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Anyone dropped out of life?

Eryximachus said:
Who did this labeling and how does it affect your life decisions?
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Somesort of social security service but then be for disabily to work. How I autorized them to make direct contact with my Dr. Mistake 1.

Who sent a totally bizar and wrong diagnosis on which the disability was based. As I discovered this by asking up my file I found out it was my own dr who sent it, he alway's denied involvement. Then I discovered my medical files were also being read by people without the proper medical grade. Which I allready knew as my counseler knew things that were medically prohibited.

3 rules:
-No authorisation, just via the client to the dr and back. So you know what is in it.
-Alway's ask up your whole file.
-Except most professional's don't follow the law, dr. confidality, protocol's and all that kinda things. The law is just on paper. That's why you'll have to have all your files. Everything in in could be selective writing from their side. Just to save their asses.

How does a stigma affect you, well my now dr. offered me guided living? Stigma?
Been living without troubles from 19 till now. So it does make your view on society a bit more colder.
 
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garygroundwork said:
Interesting... what do you do with your time?

Addictions?
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Currently im not actually addicted to anything. I get prescribed morphine, clonazepam, bromazepam and zopiclone but am not addicted to either as i always take breaks. I don't take them for any longer then 2 weks in a row now.

These days usually what i do is lift weights, talk to friends on the internet and in the summer time go 4 wheeling or go to my cabin or something. I can only do that when my pain is not acting up though
 
paranoid android said:
Currently im not actually addicted to anything. I get prescribed morphine, clonazepam, bromazepam and zopiclone but am not addicted to either as i always take breaks. I don't take them for any longer then 2 weks in a row now.

These days usually what i do is lift weights, talk to friends on the internet and in the summer time go 4 wheeling or go to my cabin or something. I can only do that when my pain is not acting up though
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how are you mentally
 
garygroundwork said:
how are you mentally
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Im pretty good these days i have to say. I used to get depression when i was younger but havent had it now in about 5 years or so. I also had psychosis and cotards syndrome about 5 years ago and endeed up i the psych ward but i havent had any psychotic episodes since being treated with antipsychotics. Now i am taking zyprexa for it and don't get any real side effects from it not even weight gain.

Really what i enentually want to do if i ever get the money is move to the Australian outback and live off grid there. I have trigeminal neuralgia and the heat is much nicer to me then the cold is hence why i dread winter. Also my best friend lives in Australia and gets like every drug on the go even a few that dont exist anymore like diconal.

But ya my dream is to live off grid in the aussie outback and just have satellite internet for keeping in touch with people. That would be good enough. Im not big on cities now which is weird because when i was younger i was happy living in big cities like toronto and ottawa. But now i can't stand cities really and only go to the city here when i have to. Granted the capitol city here sucks balls anyway. Such a ghetto. I also hate being around that many people now.

I guess my goal now is to drop further out of society even. I honestly hate western society even more now after being locked up in the psych ward. I really dont want anything to do with a society that treats people like that
 
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garygroundwork said:
When I say dropped out of life I mean:

stopped caring about working
stopped caring about relationships
stopped caring about gym and exercise
stopped caring about social life

How was it?? What did you do?? Positives and negatives?
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I did, though it wasn't voluntarily. I was a chain of events that led to mbeing physically isolated and with little means, opportunities or space to do much else than work, binge watch series, and try to sleep. Though I lived alone, I was completely dependent on my parents for almost anything. Eventually I was at a point when I thought "that's it, I'm not getting out of here".

But I refused to give up, and eventually I got out.
 
lecroute said:
I did, though it wasn't voluntarily. I was a chain of events that led to mbeing physically isolated and with little means, opportunities or space to do much else than work, binge watch series, and try to sleep. Though I lived alone, I was completely dependent on my parents for almost anything. Eventually I was at a point when I thought "that's it, I'm not getting out of here".

But I refused to give up, and eventually I got out.
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Awe it's not easy if you are not handed a silver spoon, but even so, if you are, you have to spend it well.

It's very tough to have to work for everything.

Sorry to but in ski . . . but I just got back on line, saw the latest posts and I decided to contribute to a post.

Some folks make it through the journey and say they couldn't be happier . . . . I don't know if they are just making

that up or just saying it to sound good.

But a lot of people sure struggle out there, yeah. !!

edit: Darn I made a typo already. I have to go back to spelling school. omg lool.
 
lecroute said:
Getting out of the hole is only the first step.

We all typo. It's also a part of life.
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yes, mam. it could be a definite priority and goal. and then life just happens sometimes. but you only get one is the saddest things I think.

like I always like to say now. YOLO !!!!!!!!!!! :)

oh and typo's I dunno !
 
I would swear spell check is changing my words. I had to go back and change a bunches of them.

Aghhh. I don't know. I will blame it on the solar flares. he he.

I wrote saddest and it posted as safest. I just don't see it.
 
.. Though if we're talking seriously giving up on myself, was when I was living in a dosshouse off my head on gear constantly, and ODing left and right and not giving a fuck.
 
Right feeling like im in “purgatory”, not living just existing. At the tail end (I hope) of my worst months in my 44 years. Failed spine surgery last year that ended my career (had just landed THE job), living in a country i hate and zero social life other than seeing my daughter once or twice a month.

The last of my friends disappeared during my last relationship (they didn’t like her). And finally realized my blood family will never be there for me (long story in itself)

So right now, unable to work, no social life and living alone life sucks. Using a bit drugs here and there out of boredom and to take pain breaks. No ongoing addictions. Coming out of my until now worst depression. (If not for my kid I would have ended it)

But all is not bad. Once my disability benefits are set up, Im leaving Europe. Moving to be with my fiancée in Indonesia. And it’s probably a good thing drugs are very unavailable there…..

My passion is landscape photography, I absolutely love it. Gives me more meaning than any job did. And whenever I’m in SE Asia i “become alive”, almost turning extrovert.

But right now just waiting, bot being able to move on with my life sucks. My days consist of gym (when im not too sick), watching and reading sci fi. And a daily video-call. Just two months ago I barely had the motivation to drag myself in the shower.

Its a fucking miracle i havent developed any addiction in this period. Got easy access (and money) to anything i want. I even have a half gram H I haven’t dared touch. Drawer full of oxy, benzos and various painkillers. Was doing Ketamine IM twice a week for a while, but stopped now worrying about bladder issues. Take dexamphetamine on and off to get trough days (Prescribed for ADHD)
 
If you find something to do, someone to love, and something to look forward to at least you can have happiness.

Have a beautiful day as much as you can while you still can. And whenever you can.

And count each of your blessings because without your health, you can be debilitated. Literally.

<3
 
spyfish said:
Right feeling like im in “purgatory”, not living just existing. At the tail end (I hope) of my worst months in my 44 years. Failed spine surgery last year that ended my career (had just landed THE job), living in a country i hate and zero social life other than seeing my daughter once or twice a month.

The last of my friends disappeared during my last relationship (they didn’t like her). And finally realized my blood family will never be there for me (long story in itself)

So right now, unable to work, no social life and living alone life sucks. Using a bit drugs here and there out of boredom and to take pain breaks. No ongoing addictions. Coming out of my until now worst depression. (If not for my kid I would have ended it)

But all is not bad. Once my disability benefits are set up, Im leaving Europe. Moving to be with my fiancée in Indonesia. And it’s probably a good thing drugs are very unavailable there…..

My passion is landscape photography, I absolutely love it. Gives me more meaning than any job did. And whenever I’m in SE Asia i “become alive”, almost turning extrovert.

But right now just waiting, bot being able to move on with my life sucks. My days consist of gym (when im not too sick), watching and reading sci fi. And a daily video-call. Just two months ago I barely had the motivation to drag myself in the shower.

Its a fucking miracle i havent developed any addiction in this period. Got easy access (and money) to anything i want. I even have a half gram H I haven’t dared touch. Drawer full of oxy, benzos and various painkillers. Was doing Ketamine IM twice a week for a while, but stopped now worrying about bladder issues. Take dexamphetamine on and off to get trough days (Prescribed for ADHD)
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HEYY!! Fellow landscape photographer here, and I'm fortunate enough to live in a fucking national park. I only have to walk out of the door in order to see potential motifs.
And yeah it helped me deal with my addictive behaviours, because when I capture that PERFECT shot it feels like it gives me a high of sorts.
 
When I was forced to be sober for a couple years via a court order from my parents (that the judge approved ofc) I dropped out of life completely in every aspect. I am not a functional member of society without drugs unfortunately.
 
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