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Mental Health Coming off Invega/Xeplion (paliperidone) injections v. 9

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I experienced the gang stalking phenomenon one day when I was going for a walk, it felt very real at the time I thought almost every car driving past was watching me. I wish I had been warned that weed could cause delusions like that, they warn you about every other drug and all they say about weed is that it’ll cause you to trip out and become lazy. 🙄

They didn’t say anything about drugs in the Hospital I was involuntarily admitted. I seriously didn’t know why I was there the entire time and of course I refused the pills, no one told me what they were and they put sleeping pills in with them one time they forced me to take them.

It felt so bad like I’d been shot with a tranquilizer like a wild animal. I think if I had of taken the pills and got out I would’ve stayed out but the nurses were incompetent and didn’t even watch you take them, so I didn’t. The injections are the absolute worst thing to ever exist. I’ve lost interest in everything and would rather die than continue on, even if you gave me $1,000,000 I’d still want to die.
 
The only thing which interests me really is the unconscious mind. After invega my path of healing isn't over, it's lifelong. It's my current purpose which keeps me going. I feel like 50% it's invega and 50% it's me causing no pleasure. It has to do a lot with acceptance too. How can something heal otherwise. I hate invega no doubt but this bad situation made me rethink my life of a change. I don't think things happen without reason after that
 
I started a solid diet two weeks ago. I was consuming over 2,000 calories daily to maintain my weight for the past 14 months but cut it down to 1,000-1,200 calories a day, eating just once a day. I’ve also cut out sugary drinks and started drinking a gallon of water, which keeps me fuller. In the last two weeks, I’ve lost 15 pounds, though 5-6 pounds of that is water weight; the rest is fat from a 700-1,000 calorie deficit. I haven’t been below 200 pounds in six years, and my pre-Invega weight was 203. I only gained 12 pounds on Invega because I controlled my eating. I'm barley active, just some occasional cycling for groceries. My goal is to hit 160 pounds, which is a healthy weight for my height, and eventually join a gym to start building muscle.
 
Great, I feel rejection sensitive dysphoria again now. This is the number one source of my suicidal ideation, even worse than the OCD shit. Yaaaaaay.

At least I have feelings again.
 
I have a question for you guys. Since I was hospitalized I have entirely lost my personality, my ability to form new memories, I can no longer perceive the passing of time, and I lost all my feelings. Is this brain damage? And is there a chance at even recovering?
 
Harmedbypsychward said:
I have a question for you guys. Since I was hospitalized I have entirely lost my personality, my ability to form new memories, I can no longer perceive the passing of time, and I lost all my feelings. Is this brain damage? And is there a chance at even recovering?
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Some of that seems to be from the psych ward itself in y experience not the drugs. I think its just the dehumanizing experience
 
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Harmedbypsychward said:
I have a question for you guys. Since I was hospitalized I have entirely lost my personality, my ability to form new memories, I can no longer perceive the passing of time, and I lost all my feelings. Is this brain damage? And is there a chance at even recovering?
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Are you on any new drugs? I think just being on Parnate will be okay for you. Antipsychotics, Benadryl, or mood stabilizers or SSRIs and SNRIs need to be avoided because they make PSSD crash.

It sounds like PSSD on top of invega aftereffects, same shit I went through.

YES, ABSOLUTELY, THERE IS A CHANCE AT RECOVERY! I have a lot of my emotions and personality back, I feel like I'm 80% there on that front. I have no more dp/dr and just a trace of anhedonia. It took a year to get here though, from the PSSD onset. Getting PSSD is a massive setback to healing from invega but I believe it is just a setback.

You should take vitamin C or nicotinic acid (flushing niacin) to demethylate the genes that got methylated from taking an SSRI and it should help you bounce back faster. Vitamin C is safer, I take 500mg a day. Take zinc to help bring your testosterone up again too. Make sure you go for walks every day or go to the gym. TV and video games help get rid of anhedonia.
 
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I feel my kindness, empathy and sensitivity more again. I'm almost there emotionally now. I thought I would never get here. I still have a ways to go before I feel complete, but I think I can describe myself as a sensitive empathic person again.
 
As a suggestion, maybe try to be a bit more careful on giving categorical medical advice. Your own experience is fine, and contributes to the value of the thread. Everyone's different. I know a lot of people who've done very well on SSRIs, for example. Not to bash anyone. I hope this thread is of some use. My heart goes out to y'all. Recovery is no easy feat!
 
AlphaMethylPhenyl said:
As a suggestion, maybe try to be a bit more careful on giving categorical medical advice. Your own experience is fine, and contributes to the value of the thread. Everyone's different. I know a lot of people who've done very well on SSRIs, for example. Not to bash anyone. I hope this thread is of some use. My heart goes out to y'all. Recovery is no easy feat!
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I think SSRIs are generally safe, but they are not safe after being overmedicated on antipsychotics. Sometimes people get PSSD from them but this most often happens when people quit cold turkey or there's a rare glitch where a person's receptors, SERT, or serotonin receptors fail to go back to normal. I think some antipsychotics make it harder for the brain to get back to where it was before. It's a good thing when you actually need treatment for schitzophernia, but I don't have that and the result was a failure to upregulate after SSRI withdrawal.
 
InvegaAnon said:
I think SSRIs are generally safe, but they are not safe after being overmedicated on antipsychotics. Sometimes people get PSSD from them but this most often happens when people quit cold turkey or there's a rare glitch where a person's receptors, SERT, or serotonin receptors fail to go back to normal. I think some antipsychotics make it harder for the brain to get back to where it was before. It's a good thing when you actually need treatment for schitzophernia, but I don't have that and the result was a failure to upregulate after SSRI withdrawal.
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I find that the longer I am off meds the lesser the voices are. Maybe it's also because I tried to accept it, embrace it than supress it. Idk If that's really Schizophrenia or something else.
 
Harmedbypsychward said:
I have a question for you guys. Since I was hospitalized I have entirely lost my personality, my ability to form new memories, I can no longer perceive the passing of time, and I lost all my feelings. Is this brain damage? And is there a chance at even recovering?
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I'm unable (or less able in the best case) to form positive memories that are worth having. Maybe this is memory damage. This is why I completely abandoned short-term things and do long-term ones, long-term has the most potential to change how I feel at the present moment and these are more lasting and constant, thus I don't need memory for these.
 
Has anyone found the longer your off invega your sleeping gets worse? I'm 6 and a half months off invega and can't get any deep sleep keep waking up every few minutes and have a hard time falling back asleep
 
I'm really poor and I'm still looking for a job, but I really need to treat my PCOS and low estrogen because it is causing suicidal mood swings during hormonal fluctuations. I have Metformin, but I'm scared of it because my estrogen is probably still low and it's going to make it lower and it seems to irritate my IBD so I only took it for two days. The only other PCOS treatment I like right now is myo-inositol and the cheapest stuff I could find is 22 dollars. My friends can't help me right now, I need help. I'd like to have it before my next period.

I hate to be a beggar, so I'll send you two prints of my art if you give me 25 dollars to cover cost+shipping.

Has anyone else had ridiculous mood swings after invega when you ovulate or menstruate? I never had that, sometimes I would get a little depressed and that's it and I never got depressed like that at all when I was smoking weed. I'm scared it's going to make me kill myself.

I'd like to get this specific brand. DM me if you want to help. https://wholesomestory.com/products/pure-myo-inositol
 
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invega-survivor101 said:
Has anyone found the longer your off invega your sleeping gets worse? I'm 6 and a half months off invega and can't get any deep sleep keep waking up every few minutes and have a hard time falling back asleep
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no I sleep 6 to 7 hours max without waking up
 
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