There should be no shame in getting help for opioid addiction. What a fucked up thing. Not even the same class of substances!
You should know not all doctors think like this. Generally, you have to switch psychiatrists yearly regardless
I've had the same mental health care provider for almost 5 years now. They also do my opioid maintenance.
They're kinda open minded & understanding. If I switched tho, I could lose a lot of what I'm already on.
And unfortunately I've admitted to using drugs of all kinds, so that's somewhere in my records too i'm sure.
But you're right, not all doctors are judgemental. Took me a couple years tho to get my doctor to trust me with a benzo script (which I don't even like benzos, but they're life savers for panic attacks).
I actually wanted to try concerta to counter act the tiredness and lack of motivation I get from my depression & all the CNS depressants I take for anxiety.
I've tried it before in the past & it seemed mellow enough (and long acting enough) to keep me awake & motivated, without tweaking me out too much like say, meth would.
Closest I got was getting prescribed modafinil, only to have my insurance say they wouldn't cover it without a sleep disorder diagnosis.
Can't win, but I'm gonna keep fighting!
Glad to hear you've improved OP!
Cheers!