A lot of people have already mentioned it but I would try to find some good kava. It won't fuck you up or give you an intense drug experience but it is perfect for anxiety and great for depression or a mood boost. It's all natural, totally legal, not physically addicting, kills anxiety and gives a slight alcohol type buzz without being too intoxicating. It's perfect for just taking the edge off of life when it can seem too intense or too much to handle.
It's easily ordered online, maybe some health food stores sell it or now they even have kava bars. You can buy cheap extracts at Walmart or vitamin shop but it's not the same as good, fresh, noble, whole root kava. Some people have some success via this route but I suggest doing a little research first. Lots of good kava forum(kava forums.com) information on the net.
Good luck my friend. I hope you feel better. Try to workout what makes you feel this way. It's best to work on the root source of your problem but in the meantime just try to minimize any damage to yourself and your mental health. You only get one life, one body and one mind and you'll need all of these things functioning properly for the rest of your life. Take care my friend. We're here if you need us....


P.S. Love your avatar.