Whitey69
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Apr 23, 2023
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- 48
Thus the vicious cycle of myself and maybe many others. And people if your lucky enough to have a support system people like to say “you’re depressed from the drugs “ or “…. Cause of all that dope “ It’s just hard in my own experience to put up with any kinda bullshit depression anxiety whatever which is there possibly exacerbated by someone or somethin. Boom awesome I can just do dope some dope when I wake and feel good? That’s Not even a problem. Now they got blues flooded the streets for pocket change and this shit has been bioengineered by someone for evil as sure as god made little green apples. Heroin was always “oh you’re fine bro just don’t use more than 3 days in a row or you’ll get addicted” these little blue pills got me in one day. A small binge I guess maybe 3x in one day. And the worst part was the don’t even have near the good qualities as even pharmaceutical fentanyl durogesic patches. Those pieces of plastic matrix patches have a better quality high then all the blues. I swear the duration of wds was significantly increased with these blues. So yeah all this shit going on combined with 20 percent interest and a crisis where corporations and even foreign investors just bought all single family houses in the past 10 years because “””” why because a real estate guy was president ? To beat the market? And these companies aren’t “landlords” in no sense of the word. they’re about as useful as a damn screen door on a sub marine. So yeah etc etc fuck this place people can’t even get high anymore ! No moneys and what r u gonna do if you had some money ? Go buy some Xanax or some oxy or some liquor? No ur gonna have to go smoke some blues at the park and hope no one comes and gathers whatever they can walk off with faster than a greased up water snake on meth. Fuck them blue bitches too I’m real salty cause I (Got cobwebs in my wallet )got clean once again recently but I couldn’t fix nothin (living arrangement) cause I can’t even afford dirt and then (thankfully)I got Fired like a week after that. Time for the next chapter. Thanks for reading my blog I hope there was at least part of it that could be considered a comprehensive thought.But what I really wanted to say is I think we all have a desire to be clear headed, have clarity and health. Feel centered and strong. Yet most days we don't get that. So we use substances.