I always have a terrible time coming out of a k hole n smoking a bong of strong hash, stops time for me, literally watch the netflix time meter slow down, hav done it accidentally so many times that wen it happens it's lik "oh fuck sake here we go again"
This is the story of how bad addiction gets ya.
My first overdose was a bad one, went over, bf was doing chest compressions cuz my heart wuldnt start, felt like I was in a very deep sleep, just floating in darkness, content and peaceful, luckily ambulance was real quick, got the Naloxone into me n tried to get my heart started but wuldnt go, bf said the paramedics were looking very concerned until finally
*Beep*......*beep*......
And I gradually came to, bombarded by questions, my bf lookin lik he'd been crying, this bright light in my eyes, felt terrible, got into the hospital and my Dr wuldnt let me go until the Naloxone had ran its course, just incase, but nope.
(I'm not a violent person whatsoever) but I was trynna swing at the Dr and cursing him out, screamin lik a fuckin toddler Hu didn't get a toy, so he got a release form removing his responsibility of me and I quickly ran n ordered a taxi, straight back to the house that had gear in it, boyfriend turned his back for a minute n I got the works and a bad into my pocket, went to the toilet, do myself up and my boyfriend said he heard a THUNK, opened the door to find me on the ground, works all round me (needle still was 1/4 filled), no breathing again, straight back into the ambulance and back to the hospital, this time I fuckin waited, feelin terrible, until the Dr said I culd go, that was my first overdoses, they wuldnt b my last but that one really sticks with me cuz my actions r nothing are wat I'm lik normally, just wish I could apologise to the Dr too as he deserved zero of the shite I was giving him at all, and my bf n them lads in the ambulance saved my life twice too, this shows the logic n hold heroin has on you, you will literally try kill yourself to stop the sickness, no matter how many deadly spikes u put under the tightrope walk, an addict will walk it most the time