Good luck to you JR, truly awful experience, it's the physicall sensations and auditory hallucinations that were worse, i stopped CT due to supply issues.
No sleep for one week and washing the bedsheets everyday, i was exhausted by the end, had my late parents visit me in bed, along with cartel members discussing my murder the following day (i'd been watching CJNG) stuff.
I was lucky i had some dodgy random dosed bromazolam (prodes) that helped slightly.
Anyway i got a vendor on TG but thick fuck me could'nt sort the deposit and transfer. Even closest btc ATM is 45 miles away.
I have some Bromazolam in a solution now so i can at least dose correctly for sleep.
I even had an evening trying to get one of my rescue cats in at 11pm and were still at it at 3am (game to her), i was in withdrawal by this point and had given up so left a window open and went to bed, as it was getting light i thought fk it i'll get dressed and go and look, found a neighbour wrapping her in a blood soaked towel, trigger a full on melt down in the gutter at 6am. (i let that cat down because of my habit)..
I am living days filled with terror, i'm so sensitive to light i struggle to go out.
The fact i can get some sleep atm and having to feed my other cat is the only thing keeping me going atm
I know i can beat this but this 'period' is insane, i struggle to write legebly.
I have been in touch with local drug services and they are stretched beyond belief (waiting on a callback), an A+E visit = sectioned.
And can't afford private visit.
let this be a warning to those tapering or thinking CT wont be that bad then i pray for you. Stay tapering and don't fuck with it, and as for CT, just don't, stockpile
some if you can but don't just stop, please.
I've witnessed a lot of trauma in life so i'm going to push on with it.
please think about your exit plan from benzoz, cut down, stockpile as much as possible.
Take care of yourselves and any benzo user you know, especially with zenes in the supply.
x 50shadesofdave x