Jammycrackers
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- Jan 30, 2021
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Hi, this is my first post and I'm sorry if it ends up being long - I'll stick to the main points. I live in the UK,I'm a 49 year old woman, with severe spinal deterioration, a spinal cord stimular fitted. Prescribed tramadol, pregabalin,naproxen and was dyhydracodeine (but he stopped that one) .... I'm also on 15mg diazepam daily and 10mg zolpidem as I have bipolar, BPD , and bad anxiety.
So, 3 years ago split with my boyfriend overnight and returned to 'i told u so' family... Started doing coke. Not much. Couple .4 bags a week tops. I lost my dad to Altzeimers and dementia last June, and it fucked me up .. I had to b the strong one, so I hit the coke. 1g every week. Then, 28 days before my wedding November 2021,my fiancé walked out....for no reason.
I'm now doing 1g every couple days. I usually have acrylic nails,but took them off felt up my nose as I've been in massive pain. (Like an arsehole only ever snorted up the right). Às u can prob guess massive, prob 2/3 of my septum on the right has a big hole. It's not broken through but the last 6 months when I got blocked, I'd try up the left n nothin... Now I kno why.
My dilemma is 1.. do I HAVE to tell my GP? Cuz if u in the UK,u kno they'll take all my meds that I need
2.... Will my nose collapse if I stop like tonight? Will I go Daniella Westbrook even tho I quit?
Having bad mental health don't help I know. But I need so much advice I had to ask u guys. Please
So, 3 years ago split with my boyfriend overnight and returned to 'i told u so' family... Started doing coke. Not much. Couple .4 bags a week tops. I lost my dad to Altzeimers and dementia last June, and it fucked me up .. I had to b the strong one, so I hit the coke. 1g every week. Then, 28 days before my wedding November 2021,my fiancé walked out....for no reason.
I'm now doing 1g every couple days. I usually have acrylic nails,but took them off felt up my nose as I've been in massive pain. (Like an arsehole only ever snorted up the right). Às u can prob guess massive, prob 2/3 of my septum on the right has a big hole. It's not broken through but the last 6 months when I got blocked, I'd try up the left n nothin... Now I kno why.
My dilemma is 1.. do I HAVE to tell my GP? Cuz if u in the UK,u kno they'll take all my meds that I need
2.... Will my nose collapse if I stop like tonight? Will I go Daniella Westbrook even tho I quit?
Having bad mental health don't help I know. But I need so much advice I had to ask u guys. Please