Recovery The 2023 Recovery Thread

[Jnowhere]

Don't know what to do about my own minor problems, not sure if I want to give up on my low dose of oxycodone and Valium. They seem to help, but at the same time I hate being a slave to 7 pills. On the one hand they help with pain and a host of anxiety related issues. They make me functional and in the current medical climate, I am scared to lose my scripts. I have cirrhosis and pancreas issues along with other pains. Also severe anxiety and OCD that comes and goes. What if things get bad for me and I have nothing to help? Talking about pain and OCD and severe anxiety is a waste. It does nothing but waste time and money. Besides that my doctor talked about it taking up to a year to taper me off my meds. But I think I really need them.

 

[tokayeahok]

Don't know what to do about my own minor problems, not sure if I want to give up on my low dose of oxycodone and Valium. They seem to help, but at the same time I hate being a slave to 7 pills. On the one hand they help with pain and a host of anxiety related issues. They make me functional and in the current medical climate, I am scared to lose my scripts. I have cirrhosis and pancreas issues along with other pains. Also severe anxiety and OCD that comes and goes. What if things get bad for me and I have nothing to help? Talking about pain and OCD and severe anxiety is a waste. It does nothing but waste time and money. Besides that my doctor talked about it taking up to a year to taper me off my meds. But I think I really need them.

in this particular scenario, i think you should have a serious talk with your doctor again and talk about the pros of you being on this medication vs being tapered off, etc etc.


hopefully you guys find a good medium balance, y’know?

 

[tokayeahok]

just woke up and just would like to have the space here to get up & scream I GOT 7 HOURS OF SLEEP LAST NIGHT. i cannot believe i slept that long only being a week clean. very appreciative to get my day started, today. moving some stuff in my living room and got a lot of dishes


you lads and lasses have a wonderful day xo

jon

 

[thatmf]

just woke up and just would like to have the space here to get up & scream I GOT 7 HOURS OF SLEEP LAST NIGHT. i cannot believe i slept that long only being a week clean. very appreciative to get my day started, today. moving some stuff in my living room and got a lot of dishes


you lads and lasses have a wonderful day xo

jon

Amazing! Imagine how much better you'll feel after having that kind of sleep every night! Big win

 

[thatmf]

Don't know what to do about my own minor problems, not sure if I want to give up on my low dose of oxycodone and Valium. They seem to help, but at the same time I hate being a slave to 7 pills. On the one hand they help with pain and a host of anxiety related issues. They make me functional and in the current medical climate, I am scared to lose my scripts. I have cirrhosis and pancreas issues along with other pains. Also severe anxiety and OCD that comes and goes. What if things get bad for me and I have nothing to help? Talking about pain and OCD and severe anxiety is a waste. It does nothing but waste time and money. Besides that my doctor talked about it taking up to a year to taper me off my meds. But I think I really need them.

In my books there is no easy answer for this. I don't feel like you'll "lose your scripts" anytime soon. Just be honest and take it one step at a time. I've found I've struggled most/relapsed after trying to do everything all in one go. Recovery is a long road, and everyone's journey is different.

 

[tokayeahok]

In my books there is no easy answer for this. I don't feel like you'll "lose your scripts" anytime soon. Just be honest and take it one step at a time. I've found I've struggled most/relapsed after trying to do everything all in one go. Recovery is a long road, and everyone's journey is different.

yeah i agree, sounds like he has a reasonable practitioner, so it’s really just a matter of communicating short term and long term medication goals

 

[tokayeahok]

Amazing! Imagine how much better you'll feel after having that kind of sleep every night! Big win

fucking imagine! huge huge win.

 

[tokayeahok]

fucking imagine! huge huge win.

may have to chalk it up to an add antihistamine i tried last night. it’s call chlorpheniramine, and it surprisingly worked well.

 

[CaptnRon]

just woke up and just would like to have the space here to get up & scream I GOT 7 HOURS OF SLEEP LAST NIGHT. i cannot believe i slept that long only being a week clean. very appreciative to get my day started, today. moving some stuff in my living room and got a lot of dishes


you lads and lasses have a wonderful day xo

jon

That’s killer bro, BIG UPS! The next few days you should see monumental gains on getting back to being your normal self again.
(Atleast acute withdrawal wise)
Get some light exercise in if possible. For me it was huge and it felt great just to get my muscles moving and get some sweat going.

You got that shit at this point. Stay positive knowing you’re on the road to a healthy successful life.

Stay good friends
Always, fair winds and following seas

 

[tokayeahok]

That’s killer bro, BIG UPS! The next few days you should see monumental gains on getting back to being your normal self again.
(Atleast acute withdrawal wise)
Get some light exercise in if possible. For me it was huge and it felt great just to get my muscles moving and get some sweat going.

You got that shit at this point. Stay positive knowing you’re on the road to a healthy successful life.

Stay good friends
Always, fair winds and following seas

oh man, i’ve been physically exerting myself these last 3 days! from shopping with my mum for 4 hours, to moving furniture in my bedroom, the living room & kitchen, to cleaning. nothing extreme but i’ve been pretty good about not bedrotting these past 3 days. i feel great. the kratom is really a godsend for the tail end of acute s symptoms. it’s actually able to breakthrough and provide some respite.


cheers m8

 

[Jnowhere]

Anthony6621, I was just looking around and saw your post. I hope and pray that you can use this opportunity to get off fent, and hopefully stay off it. I truly hope you can use this time to get clean and stay clean. It is Friday and I hope and pray you can use this time to get clean. Not what you would call a fun vacation but hopefully you will have the strength to got off fent. I use to go through alcohol withdrawal with nothing to help but fent lasts longer and will require more will power. Just think of all the money you will save and the trouble that fent can cause, plus death, 100, 000 or so last year. Please try your hardest and don't be a stranger, there are people who are rooting for your success. I don't know what you have for comfort meds, I have only beat morphine and alcohol, but there are people here familiar with it fentanyl who can help if needed. Goodluck


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[Jnowhere]

Tokayeahok, it is great to hear that you are going back to normal. I don't want to be a nag, but try to remember all the shit you went through and stay off anything that can fuck you over like this did. You know your body and what you can handle and not. Stay safe and healthy.
Your friend Jnowhere

 

[tokayeahok]

Tokayeahok, it is great to hear that you are going back to normal. I don't want to be a nag, but try to remember all the shit you went through and stay off anything that can fuck you over like this did. You know your body and what you can handle and not. Stay safe and healthy.
Your friend Jnowhere

nah man, absolutely critical to keep this mindset - i’ve got a friend who runs an alternative detox clinic for OUD & they’re using IV BR-Nad+ for detox. He’s sending me the supplement form, a couple bottles - which are going to help tremendously

 

[Jnowhere]

Damn, thing will not let me type properly, it keeps changing words

 

[kiely]

Wow, I don't know what I would do without comfort med's. Really.

Nice. They helped a lot with getting through discomfort. It's been baby aspirin lately. Edibles and otc type ya know.


Love energy drinks ? . . . yes, comfort but unhealthy too as . . . ever. But I will never undermine imodium.


The weird thing is that when I take gabapentin I instantly get withdrawal from it. And I know it's doing it to me because

it doesn't start to get bad until about three days. Then . . . . . I sweat . . like underarm sweat. And I promise you that

I never ever took a lot of it.The gabapentin. Never. I can't even get a whole pill down. I break them up. Because one was way too much.

But I am hypersensitive. He said so at PT one time. lol. Oh well. I hated those electrodes. So I got extra water chamber massages instead. eye fk'ing roll. but the only thing nice about pt.

So gabapentin makes me like really sweat and I withdraw for a whole week almost at that, too, until it metabolizes. It is a different sick than hydrocodone was.

Maybe this should be in the taper section. But I never really even wanted to take gabapentin ever and I JUST USED IT

AS A COMFORT medicine. I think the problem was that I used too much at one time because I didn't know any better

I guess or maybe I was sick and suffering at the time. But oh I get these horrible symptoms and sweating so bad it's

. . . . I never knew I could sweat and like that. I don't know if it is just pain pill related. But I am thinking it really is at this

point. Thank you for letting me vent. I don't even know what I am trying to say sometimes. But what I am trying to say

is that I struggle with gabapentin and it has helped me about three times. And the rest of the time it just hurt me more.

But thank you a lot for letting me vent. It's good if I want to lay around a trip though. Sorry for putting it that way but

if you see what I am saying. It's not a very good med for me most likely. Thank you again. Venting over. I hope.

Anyway today I just wanted to vent that off !!!! And it felt goood. That sweating is ridiculous though. For me. The end.


So yes the imodium keeps me far away from that gabapentin and is way more nicer to me than the gabapentin ever will be.

Imodium might be trickier but gabapentin is trippier. Oh well.


Someone just said recently. You're only rich if you have your health. Like who is healthy anymore really.

 

[kiely]

That was way too long I know. But I can't stop talking about it !!!!!

 

[kiely]

Damn, thing will not let me type properly, it keeps changing words

I know it keeps happening to me a lot. So I don't know if I lost a couple words.

I had to hit the 'undo' a couple times.

 

[tokayeahok]

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Wow, I don't know what I would do without comfort med's. Really.

Nice. They helped a lot with getting through discomfort. It's been baby aspirin lately. Edibles and otc type ya know.


Love energy drinks ? . . . yes, comfort but unhealthy too as . . . ever. But I will never undermine imodium.


The weird thing is that when I take gabapentin I instantly get withdrawal from it. And I know it's doing it to me because

it doesn't start to get bad until about three days. Then . . . . . I sweat . . like underarm sweat. And I promise you that

I never ever took a lot of it.The gabapentin. Never. I can't even get a whole pill down. I break them up. Because one was way too much.

But I am hypersensitive. He said so at PT one time. lol. Oh well. I hated those electrodes. So I got extra water chamber massages instead. eye fk'ing roll. but the only thing nice about pt.

So gabapentin makes me like really sweat and I withdraw for a whole week almost at that, too, until it metabolizes. It is a different sick than hydrocodone was.

Maybe this should be in the taper section. But I never really even wanted to take gabapentin ever and I JUST USED IT

AS A COMFORT medicine. I think the problem was that I used too much at one time because I didn't know any better

I guess or maybe I was sick and suffering at the time. But oh I get these horrible symptoms and sweating so bad it's

. . . . I never knew I could sweat and like that. I don't know if it is just pain pill related. But I am thinking it really is at this

point. Thank you for letting me vent. I don't even know what I am trying to say sometimes. But what I am trying to say

is that I struggle with gabapentin and it has helped me about three times. And the rest of the time it just hurt me more.

But thank you a lot for letting me vent. It's good if I want to lay around a trip though. Sorry for putting it that way but

if you see what I am saying. It's not a very good med for me most likely. Thank you again. Venting over. I hope.

Anyway today I just wanted to vent that off !!!! And it felt goood. That sweating is ridiculous though. For me. The end.


So yes the imodium keeps me far away from that gabapentin and is way more nicer to me than the gabapentin ever will be.

Imodium might be trickier but gabapentin is trippier. Oh well.


Someone just said recently. You're only rich if you have your health. Like who is healthy anymore really.

yeah i take 1800-3000mg of morontin everyday. i usually don’t have any withdrawal symptoms, as i know it does vary between individuals. but one time i abused it & was going upwards of 6000mg each day for one week straight and the next 4 days were mental agony, debilitating anxiety & sweating about 3x the amount i would in opiate withdrawal. so i know how you feel, luckily my therapeutic dose helps me and doesn’t cause me to have any rebound WDs. sorry it affects you like that; but it seems you’ve found some other replacement comfort meds to use, yanno?

how much immodium do you use, and how does it help you? i’ve never went that route due to the cardiotoxic effects of it in high doses.

and no worries about sounding ‘choppy’; my brain works the same exact way and i’m always thinking about what to say next while i’m saying something and sometimes i just talk like a blubbering mess. the gabapentin doesn’t help with that lmao, and it affects my memory pretty harshly so i’ll stop taking it here soon probably. also since i’m only a few days clean, i know my brain is still healing and my intellect & wittiness will return in due time we’ll be sharp as an electrical engineer soon mate!

 

[kiely]

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yeah i take 1800-3000mg of morontin everyday. i usually don’t have any withdrawal symptoms, as i know it does vary between individuals. but one time i abused it & was going upwards of 6000mg each day for one week straight and the next 4 days were mental agony, debilitating anxiety & sweating about 3x the amount i would in opiate withdrawal. so i know how you feel, luckily my therapeutic dose helps me and doesn’t cause me to have any rebound WDs. sorry it affects you like that; but it seems you’ve found some other replacement comfort meds to use, yanno?

how much immodium do you use, and how does it help you? i’ve never went that route due to the cardiotoxic effects of it in high doses.

and no worries about sounding ‘choppy’; my brain works the same exact way and i’m always thinking about what to say next while i’m saying something and sometimes i just talk like a blubbering mess. the gabapentin doesn’t help with that lmao, and it affects my memory pretty harshly so i’ll stop taking it here soon probably. also since i’m only a few days clean, i know my brain is still healing and my intellect & wittiness will return in due time we’ll be sharp as an electrical engineer soon mate!

Yes ! There were whole threads on imodium and they were taking it for pain and medication withdrawal. And I kept saying yeah yeah yeah . . . until I said YEAH !!!

I am not sure yet. But it definitely is TOXIC so PLEASE be CAREFUL. But who knows maybe gabapentin is too . . . . and everything is a little bit. I never had problems with CWE though.

I have to run real quick. No pun. I really have to run somewhere a couple roads down. With my dog. Right now.

So I take imodium whooooo. LOve it when I do. lol

 

[tokayeahok]

Yes ! There were whole threads on imodium and they were taking it for pain and medication withdrawal. And I kept saying yeah yeah yeah . . . until I said YEAH !!!

I am not sure yet. But it definitely is TOXIC so PLEASE be CAREFUL. But who knows maybe gabapentin is too . . . . and everything is a little bit. I never had problems with CWE though.

I have to run real quick. No pun. I really have to run somewhere a couple roads down. With my dog. Right now.

So I take imodium whooooo. LOve it when I do. lol

like i said, how much do you normally take? and how do you actually take a shit in a span of a week when you’re on it?