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^^^ He is right. Although Utah also has some good Kratom. To my surprise.
For me, Kratom is just something to have on hand for emergency back up.
It does keep me out of severe opiate withdrawal if necessary but it doesn’t make things comfortable.
For some, it has been all they need.
I don’t know much about it really. I have only used it a few times as a bridge in between prescriptions.
I try not to get myself in that boat but you guys know how it goes.
You can just order it online and get it delivered. It is not an opiate but it does act on opiate receptors.
It is good to hear from you FF. Glad you have been able to sleep.
That is just not right that there are no doctors who treat chronic pain anymore.
I was very lucky to find mine and I am worried because he has dementia now and can’t care for his patients anymore.
He did train another doctor to help us but she is very overwhelmed and has patients pouring in with severe problems.
We have lost a lot of good medical people. Un-fair laws and restrictions!
It is taking a toll on her. I hope she doesn’t leave us. I know how difficult it is to find help.
I am sorry for all you have endured. All of us have endured more than our share on here it seems.
I’m really happy to meet you two friends.
I also have a hard time doing stuff. Shower is on my list for today as well as giving my dog a bath.
I am working up to it.
Soon.
My daughter just got her very own dog. So, I am getting a grand dog. Haha!
Not nearly as wonderful as a grandchild but...it is what it is.
I will be tending my grand dog while my daughter is at work.
I hope I am able to keep up. My poor dog is so bored, she needs a friend. I hope they will get along.
My dog is extremely protective of me.
There are lots of people like us. I have many family members who are disabled for work and have chronic pain conditions.
Way more than is normal. I think life has gotten harder. People have grown apart. It has hurt everyone to some degree.
We decided to all get together once a month and play games, have lunch, talk.
It has been fun.
I just don’t know what to do on those hard days where we are just down. I guess these guys and you guys understand that too.
Take it slow coming off the Gabapentin and Trazadone FF.
I know the Gabapentin can send you into real problems if you come off it too fast but if tapered off slowly, you will be fine.
Glad the Methadone is helping.
Hope you guys are having a good day!
I’m going to go get my chores done.
Hang in there guys.
I send my love.
I would love to tell u the story,but would it have to be in another blog?
and I'm praying that's from the muscle in my shoulder being a bit swollen,the last time I have had this ache,I had to have as fusion in my neck,my lower back is yelling at me too!ok back to story 
I can laugh now,but that took a lot of time to happen.I was six wks pregnant when we married(his 2nd marriage my 1st)..I ,19yrs he was 27yrs so I was sober as the Lord,and he couldn't get any drunker and when he drank booze he got mean,so we started from the get go arguing,he insisting on driving,so no I couldn't get the keys, then he wanted to go on drinking at a buddy of his and I wanted to go home,half way from home and no where, I told him to stop and let me out,he started following me with the car and arguing ,someone must of called the police,they stopped me and I explained the problem ,my husband had drove off so it's me and the cop standing near a field and off the road,well here he comes speeding up as he got closer,I told the cop we best step back further,and sure enough he stepped on the gas and aimed right for us! and ended up in the field while attempting to get back on the road the cop managed to lean in trying to get the keys,and what does hubby do he pulls the cop in and puts him in a head hold! All hell broke loose then, and he ended up in jail,the sad thing is before the head hold the cop was talking bout me just taking him home, I suppose just trying to be nice considering.That was 43yrs ago.Today he would of been shot.im just glad I changed out of my wedding dress after our reception 
just trying to accomplish something. I saw somewhere good moms let kids lick the beaters great moms turn it off first !
Why?God now you got me started 
but I think we both should just draw pictures when we feel that need to clean
great
so I have a lot of bottled up stuff that I really need to share,mainly this over whelming pain issue and methadone,thankyou for hearing me out,and being there! little by little you will know me and hopefully we can be friends 
