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๐ŸŒŸ๐ŸŒŸ Social ๐ŸŒŸ๐ŸŒŸ PD Social Thread 2022-2025 v. Year of the Phenethylamine

In my twenties i was a really bad alcoholic and would drink a twelve pack of beer and 4-8 shots of liquor everyday. Hard stuff i would have first to get the ball rolling and then id drink the beer all the rest of the day/night. I would literally wake up and immediately drink vodka, it was horrible.

Felt so disgusting and hungover every morning and pretty much got stuck in a cycle where i would drink to get rid of it. Not eating enough food and all the alcohol completely trashed my stomach and i live with the damage to this day. Honestly i cant even tolerate alcohol physically anymore, it makes me so nauseous to the point i really dont enjoy it.

Back then i did love being drunk tho and yeah i had some fun times, but it was also really sad and i would isolate and drink by myself most of the time. When id goto or have parties i would blackout sometimes and act like a fool. Alcohol is one of the drugs i truly regret abusing, it did alot of damage to my life.

I hope you can find a healthier relationship with it Dreamflyer. Im not sure if your situation is as dire as mine was, but when i quit drinking habitually it really improved my life. Honestly i only drink a couple times a year now if at all. My crutch as you all know are the dissociative anesthetics.
 
Sounds like you've probably bruised/bashed the cartilage a bit. I recommend you treat it like a princess for a few weeks, so don't do any squats or running. I know it can be annoying to take a break, but you don't want to push through or exercise prematurely and end up with knees like mine lol <3
I will try to be prudent but I've usually just ignored injuries...which is probably why I'm still carrying several ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜„ Its the inner side of the knee. Actually hurts to touch, like a bruise- I think you're right in your assessment. Truth be told, I'm thinking I should stop squatting as I've got a hip/SI problem that can be aggravated by it. Hack squats seems like a decent replacement. Just way less fun though.
 
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Some ideas if you enjoy them: you could try lighter weights for back squats; or really work on technique until the issues/imbalances causing problems go away; or switch to something like plyometrics for a while to stretch tendons, ligaments and muscles healthily under load, and then go back to squats and see if it helped.
 
I will try to be prudent but I've usually just ignored injuries...which is probably why I'm still carrying several ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ˜„ Its the inner side of the knee. Actually hurts to touch, like a bruise- I think you're right in your assessment. Truth be told, I'm thinking I should stop squatting as I've got a hip/SI problem that can be aggravated by it. Hack squats seems like a decent replacement. Just way less fun though.


medial meniscus
 
Being on test has been a total game changer for me. I take 50mg x 3 a week and am going to bump up to the highest I possibly can. Probably not over 200 but I kinda want to experience ultra high testosterone at some point so im gonna go as high as i can and see whats what. I do wonder if it will cause fertility issues but so far, my sperm count is extremely high so great. Probably the fertility doctor says that to all men though ๐Ÿ˜ƒ

Be careful, I mean if you're under a doctor's supervision it's probably fine, but my good friend was on too much testosterone years back... when he finally got a blood test, his test levels were too high for the test to accurately measure, it just said greater than 1500 units/whatever (I forget the units of measurement for test). Who knows how high it was? He had become angry and incredibly impulsive, irritable, prone to near-violent outbursts, and was quite volatile and upset much of the time, and extremely emotional (in a negative way).

I'm on 100mg/week, but I think 150mg/week would be better. We'll see what my levels are like in about a week and a half when I get blood work done again. But man, the difference has been so pronounced, I'm so glad I went for it. :)

Dude, that's tennis elbow - it's tendonitis from overuse/repetitiveness - hurts just by touching the epicondyle - takes forever to get better - anywhere from 6 months to 2 years - mine's still hanging around but it's gotten better after i stopped kneading dough by hand (true story)

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Funnily enough, I hurt my wrist for quite a while from hand kneading dough, years ago. It's why I stopped baking bread weekly (because fuck using a dough hook on a mixer, I ain't no bitch).

Yeah I'm sure you're right. It sucks because you have to lift things all the time (not weights, but like, bags of cat litter, or band gear). Not sure what to do about it, but it sucks that weight lifting is probably a very bad idea, because I really want to get back into it, it makes me feel so much better.
 
^True re: high test. I will be careful but would just like to see what's it like. I've half considered going the full anabolic route for just one Cycle (but probably won't, my sense pf well being is fragile enough)

With your elbow, have you tried any rehab exercises? I get elbow issues and find the flexbar thing to be a godsend. But I also tend to just push through pain if its like no more than 3/10. Not sure that's actually wise but I'd rather be injured and lifting weights than not, given the huge benefit overall.
 
I think that my left shoulder blade is pretty much back to normal by now. I broke it on March 12th and had my operation on April 4th (it was postponed because my mom gave me COVID, lol). I have a follow-up appointment with my orthopedist Dr. Maria (aka The Hot Bone Chick) in a couple of weeks, but she said last month that it was 99% healed up already.

I had a titanium plate with some screws put into it. I'm actually kind of bummed out because she's really cute, and this is probably the last time that I'll see her. She's married anyway, but still...

I told my friends and family that I almost want to break another bone, just so I can see her again! ;)
 
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Funnily enough, I hurt my wrist for quite a while from hand kneading dough, years ago. It's why I stopped baking bread weekly (because fuck using a dough hook on a mixer, I ain't no bitch).

Yeah I'm sure you're right. It sucks because you have to lift things all the time (not weights, but like, bags of cat litter, or band gear). Not sure what to do about it, but it sucks that weight lifting is probably a very bad idea, because I really want to get back into it, it makes me feel so much better.


im telling ya tho - the mixer i got for Christmas, saved my elbow - it was at the point to where when i'd go for my daily walk, my elbow and probably more so my forearm would hurt while my arm was extended while walking - so i'd have to keep it flexed up like it was in a sling....

so it's been progressively getting better since i stopped kneading and using that mixer - still not 100% yet but it's getting close

tennis elbow is no joke
 
im telling ya tho - the mixer i got for Christmas, saved my elbow - it was at the point to where when i'd go for my daily walk, my elbow and probably more so my forearm would hurt while my arm was extended while walking - so i'd have to keep it flexed up like it was in a sling....

so it's been progressively getting better since i stopped kneading and using that mixer - still not 100% yet but it's getting close

tennis elbow is no joke
Classic RSI. I was immune to it until Lyme upturned that table, making me a perfect candidate.


I had to learn ways around what for so long seemed impossible.

Still need to be sensible, not over strain body.

Dancing is so good too for loosening freeing RSI and general suppleness.
 
With your elbow, have you tried any rehab exercises? I get elbow issues and find the flexbar thing to be a godsend. But I also tend to just push through pain if its like no more than 3/10. Not sure that's actually wise but I'd rather be injured and lifting weights than not, given the huge benefit overall.

I haven't... I've been terribly unmotivated, but I finally have a primary care doctor and my first appointment is on July 5th, and I'll ask about a physical therapist. Now that I've got better testosterone levels, I notice the joint and ligament pain is going way down, but the elbow is still clearly sensitive.

Be careful pushing through the pain too much... it's possible to get to the point where you won't be able to do it anymore. It's better to rest and take it easy fort a little while and be able to keep doing it indefinitely. <3

Don't get me wrong though... I certainly understand having an addictive personality...

im telling ya tho - the mixer i got for Christmas, saved my elbow - it was at the point to where when i'd go for my daily walk, my elbow and probably more so my forearm would hurt while my arm was extended while walking - so i'd have to keep it flexed up like it was in a sling....

Yeah I was just kidding, I should probably get one. I have a KitchenAid stand mixer, my mom gave it to me and my ex wife as a wedding present, and my ex wife took the bowl and attachments when she finally came to get her stuff after storing it at my house for free for 5 years after she moved out, and when she left after 4 very weird and painfully awkward days of unpacking everything in the boxes, and categorizing every single item while trying to get me to leave so she could steal the cats, she just didn't come back on the 5th day and told me she would be back "sometime" for the rest of the stuff... she had left the mixer itself. So I just need to buy a replacement bowl and attachments, and I should get a dough hook, because I love baking bread, but it does hurt my wrists.
 
Isn't getting old a drag? I've found the aches and pains really irritating and haven't yet got to the point where I'm responding appropriately, I'm just still on the 'ignore it and it'll get better' train which is clearly the wrong line to be on.

I've got a dodgy left elbow, sometimes shoulder pain, constantly sore right hip and now left knee (which is getting much better). I woke up recently with an almost immobile neck having evidently hurt it in my sleep. A point will soon come where I can't just ignore this shit.

My brain still thinks it's in a 20 year old body ๐Ÿ˜ƒ๐Ÿ˜ถ
 
Yeah I was just kidding, I should probably get one. I have a KitchenAid stand mixer, my mom gave it to me and my ex wife as a wedding present, and my ex wife took the bowl and attachments when she finally came to get her stuff after storing it at my house for free for 5 years after she moved out, and when she left after 4 very weird and painfully awkward days of unpacking everything in the boxes, and categorizing every single item while trying to get me to leave so she could steal the cats, she just didn't come back on the 5th day and told me she would be back "sometime" for the rest of the stuff... she had left the mixer itself. So I just need to buy a replacement bowl and attachments, and I should get a dough hook, because I love baking bread, but it does hurt my wrists.

Dude, don't get the hook - it works like shit compared to the paddle


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the one on the left - that's the only one you need
 
My brain still thinks it's in a 20 year old body ๐Ÿ˜ƒ๐Ÿ˜ถ
Best way to think IMO.

Fleas right can effortlessly leap up and down for days at least 1 m high.

Place them in a 4 inch sealed container, they keep leaping to the rooftop 3 days solid.

Afterwards lid is removed but not one of them ever manages to jump out, nor above that defined set reduced height ever again.

And....neither do any of their oppspring!

Always made me think of the Jump Program in The Matrix lol.

It says a lot, re how easily weakness, limitation you name it....ageing! Can be spelled into us.

Happy B'day recitement is actually secret culturally engineered witchcraft to make one age faster.

Prince even said he refuses to celebrate birthdays so he's not counting time and rapidly slowed down his ageing.


But our bodies take some heavy knocks & scrapes in life in a plane so insidiously toxic polluted and controlled.

Over time it's impossible not to succumb to these "age"nts.
 
Isn't getting old a drag? I've found the aches and pains really irritating and haven't yet got to the point where I'm responding appropriately, I'm just still on the 'ignore it and it'll get better' train which is clearly the wrong line to be on.

It is, yeah... my knees are shitty (though better since getting on test, for sure), and just overall, it's like everything hurts more, and you better not fall down. I long for the day when I could run around with my friend and trip and eat shit and just pop up and keep laughing.

My brain still thinks it's in a 20 year old body ๐Ÿ˜ƒ๐Ÿ˜ถ

Mine does, kind of, in an attitude sort of way, but it's finally starting to realize, hey dude, you're not a kid anymore, you better chill a little.

Not that I listen, at least not always. :Sherlock:
 
Stop talking about getting old like it's a bad thing

I'll tell ya what - I can still rock socks into the broad daylight and tell ya what again

I like getting old because I feel like I just get more seasoned

So I'm like a cross of who I used to be in my teens and then my 20s and then my 30s and whatever was next - to who I am now

And I'm still the same cocky fuck I've always been but a lot less volatile... At least I think so anyway

And then there's that too - where I just don't give a fuck what anybody else thinks because I'm too old to give a fuck


I'm not really un-happy with life at all... In fact, I'd be more than happy to come back and do it all over again

Maybe in a different time and dimension

But whatever

Count me fuckin IN


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Stop talking about getting old like it's a bad thing

I'll tell ya what - I can still rock socks into the broad daylight and tell ya what again

I like getting old because I feel like I just get more seasoned

So I'm like a cross of who I used to be in my teens and then my 20s and then my 30s and whatever was next - to who I am now

And I'm still the same cocky fuck I've always been but a lot less volatile... At least I think so anyway

And then there's that too - where I just don't give a fuck what anybody else thinks because I'm too old to give a fuck


I'm not really un-happy with life at all... In fact, I'd be more than happy to come back and do it all over again

Maybe in a different time and dimension

But whatever

Count me fuckin IN


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It's not the numbers, but the raw events of life.

Plus I don't believe everyone has the same type of individual life experience, nature so principles may not apply too broadly.


I agree with you though still. Whenever my mum whines about her "age" I try wash it out her head with soap. Don't buy into that I say.

So my case, it's not that I'm like "43" what a joke itself, I actually forget think I'm a young man all the time, or I don't think "oh I'm this age therefore..." at all.

It's purely a length of experience. Such an intense one too. It's ravaged me way more than the majority thanks to wotsit, that was dealt with pretty well though until those injuries.

I'm still right on the line trying to regain order, now.
 
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