fixedfaleina
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- Feb 8, 2024
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So I've been on a low dose of Suboxone. Im pretty much constant withdrawal. I wasn't that physically dependent the last time I decided to get clean but I was too dependent to cold turkey, I couldn't deal w it, so I was put on Suboxone. At the time I wanted to be clean so I decided to really give it a try. Well, it's fucking bullshit. I've been in constant withdrawal since the day I went on the medication. I know that this is because I'm always taking it "wrong" There's SO MANY WAYS TO TAKE THIS SHIT WRONG. I know my dose is probably too small but I'm terrified if I up it, I'll never get off it. And that scares me because I'm terrified it'll build up in my system and I won't be able to get high for a long time and I don't want to commit to that, that might not even be true but the way my brain works, WONT let me see it any other way. But I have so many more reasons why I hate this medication, if I miss my dose by a couple hours because I will ALWAYS do that, no matter what I do. But if I do, I will be in WITHDRAWALS for DAYS. like what??!! I couldn't tell ya. Honestly no matter what I do with this fucking medication I END UP IN WITHDRAWALS. It doesn't work. And there's NO way in hell I'm going up in doses. I had the same problem on 2-8 twice a day. Once a day is ALL I CAN TAKE. Because at least since I'm on such a tiny dose the withdrawals are manageable and by manageable I mean barely tolerable with a spoonful of suicidal ideation. This medication is so finicky and the side effects are NASTY. Sorry if I sound mad. I'm really just in the worst suboxone withdrawals yet and I'm so tired. This medication is taking so much out of me. Anyways, is anyone else going through this? Is it just me? Are the others any better? It'd be really great to hear someone elses experience.