Positive Share Something Positive About Your Day vs This Does Not Suck (͠≖ ͜ʖ͠≖)?

I recently decided to try a Jordan Peterson (famous professor of psychology in Canada) technique, whereby you draw an unpleasant memory to the surface wittingly and consciously--one that typically surfaces unwittingly or at random. The memory I chose to focus on was one of me bridge jumping over a decade ago. There was a girl on the bridge who asked me if I was going to jump. I hadn't prepared a statement. I mumbled something along the lines of, "No, not yet."
I chose to draw up this memory because I wanted to understand if she was being negative on purpose or if it was something more or less fleeting. I have other memories I'm going to try this with in order to get out of this funk.
 
Bought a lot of food for my super gorgeous cat, love that cat!
The kratom hit just right
I worked in a orchard, trasplanted romanescu and different types of super strong (plants of) tomato
I gave some 4-ho-mipt to a friend, he liked it a lot, he said: "I'm uniting with everything, that's why everything is melting" haha, he is a percussionist.
I started doing my attempt at 69ron's calamus acetone-wash and I'm planning to get some Elemi oil to do a DMSO wash on it.

I'm about to buy some seeds for my psychoactive garden, as well as some hippy incenses....

not a bad day.
 
Had an "a-clinic" meeting today and MOTHERFUCKING FINALLY I got an doctor time. There we decide buvidal or film and what dose of benzos or illegally. Its in little under 2 weeks so fucking amped up for that.
Do u know that films(buccal forms)of bupr.are more well absorbed ,than sublingual...and the dose is usually lower.this buvidalbsounds interresting.we have ain't this nor suboxone
 
OK... by myself and doing laundry gettin a slight buzz from coffee, tch8 and cigs. Dosed brmzlm. I feel OK and at peace.
Why is it that there is a part of me that feels empty being away from my loves? More to the point............... nevermind gotta find that balance. ;)
I need some alone time but it's like there is no darkness without light.
I'm going to get this laundry done one piece at a time (lol cat blankets and their fur) this will help me feel productive.
Fuckin around on BL without the phone is a freakin huge plus, IMO/E. PC.

Its gonna get better by bedtime. :)
Peace
 
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