Juicewrldfan
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It’s ridiculous to me sometimes how protocols outweigh common sense. I have damage to one of my testes and she still wants to check my thyroid before she will take over care.
Why? Why would my original doctor not feel the need to? The issue I have is she wants me to STOP my the testosterone for a week and I was a suicidal mess pre testosterone therapy but I also had a three day relapse with stims.
But when I started the T it all went away and so did my adhd symptoms. I mean night and day. I have lots of interviews this week so need to be able to function. Idk what to do really. One doctor will give me what I want…the other is very cautious which is great but idk.
See, I got caught up in the confusion and started taking estrogen a 5 years ago for a few months before I woke the fuck up. And she knows about it and she literally said”remember you told me you took estrogen and wanted you T levels checked. And then went on to say “if your hemoglobin gets too thick then we won’t be able to give you testosterone. Maybe it isn’t for you? Like wtf is she insinuating.
I hope no one judges me for my short bout of confusion all those years ago. Found out it was due to c-ptsd and just wanting to escape myself and got my PTSD treated. It didn’t help that out of the 5 therapist I consulted with they all try to encourage me and “affirm” and said I was in “denial” so I bought it because I was lost and confused and then violated.
So anyway, I am thinking about just sticking with the original doctor but he isn’t very safe imo. Just means I’ll have to educate myself and make sure he is monitoring my levels and blood thickness.
Never had an issue with that tho. Sigh…idk.
I wonder if I could sue the people who manipulated me…I mean I have gynocomastia and have to take testosterone therapy. Probably not…idk if I would anyway
Why? Why would my original doctor not feel the need to? The issue I have is she wants me to STOP my the testosterone for a week and I was a suicidal mess pre testosterone therapy but I also had a three day relapse with stims.
But when I started the T it all went away and so did my adhd symptoms. I mean night and day. I have lots of interviews this week so need to be able to function. Idk what to do really. One doctor will give me what I want…the other is very cautious which is great but idk.
See, I got caught up in the confusion and started taking estrogen a 5 years ago for a few months before I woke the fuck up. And she knows about it and she literally said”remember you told me you took estrogen and wanted you T levels checked. And then went on to say “if your hemoglobin gets too thick then we won’t be able to give you testosterone. Maybe it isn’t for you? Like wtf is she insinuating.
I hope no one judges me for my short bout of confusion all those years ago. Found out it was due to c-ptsd and just wanting to escape myself and got my PTSD treated. It didn’t help that out of the 5 therapist I consulted with they all try to encourage me and “affirm” and said I was in “denial” so I bought it because I was lost and confused and then violated.
So anyway, I am thinking about just sticking with the original doctor but he isn’t very safe imo. Just means I’ll have to educate myself and make sure he is monitoring my levels and blood thickness.
Never had an issue with that tho. Sigh…idk.
I wonder if I could sue the people who manipulated me…I mean I have gynocomastia and have to take testosterone therapy. Probably not…idk if I would anyway