Mental Health Coming off Invega (Paliperidone, Xeplion) injections v. 7.0

[RecoveryInProgress]

Tbh guys, I am really suicidal, I dont know what else to do. I cant play games, cant love myself, cant enjoy a joint, cant enjoy communicating with others, cant enjoy sleeping, cant enjoy being out and knowing how people see me. I just dont like anything. I want to die soon

Please don’t kill yourself or do something you’ll regret. I know you’re in pain and I strongly encourage you to check into somewhere safe if you’re considering these thoughts.

 

[Invegatorture]

That’s good that you have some improvements hang tough man I’m finding it hard to believe too but I still have hope as previous users have reported recovery stories that’s all that I hold onto imagine the people going through this that don’t find this site and just have no idea wtf is happening to them and have no hope of recovery , this site has made me decide to not kill myself at least until I know it’s permanent at like 2-3 years at which point I’ll have had enough but I don’t think I’d make it past a year without this site and some of the accounts of recovery taking a long time

How old are you?

 

[Rulomaner]

He’s just like that guy @dirtyinvega who say they never recover. Their mind tells them something is wrong it’s a disease. Probably why they were put on the shot to begin with. Their mind is always negative hence the paranoia, delusions, pessimism. I know because I had those struggles as well. They are very negative people they are not fighters, it’s about mentality. If he can’t get drunk/high after 20 years I would say yes I believe him.

I can send you a few people on reddit so you can ask them

 

[Rulomaner]

This is not about being pesimistic, its about being real bro

 

[CrimsonThornX]

I think about this all the time. Imagining hpw grateful I would be to have a body that hadn’t been polluted by this stuff

If any of what I said was somehow possible, it would easily be the greatest moment of my entire life. I've never understood why some people cry out of joy, but if I ever suddenly became completely healthy once again, I'd start crying uncontrollably too from finally being freed from this constant misery and suffering.

 

[Mucky]

How old are you?

22 you ?

 

[Invegatorture]

If any of what I said was somehow possible, it would easily be the greatest moment of my entire life. I've never understood why some people cry out of joy, but if I ever suddenly became completely healthy once again, I'd start crying uncontrollably too from finally being freed from this constant misery and suffering.

I’ve literally visualised this.

 

[Invegatorture]

22 you ?

I’m 22 as well. We hardly started out in life

 

[Invegatorture]

If any of what I said was somehow possible, it would easily be the greatest moment of my entire life. I've never understood why some people cry out of joy, but if I ever suddenly became completely healthy once again, I'd start crying uncontrollably too from finally being freed from this constant misery and suffering.

I’m so sorry you’re going through this. It breaks my heart

 

[Invegatorture]

It’s a scary thought that we could be cognitively deficient for the rest of our lives. Life is long. And feels even longer when you’re suffering like this

 

[CrimsonThornX]

That's means at least 3 of us here are basically the same age, Mucky, Invegatorture, and myself. Although I'm actually 23 at the moment, I was basically 22 1/2 at the time I was injected. We all still had our whole lives ahead of us, it's so damn unfair that we all have to go through this shit at such an early age, especially Ayden since he's just 19 and probably still fresh out of high school, like Merek was.

( 4 and counting )

 

[Rulomaner]

This is not about being pesimistic, its about being real bro

That's means at least 3 of us here are basically the same age, Mucky, Invegatorture, and myself. Although I'm actually 23 at the moment, I was basically 22 1/2 at the time I was injected. We all still had our whole lives ahead of us, it's so damn unfair that we all have to go through this shit at such an early age, especially Ayden since he's just 19 and probably still fresh out of high school.

23 here

 

[Invegatorture]

That's means at least 3 of us here are basically the same age, Mucky, Invegatorture, and myself. Although I'm actually 23 at the moment, I was basically 22 1/2 at the time I was injected. We all still had our whole lives ahead of us, it's so damn unfair that we all have to go through this shit at such an early age, especially Ayden since he's just 19 and probably still fresh out of high school, like Merek was.

( 4 and counting )

It’s on the same level as people who get seriously injured in car accidents that aren’t their fault due to a drunk driver for example. Shit happens to unlucky people. We are part of this group unfortunately.

 

[Mucky]

It’s on the same level as people who get seriously injured in car accidents that aren’t their fault due to a drunk driver for example. Shit happens to unlucky people. We are part of this group unfortunately.

I could live with no legs but having a severely impaired brain is infinitely worse imho , I know what your saying though yea it’s cruel bro life can be cruel as fuck

 

[RecoveryInProgress]

It’s on the same level as people who get seriously injured in car accidents that aren’t their fault due to a drunk driver for example. Shit happens to unlucky people. We are part of this group unfortunately.

Well to some extent I guess that’s true but it can also be looked as that we are lucky if we can walk and move around and go to the bathroom on our own without someone’s assistance.

 

[Rulomaner]

Well to some extent I guess that’s true but it can also be looked as that we are lucky if we can walk and move around and go to the bathroom on our own without someone’s assistance.

Haha bro, we are in our 20s, how can you think I would be in that situation so early. Nothing is comparable, maybe slaves feel what we feel, no one else can

 

[Invegatorture]

these injections cause so many debilitating problems. The worst imo are akathisia, anhedonia and cognitive impairment. Just having one of these can make you suicidal no matter how mentally strong you are. I have all three.

 

[RecoveryInProgress]

Haha bro, we are in our 20s, how can you think I would be in that situation so early. Nothing is comparable, maybe slaves feel what we feel, no one else can

Oh I was talking about the comparison to having a serious injury that would result in drastic lifestyle changes. I think it’s comparable to a drastic change in brain health, of course. But my main point was to have an open minded perspective that it is different and can vary and to try to not have an all-or-nothing approach to thinking. Things can be okay right now, and it can always be worse, and things can always be better in the future.

 

[Baddream]

Normal people don’t go around feeling euphoric all day anyway, they have ups and downs, life is a struggle for most people. It’s not easy waking up early in the cold every day going to a job and worry about how to survive.

It’s unfair to you young people but we are forced to become real men (adults) dealing with the absurdities of life. We need to deal with this situation like a cancer diagnosis and fight to recover. Life is serious, but we will enjoy the fruit of the labor after a while.

I’m not judging any of you for being pessimistic. But in reality, I believe if this was permanent, we would have heard a lot more noise from permanent sufferers. Maybe I’m wrong, I hope not.

I personally don’t feel like this is a disaster even though I have lower energy levels, some anhedonia and such I think it will pass.

Maybe it is permanent for some people, but I strongly believe they have a negative mind. Some people will always find something negative in their life. Most weren’t put on this shot for no reason.

 

[CrimsonThornX]

Now that everyone's mentioning it yes, as much as it does absolutely suck that we have to go through such a horrible experience I suppose it could be worse, MUCH worse. I vaguely remember watching a video a few months ago of a young girl I think somewhere in her mid to late teens that saw a chiropractor one day for back problems, and during one of those sessions he accidentally damaged one of the discs in her spine during the process, leaving her basically completely paralyzed and in a near complete vegetative state, requiring assistance for everything she was once capable of doing. I remember the night I had a stroke back on the 22nd of March this year I kept constantly telling the nurses to just euthanize me already, I though I'd be stuck that way for a long period of time, especially because by that point I hadn't slept for even a single damn minute for over 3 months.