RampantHeadcase
Greenlighter
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- Sep 13, 2024
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Hey guys. I came across a post talking about the “Berneese Method” and I think that post could possibly save my life. I will give a little bit of back story and then get to my main question. I was addicted to Oxycontin back around 2009. Stayed clean for a few years, and then had a couple of minor slip ups around 2018. Decided back then to nip it in the bud right there, so I started taking suboxone and it helped. I know sub can be a slippery slope as well, however they not only prevented me from abusing opioids, I cut out every other vice I had while using them. Smoking pot, alcohol etc. Fast forward to earlier this year, I was involved in a pretty bad car wreck, and had to have surgery on my shoulder as well as all of the cartilage in between 3 vertebra in my neck being completely destroyed. The doctor tried to give me a referral to a pain management clinic and I turned him down, not wanting to get back on opioids again. However the pain I was in could not be ignored and I was in agony for a few weeks after my surgery. Here is where my addict brain decided to make the dumbest decision in years. Instead of going back to the doctor and telling him maybe I should take him up on his offer due to the pain, but ask for just small batches of legal painkillers, my dumbass bought “roxies”’from a “friend” who swore he got them from his aunt who sold her scripts. I had been out of the game so long, I had no idea how incredibly spot on the cartels had become in their pill presses. When I tell you that before I did one I literally went on every website comparing the pills to the pictures to make sure they were legit. They were not but I had no idea. After about two weeks I realized I was losing control and slipping back into behaviors I thought I had buried years ago. So went to my doctor and just came clean. He was fine writing me a script for suboxone and I thought that was the end of it. My ignorant self had no idea precipitated withdrawal existed and let me tell you, the 2 days of absolute hell I found myself in, it literally traumatized me so hard my brain told me “Nope not taking that chance again” so I went into a full on 4 month bender I am trying to break free from. Thankfully I learned about the berneese method from this forum and after reading a bunch of the users experiences with it, as well as watching a long web symposium on it, decided that is what I am going to do. I started today, and strangely enough had way less of a craving for the blues throughout the day, but that could be a placebo effect and also my brain rewarding me for finding the strength to say enough is enough. My biggest question is, when do you take the suboxone vs when do you do your normal illicit opioid. Today I did .5mg sub in the morning and then did a blue about an hour later. Figure the sub dose was so low it doesn’t matter, but I would imagine as the dose increases it might matter. The whole point of this method is to AVOID precipitated withdrawal. I know it will not completely painless, however I still need to be able to work. And honestly I feel like the physical symptoms of WD is what I am most afraid of. If any of you guys have successfully done this method to get off the absolute posion that is fent, please let me know how you guys balanced the timing of your microdose subs vs your daily fent for the first few days. Thanks a lot guys this forum might have saved my life.
