I never thought that I'd be such a victim of big pharma too, in some ways I'll admit it's kind of pathetic actually, some would say that you're not a 'real man' in that situation if you didn't take your 'final stand' against the police and whoever is coming to take you away and inject you..I'm trying to get some of that shit back now. Humiliated, my brain fucked with..goddamn..they tried to grind me down into the dirt. I'm pretty pissed, but I also don't want to have a victim mindset either now. Sometimes I have a bad habit of talking to myself out loud, ha, but other than that I'm still really functional and think that I 'blend in' with the 'normal people' well enough. I have to make up for lost time of about 35 years of shit, and I want to win for once too..