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Recovery The 2023 Recovery Thread

tokayeahok said:
sorry i’ve been away BLers, for the past three days i think i’ve had norovirus. i’m finally on the mend i think as i’m not shitting my brains out as much. the stomach pain with this one is reaaaaaall lmao.

have hardly been taking any kratom and only taking one of my gabapentin a day since i just can’t be fucked to do anything since i don’t have any energy. been sleeping a lot. good to hear from everyone in here 🥺 glad a lot of you are doing okay.

much love
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I hope you start feeling better 💜
 
Hang in there everyone.
The Holidays suck for many reasons for us.

I have found that cooking has helped me to heal.
Cooking , Music, Meditation, Exercise, having a dog or pet.
All of those things help me.
I’m going to keep cooking up fun, good stuff.

Try to focus on keeping yourself okay.
Don’t let others pull you down or make you feel bad.
❤️ much love to you all!
I am proud of you guys.
 
The mortality rate of basal-cell and squamous-cell carcinoma is around 0.3% according to wikipedia so maybe it's not the end. Everything will be ok in the end. If it's not ok it's not the end.
 
thatmf said:
I've had a weird lump on my forehead/scalp for a couple of days :/ seeing my doc soon but I'm freaking out :(
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Please don't freak out. If it's only been there a couple of days, there's basically zero chance it could be any kind of cancer, they just don't grow that fast. Cysts or infected follicles are the most common cause. Either way <3 <3
 
thatmf said:
The mortality rate of basal-cell and squamous-cell carcinoma is around 0.3% according to wikipedia so maybe it's not the end. Everything will be ok in the end. If it's not ok it's not the end.
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let us know how it goes. a good mantra i like to follow is don’t freak out until you have to. save yourself the time and stress and assume positivity unless something objective comes into play 💕
 
AngelsandFairiesarereal said:
I’m glad you’re seeing your doctor, I hope everything goes well… let us know how it goes when you can
Sending you support, strength & hope 💕💜
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Thank you so much!!
tokayeahok said:
let us know how it goes. a good mantra i like to follow is don’t freak out until you have to. save yourself the time and stress and assume positivity unless something objective comes into play 💕
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Yeah definitely. I stayed up a bit late and have been picking at it a bit so it felt worse than I thought. Saw my doc and she said it's just inflammation and gave me some cream for it :)

Glad it's not carcinoma, my life flashed before my eyes last night. :)
 
Hey All

Yeah fvck this Buprenorphine shit that stuff is evil... I know it helps a lot of people that could die from street drugs but it's properly still fucking me over.

Totally cut down my drinking over past 5 days to 'normal' levels so I think I'm just gonna stop that shit now. Just tried to reduce so I didn't end up having a seizure.

BUT I am.still having some shitty physical WDs from the Buprenorphine. After 6 Weeks. This sucks and blows. A lot of bone aches and muscle aches still. Yawning goosebumps. The shits. Severe insomnia. I just don't sleep. RAS/RLS

Someday I wake up and for 2 hours feel OK. Then it just creeps back in slowly

When's this gonna stop man? It's endless . I rang the clinic yesterday and they said no way are you still in Buprenorphine WD it only last 2 weeks. So i just hung up. What a crock of shit. I'm so fucking depressed as well. May accept the trazadone my local GP is offering me...

She also put me on the MAX dose of loperamide 24mg as I was having major stomach issues and 12mg a day was t stopping it. Could this be prolonging WD?

Have a good day all 🦊
 
What the hell's with female doctors never prescribing anything that would work. Oh you are also depressed. Trazadone is used as an antidepressant and to help sleep. Will she negotiate medications. If you are not use to, benzos, Ativan(lorazepam works great with opiods) just ask for 30 2mg, to go to sleep. Tell her your concerns with benzodiazapines(?), don't want addicted, only one a night and say no refills( is she a bitch about schedule drugs?) Don't ask for zanax.
I was on morpine and oxycodone and no problems with lorazepam(Ativan) just take the maximum normal dose 2mg; they also have 1mg and .5mg(worthless)
But don't do it 3 times a day for 6+ years. Now on Valium. The Ativan is always what I got in the Hospital with morphine, dilauded( the best IV drug at a hospital). The medical fentanyl don't count.
Try to see if she will give you a one a night 30 day supply, no refills: to get sleep.( try that if she doesn't like to scheduled drugs.)
Then bring up trazadone side effects, look them up.
 
Idk if this is the right place as I’m new here but I don’t see a better one. Anyone have advice on psychological addiction. Specifically coke, I don’t use frequently like I used to use femt but after getting clean off all else anytime something happens I binge hard. It can be months in between but when I get like that it’s all I can think off and thinking about or talking about it can be the only thing bringing me joy. I’m fucking high before thanksgiving which I’m fucked for but I couldn’t stop myself tonight. It had been 7 months before this
 
Nautical_trouble said:
Idk if this is the right place as I’m new here but I don’t see a better one. Anyone have advice on psychological addiction. Specifically coke, I don’t use frequently like I used to use femt but after getting clean off all else anytime something happens I binge hard. It can be months in between but when I get like that it’s all I can think off and thinking about or talking about it can be the only thing bringing me joy. I’m fucking high before thanksgiving which I’m fucked for but I couldn’t stop myself tonight. It had been 7 months before this
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Hey welcome, so that's an interesting question. Clearly to have the tools to abstain for good chunks of time. Can you identify an emotion or trigger to use?

Things as subtle as boredom, or feeling "above" addiction, have ruined my sobriety in the past. So don't feel guilty about whatever the reason may be - just build awareness of it and hone in on the benefits of sobriety and the downfalls of using.

That's my advice, happy turk wherever it may lead. I eat more sober so that's all it takes for me today!
 
Well, you picked a decent thread. First of all, this is a bad time of the year. Little sunlight( I am on mega doses of vitamin D). People are depressed, some anxious and all the holidays. I hate November. Not fond of holidays( not the actually holiday). But all that goes with it. This time of year is not particularly good for people with, drug, alcohol and mental health/emotional issues. This is unfortunately a time of year when people relapse. I hate waking up, it means more of the same. Fall and winter in the midwest always makes me depressed and sad. But life goes on.
 
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It’s usually big things today my now ex fiancé broke up with me and may be pregnant. They’re saying if they are and so have it I’ll never know my child. coke was sort of my first drug of abuse so it’s the one my mind jumps too. When I’m very self destructive I WANT to be an addict again but that fails every time
 
Wow, failing to be an addict, be honest, most people besides the LEO on here, wish that were their case.
Does that mean no child support? If so, then hmm, That could also be an issue, about the kid you never knew. Is it yours, I have no idea about the situation, is this regular drama?
Or did you catch someone close to you cheating with her?
 
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Maybe my wording was poor, I mean I wish to be on a substance daily again but that usually changes within a week or so. I don’t think my infrequent heavy use is not addiction as it’s been several substances over the years and I’ve hurt myself and others heavily in the process.
 
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