem lies in the fact that as addicts, the drugs come first, however much we may not want to admit it. I was with a girl I loved. I believed she was my soul mate... all of that jazz. I would have done anything for her.

The rub was that although I loved her immensely, I loved Heroin just that little bit more. You can be a great partner, loving, caring; you can do all of these things. The issue is, you can't start doing those things until you've gotten well/high. There will be moments where you are faced with a decision between the two. As an addict, I would probably say "I don't have to choose, because I'm going to do both flawlessly". It still makes me sad all these years later, as now I'm sober.

Anyway, I believe these issues could be jealousy over the drug. That's not a crazy notion. If it were my girl, I would be pretty afraid she would end up putting her massively increased libido to good use. With enough Amphetamine in my system, I could have sex with lots of stuff.

That's my guess(es). Otherwise, you have to accept that if you're both using Methamphetamine, disagreements are going to happen. People are paranoid about their partners anyway. If you throw Methamphetamine into that mix, it could easily become a strong obsession. If you really care about this person, if you love them and want to be with them for a long time, the only way it will work is without Methamphetamine in the picture. People can do lots of things under the influence of Methamphetamine, however, its effects on your mind(s) make love and kindness almost impossible.

I hope it works out and you're able to be happy together however that happens. As this is not a Harm Reduction topic per se, more of a social topic, I'm going to move this over to our Relationships sub-forum (yup, we've got one).

Ryan
 
when you argue over drugs in a relationship, it's a problem, and you both have a problem and either the drugs need to end or the relationship needs to end, or it will continue to be a problem


and it is very cut and dry like that as far as im concerned
 
Ya well that relationship ended for me then I got sober for 6 years, and my sobriety ended tonight. I’ve been smoking meth all night and am so fucked up it feels amazing. Not sure why I ever got sober, because this meth is so amazing. There is now way I’m getting sober again. Tonight really had reminded me of how much I fucking love it, and there is no way I’m stopping this time. I want it all the time I I don’t remember wanting it this bad before I got sober, but I can’t stop thinking about my next hit from my pipe, and this might be fucked up, but I’m loving every fucking second of this. I’m so fucking hooked, but I wouldn’t change this night for anything. It reminded me of my love for meth, and that I should have never got sober. I’m officially done with sobriety now after tonight and nothing is going to change that. I feel so amazing haha.
 
Im currently in a relationship where we both do Meth and can confirm its probably in its final stages.
Exactly the circumstances already stated, If she has it I get jelous, if I have it she gets jealous. If we have it together, its you had more so im taking this…. You get the picture.
Don’t for second think oh we are better than that, we could never fight over gear. You will. The phycology behind it is tried and tested. Plus its now twice as hard to quit because if either one of you trip you both fall…
At 1st best relationship ever, (dopamine hit - always done with that person so double reinforcement)
Dopamine hits block the serotonin you need to build together, because thats the trust, thats the bonding. If your too busy smashing dopamine that serotonin connection wont be made, or wont b strong.

Please take care, dont go through what Im having too. I love this woman more than anything but am going to have to break it off because the district and dishonesty that Meth has caused us.
 
jhaze43 said:
Ya well that relationship ended for me then I got sober for 6 years, and my sobriety ended tonight. I’ve been smoking meth all night and am so fucked up it feels amazing. Not sure why I ever got sober, because this meth is so amazing. There is now way I’m getting sober again. Tonight really had reminded me of how much I fucking love it, and there is no way I’m stopping this time. I want it all the time I I don’t remember wanting it this bad before I got sober, but I can’t stop thinking about my next hit from my pipe, and this might be fucked up, but I’m loving every fucking second of this. I’m so fucking hooked, but I wouldn’t change this night for anything. It reminded me of my love for meth, and that I should have never got sober. I’m officially done with sobriety now after tonight and nothing is going to change that. I feel so amazing haha.
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wondering if the comedown reminded you of why you stopped?

all fun and games when we're high, then....
 
jhaze43 said:
I was seeing a girl and we both smoked meth together. When I met her we started out doing blow together. Eventually she told me she was also smoking meth. She’s the one who gave me my first hits of meth even though she kept telling me she didn’t want to get me into it. That first hit was so incredible for me it got me hooked, and she proceeded to encourage me and get me so high and even more hooked on it. We began using regularly together. The thing was when we were apart and one was smoking it and the other didn’t have any. The person who wasn’t smoking it would get so jealous. I remember one time she was smoking and I didn’t have any I was so jealous she was getting high and I wasn’t. The same thing happened when I had some and she didn’t and we weren’t together. We literally got to the point where both of us were not wanting the other to smoke it by themselves only with each other, but since we lived an hour away from each other we used separately very often. The jealousy was so bad. So I think it is a lot about that other person is jealous and worried you might get high by yourself and they won’t have any. Where as if your together then your both using it or your both not. If that makes sense? That’s my opinion on it anyway from being in that situation as well.
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And there's the rub.

A relationship based around drugs isn't a relationship at all.

(though it can provide the best sex ever...)
 
DianeMarie said:
Hi. Id like to get some insight on ...a question to which I cannot find anyone asking it, let alone any answers to.

So I want to know,.. has anyone had the experience of being in a relationship with someone else who also smokes meth , you both smoke it regularly, but your boyfriend or girlfriend doesn't want you smoking it by yourself?

My boyfriend knows I stay inside when I'm smoking anyway...I don't want to go anywhere because when I'm high, people give me anxiety. It's not like I get all sexual and wanna go get some. But it could be something like this because he's a jealous type ( his past girlfriends double crossed him and cheated on him. Don't think they smoked, though.)

So what is this thing? Also, all the boyfriends ( 2exes) before all got weird when I got spun. It's not like I did anything THEY didn't do.. I think it may be an ego thing. (?)

Thank you for any insights
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DianeMarie said:
Hi. Id like to get some insight on ...a question to which I cannot find anyone asking it, let alone any answers to.

So I want to know,.. has anyone had the experience of being in a relationship with someone else who also smokes meth , you both smoke it regularly, but your boyfriend or girlfriend doesn't want you smoking it by yourself?

My boyfriend knows I stay inside when I'm smoking anyway...I don't want to go anywhere because when I'm high, people give me anxiety. It's not like I get all sexual and wanna go get some. But it could be something like this because he's a jealous type ( his past girlfriends double crossed him and cheated on him. Don't think they smoked, though.)

So what is this thing? Also, all the boyfriends ( 2exes) before all got weird when I got spun. It's not like I did anything THEY didn't do.. I think it may be an ego thing. (?)

Thank you for any insights
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I would rather stay home when I do meth and a few of my ex gf always wanted to go out and hang with ppl or go for walks but the always showed signs of tweaking and to me that was a nope I can't do ppl today lol I would rather smoke with my new gf and stay home and do whatever comes about and not take a chance to get popped by the asshole cops. My ex gf's would always want to smoke with or without me and my current gf only like to smoke with me because of anxiety issues, I don't mind smoking alone because I know I'm not going out to do some dumb spun shit
 
spundragonfun said:
I would rather stay home when I do meth and a few of my ex gf always wanted to go out and hang with ppl or go for walks but the always showed signs of tweaking and to me that was a nope I can't do ppl today lol I would rather smoke with my new gf and stay home and do whatever comes about and not take a chance to get popped by the asshole cops. My ex gf's would always want to smoke with or without me and my current gf only like to smoke with me because of anxiety issues, I don't mind smoking alone because I know I'm not going out to do some dumb spun shit
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How long have you and this girl been together?
How often do you smoke meth together? How often did you smoke when you guys weren’t together?
Did she smoke it on her own before she met you?
 
pixies+ said:
How long have you and this girl been together?
How often do you smoke meth together? How often did you smoke when you guys weren’t together?
Did she smoke it on her own before she met you?
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My current gf been with about 9 months, we smoke a few times a week but she would rather boof it, I smoke it whenever I get it along with lines, hotrails and no she was more a weed person before we met. To be honest I do more then then she does and she don't mind because she trusts me not to do dumb shit
 
@DianeMarie I've never been in a relationship that was predicated on Methamphetamine and/or stimulants in general. I've also never been in a relationship with another person who was addicted to Opioids, my drug of choice. I've only ever been an addict with a non-addict trying to deal with/tolerate my behavior. Long in a short, it doesn't work. When I see Opioid addicts in relationships describing themselves, it's palpable how much they want to believe they are truly in love, though they know they are not.

We spend our entire lives trying to find the person we are meant to be with. That is the dream. If you ask me, the perfect relationship can be a lot of things to a lot of people. I believe honesty is always required.

With two people addicted to Methamphetamine, you take the already highly improbable task of finding and coupling with your soulmate and make it exponentially more difficult.

In my experience, addicts as couples only enable addicts to be more destructive to themselves and others through the concept of teamwork. It can seem fun in the moment, but it's not the "love" that we all are searching for.
 
Keif' Richards said:
In my experience, addicts as couples only enable addicts to be more destructive to themselves and others through the concept of teamwork. It can seem fun in the moment, but it's not the "love" that we all are searching for.
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Highly recommend the film 'Animals' for cinematic exploration of the dynamics of an addict couple.
 
@TheUltimateFixx I just checked the movie out. It looks pretty cool. I'm gonna put it on when I'm back at the house. Thanks for the recommendation. It's too hard to find quality these days. Everything is Spider Man 13 or the 26th incarnation of Batman.

I was always a big fan of "Panic in Needle Park". Al Pacino is a Heroin addict/dealer/user and he starts a relationship with a girl not from NYC that leads both of them to dependence. I thought it was a really great illustration of this topic. I assume they had a real addict as one of their advisors.
 
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