Update: I’m 5 months & 10 days off Invega. I still physically feel very bad, I have some akathisia, and still feel very dysphoric & bad all around. But I’ve noticed I’m being more social (just with my family & on discord) and I feel like I can think a little more clearly. I’m able to power through chores and stuff easier. The thing is though, I’ve been super worried that I’m going manic again. (I am on lithium but I’ve heard it can still happen)
I haven’t had any strange delusions, and I’m not talking fast or anything, but I just feel weird, and I keep obsessing over whether I’m going manic or not.
I think it’s possible that I just feel different (recovering) and it’s just extreme anxiety making me scared, I noticed it’s much worse when I have caffeine or thc, so I cut thc out, and I’m working on the caffeine, I still have an energy drink every morning at the moment though.