⭐️ Social ⭐️ The Stimulant Social Parlor. A place to talk about nearly anything. If you don't break forum and site rules, I'll allow it! Potential triggers inside!

[Coxenormous]

Cool, no more for 12 hours. It is a funny video, but it isn't what I really am shooting for here. Miss that show so much.

You just need a little motivation

 

[necropolis]

Hey there, thought I'd jump in on this thread. I have been a non-recreational ADHD stimulant user for 13 years now. Started with Concerta 54s then progressed through to where I am now at 30 mg/day of Dextroamphetamine Sulfate. It helps me to concentrate, and gives me the confidence and motivation to get things done. My psychiatrist recently discontinued my ADHD meds and I am struggling tremendously. As I write this I'm on a 375 mg oral dose of Propylhexedrine (Benzedrex). I don't have the right hookup for quality crystal these days, and as a former manufacturer of near pharmaceutical-grade "prope dope" I can attest that quality SUCKS these days. One-and-a-half Benzedrex inhalers, three and a half hours later, and here I am, coming down, but still very alert and focused. Anybody else on here use propylhexedrine recreationally or as a substitute when you couldn't get access to something better? I put this in here as opposed to Basic Drug Discussion because this thread seems much more specific to stimulant connoisseurs. I used to take cocaine on a recreational basis years ago but haven't touched the stuff in years. Thinking about going back to it, or getting back into the meth business just for my own supply... it's damned frustrating to have to go without the clarity, focus and energy I've come to get used to on Dexedrine.

 

[Jabberwocky]

Hey there, thought I'd jump in on this thread. I have been a non-recreational ADHD stimulant user for 13 years now. Started with Concerta 54s then progressed through to where I am now at 30 mg/day of Dextroamphetamine Sulfate. It helps me to concentrate, and gives me the confidence and motivation to get things done. My psychiatrist recently discontinued my ADHD meds and I am struggling tremendously. As I write this I'm on a 375 mg oral dose of Propylhexedrine (Benzedrex). I don't have the right hookup for quality crystal these days, and as a former manufacturer of near pharmaceutical-grade "prope dope" I can attest that quality SUCKS these days. One-and-a-half Benzedrex inhalers, three and a half hours later, and here I am, coming down, but still very alert and focused. Anybody else on here use propylhexedrine recreationally or as a substitute when you couldn't get access to something better? I put this in here as opposed to Basic Drug Discussion because this thread seems much more specific to stimulant connoisseurs. I used to take cocaine on a recreational basis years ago but haven't touched the stuff in years. Thinking about going back to it, or getting back into the meth business just for my own supply... it's damned frustrating to have to go without the clarity, focus and energy I've come to get used to on Dexedrine.

How come he discontinued your ADHD meds? How long had you been on them? Can’t you just get another doctor to review your case?

 

[necropolis]

He discontinued my meds (this is going to sound really dumb) because I broke into a safe by stealing the key and swiped some of my own Haloperidol. I take Haldol on occasion for agitation, but only once in a great while. To make a long story short, he (my pshrink) got pissed at me because of my dishonesty and "character defects". I hope he decides to restart the stimulant meds soon. If not I will have to find another doctor, and that can be a hell of a difficult process these days. It seems like every single clinician is so reluctant to prescribe anything with "abuse potential" that it's gotten to a ridiculous level if you ask me. I prefer amphetamine but am open to trying anything to help. Benzedrex inhalers aren't going to cut it as a long-term solution. On the one hand, I can't afford to spend 20 dollars a day on nasal inhalers. Also, I'd mess myself up worse than high-dose meth over the long term if I took that propylhexedrine shit every day. I know that I would, because the high feels dirty.

 

[Jabberwocky]

I know the US system is really complex and often kind of moralistic and punitive. Here we own our own medical records and can get them transferred to a new doctor at any time. If you are prepared to go to a private psychiatrist you basically get what you want if it’s a legitimate treatment and medically justifiable. You can even download the official prescribing/treatment guidelines that psychiatrists are legally and professionally obliged to follow for each condition before your consultation.

There are some special conditions for prescribing potentially addictive drugs to former drug addicts but mostly all they need to do is get a second opinion from a colleague and a single clean urine screen from you after 30 days wait and you’d get your stims no problem.

It’s a bit different if you are on welfare and see a government shrink though. They can be assholes.

 

[necropolis]

I see a private one right now, but he's ultra-conservative. I think that paying him 300 dollars out of my own pocket each month, as I have been for quite some time, would make him willing to prescribe just about anything. He just is frustrated with me for taking a higher than prescribed dose of Haldol last month. He may well get over it soon.

 

[acklac7]

The post made by @acklac7 with the video that I won't watch was a good demonstration of a no videos rule or maybe a 1 video per day rule. As of now I will implement a one video link per 12 hour period rule so that if Cox shows up we can actually talk to him. And don't call it my "DC Alt Tweaker Abyss Thread" Call it the DC Parlor or something? Please?

LOL! It’s like you know, it’s almost like you know the video footage I have.

Between my @acklac7 and @007_aclack accounts I have so much video footage from my Instagram Stories, it’s not even funny

You have to know, right? Like you have to know all the crazy shit I have on there, right?

Like there’s been numerous, numerous random people on here who have made references to my Instagram Stories, like, there’s a lot of people secretly watching, huh?

Fuck, I don’t even want to know…

 

[Jabberwocky]

I see a private one right now, but he's ultra-conservative. I think that paying him 300 dollars out of my own pocket each month, as I have been for quite some time, would make him willing to prescribe just about anything. He just is frustrated with me for taking a higher than prescribed dose of Haldol last month. He may well get over it soon.

Good luck man. Stick to prescribed stims only for your ADHD. If you get tempted to substitute low dose meth discuss it here first.

 

[Jabberwocky]

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@Perforated

firstly. fucking hell. i went from being relative sane in H&R at 10pm to batshit crazy in here at quater past. really should not be drinking at all on a weeknight, let alone like this. i don't feel very well and am starting work in 12 minutes.

secondly. that was a comment on the fact that people in quantum information/physics talks will have their Hamiltonian, so the mathematical definition of their system, up for about 30 seconds. This will generally be an entire slide of maths and they might explain the first term, and if you are lucky, one of the others. they will then proceed to give the rest of their talk as if you have perfectly understood the system, but you have not had the chance to so most likely the talk will be unintelligible. so almost inevitably someone will ask at the end if you can go back to that slide and explain it and then if we are super lucky we can then infer what some of the point of the rest of the talk was.

edit to add: fucking valium or xanax innit. i always take one of them if i've been drinking heavily to avoid my sleep being ruined and somehow i ended up on bluelight in the window between taking that and being unconscious.

 

[Robi]

Robi this thread isn't full of people who are spun out. It's just a more relaxed social where people can talk about whatever their hearts desire. Mind games are fucked up. Don't play them.

gotcha, and not a thread to crack jokes, never thought folks were spun out in this one and my hearts desire was to share whatever, and mind games for me are rather subjective and not always negative, but i getcha and ty for clarification,i best stay out of this thread, giving free reign to talk about whatever, can sometimes be my down fall in a public forum

 

[December Flower]

Ok, I get that people have some serious Psychosis issues with Meth, I get that, but here's just a teeny-tiny bit of what has happened to me:

So, in an apparent state of "psychosis" I began to suspect the CIA had bugged my phone with Pegasus, and were spoofing my friends Instagram accounts in an attempt to "Spook" me. Well, they basically told me as much:

So then I'm like, "fuck-it you wanna play, you wanna play huh?":

So then I got some rest, and I'm like "you know what, I'll play nice":

And then, 4 days later:

And I’m all like “what the fuck, this can’t be happening, this can’t be real life!

So then I’m like “you know what, I need a paper check, this can’t be real”:

And then, three days later:

Then, I’m like talking to Stephen Kappes on Instagram and shit:

So then I have this GENIUS idea to get custom “CEEIAYE” (CIA) License Plates, you know, to have epic lulz with the CIA, right?

So I put a little note in my memo on my phone, you know, so I wouldn’t forget right?

And I get home an hour later, open up my notepad, and WTF, my memo has now somehow changed!?

So then I go and apply for a job at the CIA:

Shoot them a message on Instagram letting them know I applied:

And then make this comment in regards them watching my absolutely outrageous Instagram Stories I’ve been doing over the past year, chronicling all the INSANE things that have been going on in my life:

So the next day I go to log into Instragram, right? And right when I log in I see the CIA Seal go flashing across my Instragram Storyboard, right? Like “WHAT.THE.FUCK!? DID THE CIA JUST POST A STORY THE EXACT SECOND I LOGGED IN!? WHAT! I’VE NEVER SEEN ANYTHING LIKE THIS BEFORE!”

So I click on the Story, right? And I get this:

I mean WTF!

But all-in-all, thinking back, it was all probably just “Meth Psychosis”, right?

You go around the internet telling everyone your full name, social security number, banking data.
Have you concluded that this might be the issue in the first place?
I wouldn't be as open with personal information. Just a friendly heads up,
hell I don't think anyone here knows even my first name. You on the other hand post too much personal info, Albert John.
there's many ppl out there who would fuck someone over for nothing

People will think you gullible and try to fuck you over/try to mess with your brain

edit: also pls don't get me wrong but: the cia has better things to do, hands down

 

[VerbalTruist]

@Perforated

firstly. fucking hell. i went from being relative sane in H&R at 10pm to batshit crazy in here at quater past. really should not be drinking at all on a weeknight, let alone like this. i don't feel very well and am starting work in 12 minutes.

secondly. that was a comment on the fact that people in quantum information/physics talks will have their Hamiltonian, so the mathematical definition of their system, up for about 30 seconds. This will generally be an entire slide of maths and they might explain the first term, and if you are lucky, one of the others. they will then proceed to give the rest of their talk as if you have perfectly understood the system, but you have not had the chance to so most likely the talk will be unintelligible. so almost inevitably someone will ask at the end if you can go back to that slide and explain it and then if we are super lucky we can then infer what some of the point of the rest of the talk was.

edit to add: fucking valium or xanax innit. i always take one of them if i've been drinking heavily to avoid my sleep being ruined and somehow i ended up on bluelight in the window between taking that and being unconscious.

Honestly, I thought that second post was a joke. If it was meant to be coherent you really might want to limit your alcohol intake or get off the internet when you’re drinking. Hope you’re staying safe.

You go around the internet telling everyone your full name, social security number, banking data.
Have you concluded that this might be the issue in the first place?
I wouldn't be as open with personal information. Just a friendly heads up,
hell I don't think anyone here knows even my first name. You on the other hand post too much personal info, Albert John.
there's many ppl out there who would fuck someone over for nothing

People will think you gullible and try to fuck you over/try to mess with your brain

edit: also pls don't get me wrong but: the cia has better things to do, hands down

QFT. All of the stuff you posted in this thread and in others will open you up to harassment. Last night I went through and looked at the info you had provided us. Then I used Google and found out more about you. I could send you a letter to your home or contact your family. I would never do that, but some people might.

Put simply @acklac7 , you need to stop posting your personal information on the internet. I’m not going to delete it because you’d just post it again and piss off someone. Now that it’s here, if you want someone to know about your life on Bluelight, just link the pages where all that is. I think it’s safe to say that reposting of that material isn’t going to go well.

Furthermore, after your medical post I understand your interest in treating TBI with meth. That’s okay. What isn’t cool is recommending to everyone that they take “low dose meth”. Bluelight’s central mission is harm reduction. Telling people that daily meth will make them smarter and better won’t fly. You’re promoting the prolonged use of a highly addictive substance. THAT isn’t harm reduction.

Consider this a serious warning. You need to find something else to talk about. Every member of senior staff on Bluelight is well past tired of this. Find other stuff to talk about and do it. We all can check out your story if we want to. It isn’t going anywhere.

Personally, I think that you can be a member who contributes to the site in a meaningful way and who doesn’t keep repeating the same thing all the time. Please don’t prove me wrong,

 

[December Flower]

QFT. All of the stuff you posted in this thread and in others will open you up to harassment. Last night I went through and looked at the info you had provided us. Then I used Google and found out more about you. I could send you a letter to your home or contact your family. I would never do that, but some people might.

Put simply @acklac7 , you need to stop posting your personal information on the internet. I’m not going to delete it because you’d just post it again and piss off someone. Now that it’s here, if you want someone to know about your life on Bluelight, just link the pages where all that is. I think it’s safe to say that reposting of that material isn’t going to go well.

Furthermore, after your medical post I understand your interest in treating TBI with meth. That’s okay. What isn’t cool is recommending to everyone that they take “low dose meth”. Bluelight’s central mission is harm reduction. Telling people that daily meth will make them smarter and better won’t fly. You’re promoting the prolonged use of a highly addictive substance. THAT isn’t harm reduction.

Consider this a serious warning. You need to find something else to talk about. Every member of senior staff on Bluelight is well past tired of this. Find other stuff to talk about and do it. We all can check out your story if we want to. It isn’t going anywhere.

Personally, I think that you can be a member who contributes to the site in a meaningful way and who doesn’t keep repeating the same thing all the time. Please don’t prove me wrong,

Not sure what any of this has to do with Quantum Field Theory.
But I absolutely agree. Meth makes the users very susceptible to believe essentially anything, no matter if low dose or high dose, or if it's "helping your neurotransmitters". Essentially doing anything or thinking about anything helps your neurotransmitters. It would be child's play to do you serious harm @acklac7 - no offense, but being so open about your life, your thought processes, banking info, etc is harmful to yourself, especially in connection with Methamphetamines, low dose or not.

Yes, they are amphetamines, ofc they stimulate your body and brain, but this does come at a price, no matter the dose. All physics is action - reaction. Use a foreign substance to increase brain power by a large margin for too long => your brain will become dependant on the substance to function properly. It's just a logical process. If you want to actually and substantially increase brain power, you should try to stimulate your brain by learning new things, without taking stimulants.

 

[Coxenormous]

Sing Along!

 

[Jabberwocky]

Honestly, I thought that second post was a joke. If it was meant to be coherent you really might want to limit your alcohol intake or get off the internet when you’re drinking. Hope you’re staying safe.

i wish.

my thoughts were coherent (i think) but my motor control and vision weren't up to typing or knowing what i had typed. i was ok til i added benzos.

i dunno how i used to do that + heroin every night like it was nothing.

i do need to both limit my alcohol intake and avoid the internet when i'm drinking.

 

[acklac7]

Submission Reference ID: RR6NCCZY

Can someone please, PLEASE, shoot me an IM. Thank You!

 

[mal3volent]

 

[acklac7]

 

[acklac7]

Fine. I'll Stop.

I'm just trying to help people, that's all I'm trying to do.

But I'll stop.

 

[mal3volent]