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I was cooking and kept forgetting I was taking things out that were already out that I was looking for but didn't need to. I kept forgetting things and missing things.

Now my left side of my jaw is locked up again. It happened a few months ago except my whole jaw was locked. And I tried to be careful just like when I had cluster

headaches to not let them happen again. Now it's locked on my left side. And tough to swallow too for some reason now this time.

Lucky I still got some food down me today and I don't want to eat anyway. . now. I don't feel good.



I hope it doesn't get worse though. I did have some kratom today because I was having a tough time functioning from this morning But . . . . . everytime I take gabapentin

something bad keeps resulting from it. So it very well could be the gabapentin but I feel so awful I feel like taking more of the gabapentin to take away the withdrawal and bad

effects from it. Like this.


I took the gabapentn almost near 24 hours ago maybe 18 hours but yesterday morning and I am going to take more to see if it will stop the agony. Yes it was a terd day.

So I am just going to give in and try to see if the gabapenitin will help. I haven't taken any yet though. Maybe next time I will try a baby aspirin only and then ween with cherry

and orange baby aspirins but I am suffering right now. I just don't want it to get any worse than it already is.


I haven't had real extreme symptoms from kratom it just dumbs me down and makes me feel like I keep doing stupid things and I get a lot of confusion from it

but it helps . . . yes with my chronic immune system pain from inflammation. At least I get to take my once a week inflammation medication tomorrow and maybe that might

be able to help with my cramping up so badly.


I am so scared because what if it is coronary artery disease and then I will have to put up with all of that stuff too. Unless I just go suddenly. I'm still trying to get better.
 
Oh I have to darken everything and get a cold rag now and an ice pak before I end up in a hospital.



I just have to make it through this one more night it seems. I think I can.
 
morning guys. been in the tub, smoking darts & having my coffee. took my morning sub dose. about to go for my nature walk (because we’re all about naturemaxxing here 😤) been chatting up a girl looking to move to georgia, so it’s been nice having an extra friend to talk to :)
 
tokayeahok said:
morning guys. been in the tub, smoking darts & having my coffee. took my morning sub dose. about to go for my nature walk (because we’re all about naturemaxxing here 😤) been chatting up a girl looking to move to georgia, so it’s been nice having an extra friend to talk to :)
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That all sounds super awesome. Cheers.
 
elgoucho9 said:
Morning peoples.

Up early since 5.30am with the dog here again. Stormy weather once more.

Was in bed out for the count stoned on some nice hash. Currently just on the exercise bike trying to get an hours session in as the weather outside is so bad doubt I'll get out much today and need to burn off last nights cheese toasties lol.

Acheived a casual 90minutes in the end
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Not going at full pace but did 25k in that time
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And burnt 380 cals. So surely last nights sin of cheese on toast is redeemed 😂
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U was on exercise bike for 90 minutes and did 25 kilometres? Thats fuckin brilliant.
But all that only burns 380 calories?
 
kiely said:
I was cooking and kept forgetting I was taking things out that were already out that I was looking for but didn't need to. I kept forgetting things and missing things.

Now my left side of my jaw is locked up again. It happened a few months ago except my whole jaw was locked. And I tried to be careful just like when I had cluster

headaches to not let them happen again. Now it's locked on my left side. And tough to swallow too for some reason now this time.

Lucky I still got some food down me today and I don't want to eat anyway. . now. I don't feel good.



I hope it doesn't get worse though. I did have some kratom today because I was having a tough time functioning from this morning But . . . . . everytime I take gabapentin

something bad keeps resulting from it. So it very well could be the gabapentin but I feel so awful I feel like taking more of the gabapentin to take away the withdrawal and bad

effects from it. Like this.


I took the gabapentn almost near 24 hours ago maybe 18 hours but yesterday morning and I am going to take more to see if it will stop the agony. Yes it was a terd day.

So I am just going to give in and try to see if the gabapenitin will help. I haven't taken any yet though. Maybe next time I will try a baby aspirin only and then ween with cherry

and orange baby aspirins but I am suffering right now. I just don't want it to get any worse than it already is.


I haven't had real extreme symptoms from kratom it just dumbs me down and makes me feel like I keep doing stupid things and I get a lot of confusion from it

but it helps . . . yes with my chronic immune system pain from inflammation. At least I get to take my once a week inflammation medication tomorrow and maybe that might

be able to help with my cramping up so badly.


I am so scared because what if it is coronary artery disease and then I will have to put up with all of that stuff too. Unless I just go suddenly. I'm still trying to get better.
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Thinking of you Kiely, you have my empathy for sure … I can really relate to jaw/neck/head ect. stuff. If you ever need to reach out to me please do okay. I’ll be thinking of you & rooting for you.
Take care of you & be gentle with yourself as best you can
Big hug 💕💜
 
Soso78 said:
U was on exercise bike for 90 minutes and did 25 kilometres? Thats fuckin brilliant.
But all that only burns 380 calories?
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the thing about the whole counting calories things, that’s usually what the exercise itself burns, but usually your metabolism stays up for a good while afterwards and you usually burn a bit more 🙂
 
gm guys xo once again waking up, morning bath, coffee, 8mg dose of my morning subs, and checking socials/texting the pals good morning xo

you guys have a good day!
 
jasperkent said:
Five full days no cigarettes.
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i’m playing with fire with this response but i feel like it’d be harder to quit smoking than it would be drugs. i’ve smoked every single day since i was 14 years old lmao. the ritual, the smell, all of it - it’d be so hard to shake. maybe not physically but mentally and being THAT aggy for a week, i’d cave knowing i could buy them at the corner shop lol
 
tokayeahok said:
i’m playing with fire with this response but i feel like it’d be harder to quit smoking than it would be drugs. i’ve smoked every single day since i was 14 years old...
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Absolutely.

I've been a daily smoker since 14 as well.
Fifty years. That's a lot of reinforcement.

I've kicked addictions to alcohol, benzos, cocaine, meth, opioids, and combinations thereof. But I've ALWAYS smoked cigs.

I'm still using nicotine but I only miss cigarettes 3 or 4 times a day-- with my first cup of coffee in the morning (a ritual I  adored) and after meals.

So far so good.
 
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