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☮ Social ☮ PD Social Talk Thread: If 2020 Was the Dumpster, Can 2021 Be the Fire?

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I had a great day today. Spent the work day in meetings and being part of the inner circle, they were even talking shit about some of the non inner circle vice presidents to me. So like... really inner circle, one of 5. Wow. Got to express my feelings about some stuff we need to do and had some authority behind them, it felt cool. Then my boss and I went out for a drink at a bar after work, and ended up chillin for 2 hours, and got to know each other better, told a lot of really personal stories about our lives and it was really nice, it was the sort of thing where there is endless, easy conversation. She gave me a hug when she dropped me off. Then right after that a Bluelighter who is also my crypto friend (brought me into his investment advice telegram group and has taught me a ton) came over to my hotel room and we met for the first time and chilled, he brought some decent blow and we talked for hours and chilled and drank a couple of beers. Now I'm basically glowing from the day and need to get to being tired because I have to go into the office again tomorrow and then fly home after... but tomorrow there is nothing scheduled except for a lunch with various people I haven't seen in years, very low pressure so I'll be fine. Gonna finish this beer and then probably take some etizolam so I'm not up all night.

All in all... top notch day. :)
 
TripSitterNZ said:
anybody keen to take this new class of psychedelic drugs in the future lol?

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I may not be taking any psychedelic drugs in the future as it stands.

I did get a good, well long enough broken sleep though, so badly needed.

Skipped food, about 9.5 hrs sleep and a thousand hours mental trippy dreaming experiences in bizarre scenery.

Each day I wake up, is like the thermometer check.

I most certainly have not got away with it this time, and it really is physical nerve based.

I’m interested in seeing what I can find now, testimonies etc or science, linking LSD overdose and nerve damage. There must have been documented cases. Although again on paper, I’m extra prone to nerve damage from infection, injury or drugs.

So I’d probably be 10 times more likely to experience some actual physical nerve damage. But then I know exactly what localised, and systemic nerve damage feels like, others who suffered a “reaction” might not have even directed a thought towards the physical nerves.

I’m still really kicking myself. Last week I not one little bit thinking about, hoping to recover in any way from Acid. Completely untarnished physically, mentally too in most ways. I’ll see if I can find some literature on this I’m really curious now and could use any distraction.
 
Haha, this is helping me already making me laugh somehow.

On my first search page, I’ve come across this.

“When users pass the 1,000 microgram threshold they may begin to exhibit respiratory stress or even pass out. Some have reported feeling as though they were dying at doses of this size. Fortunately, it is extremely difficult to acquire such large doses.”
 
“Symptoms of an LSD overdose include:
Panic attacks
Intense anxiety
Terrifying thoughts
Delusions
Paranoia
Rapid mood swings
Psychotic episodes
Seizures”.

Now, ALL of that, apart from seizures which I refute as a direct causal, likely panic in an already stroke prone individual, doesn’t scare me at all.

I can ride with all that still mind over matter water under the bridge stuff. Ofc lasting psychosis and mental breakdown is a thing, but I wasn’t damaged or psychotic, traumatised in any way from LSD last week.

I’ve always known how to clean the slate. Let time wash dust away. Knowing no actual lasting physical harm will ever occur.

But nowhere yet have I seen a mention of nerve damage.

Did Syd Barret for example, suffer substantial undiagnosed nerve damage! Maybe the cranial nerves?

This is the spinal nerves, probably the biggest set of leads in the body, so my cognition, memory, personality, intellect etc, seems to be fully there.

Except I’m in shock from the unexpected nerve problems. And really not well physically. The nerve impact is affecting my entire physical body and regulation of energy, metabolism etc.

I am sorry guys I must seem such a winger. I’m just trying to make some sense, and get something out of this, while I hope it passes.

I’m pretty bedridden due to flat out exhaustion and a strange malaise and nausea.

Back to my mini research.
 
Bit closer-

“Long-term Effects on the Body
Although LSD typically produces more pronounced mental rather than physical effects, some acute signs of stimulation to the body’s sympathetic (or “fight-or-flight”) nervous system will sometimes result from LSD use.”

So an overly stimulated nervous system possibly the cause. Whether this is actual nerve damage, inflammation or just temporary irritation is the question.

That’s in reference to in experience stimulation.

So I’m positing that too much nerve stimulation could result in an injury of sorts.

Just trying to figure this for now.
 
Autotripper I am still laughing at your phone story. The irony of someone calling to tell you a way to get them to stop calling is undigestable. lol
I hate the phone. I can totally relate.When it rings my blood pressure goes up and I automatically scream out "go away". Honestly the land line I almost never answer. My cell it is usually someone I have to talk too.

I admit these days it has been all about calming my nerves in some natural way. The days can be tough to get through. And I am sure we all notice especially with COVID, that customer service and just about anything is all screwed up mistakes everywhere you look. The upper corporate douchbags made money on COVID, cut salaries got rid of people and said to hell with customer service. In other words the world is not working so well. Not sure it ever did. But I always remember that parable with the dogs tail. It curls you can take an iron straighten it out but will eventually curl again and nothing we can do can change the outside world. What we are meant to do is change the inside. That however gets tiring as we all know.
 
JackARoe said:
Autotripper I am still laughing at your phone story. The irony of someone calling to tell you a way to get them to stop calling is undigestable. lol
I hate the phone. I can totally relate.When it rings my blood pressure goes up and I automatically scream out "go away". Honestly the land line I almost never answer. My cell it is usually someone I have to talk too.

I admit these days it has been all about calming my nerves in some natural way. The days can be tough to get through. And I am sure we all notice especially with COVID, that customer service and just about anything is all screwed up mistakes everywhere you look. The upper corporate douchbags made money on COVID, cut salaries got rid of people and said to hell with customer service. In other words the world is not working so well. Not sure it ever did. But I always remember that parable with the dogs tail. It curls you can take an iron straighten it out but will eventually curl again and nothing we can do can change the outside world. What we are meant to do is change the inside. That however gets tiring as we all know.
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Thanks mate, I was hoping somebody would appreciate that.

It was a thing you need to hear really than hear about, to really appreciate the hilarity.

The irony is clear. I’ve had some real fun with the crook ones in past, offering you internet fixes (not needed) for money.

I’d go along. Soon as they start like a bursting puppy…Yes! Oh thank god. I’ve got loads of money. How can I pay?

So excitedly and convincingly because it’s quite odd, they were like…okay calm down wait please let me just explain…blah blah.

I would listen patiently. I object to anybody entering my space, or anybody’s in any way- my head- and lying shit to me, to rip me off isn’t even my biggest objection.

So it was never for fun game playing. Natural reactionary response to do something about this.

If a conman stands on my doorstep, I’ll call him out look right at him make him feel so exposed demanding his explanation, justification for the deceitfulness, voicing my strong discontent but with control, not rage, or just take the piss any way it comes to me.

I’m good at taking the piss lol. Growing up, I think I was the biggest “piss taker” of anyone I’ve known, cheeky monkey extreme, ballsy but always in good humour.

Humour is the best, come on.

Could be my focus now. The medicine. That call yesterday, I don’t feel that intense nervy panic mad irritability state now, it is like waves breaking surf, like conscious energy working it’s way out.

But I answered the phone, on the split second, as I wasn’t able to put up with the intensity of it all, the unsettled dog, (nothing due to me just her mum being gone from 5 am), cars, kids, trains, and the landline had already rung a few times.

So she was sent to me I reckons or directed, arranged.

I believe in that stuff you know. Mysterious alignments, coincidences, meetings, uncanny occurrences or manifestations usually was very common for me, when fit well and vibrations really high.

Diff subject though but I’ve seen and done things scientists couldn’t really discuss at all, within established “Science”.

It was very insignificant, the call. But it did bring some unexpected humour.

I slept 2 more hours. I just vaped some lovely weed, made coffee. I just feel super high on acid. I’m in a brighter mood now the vapor does ease things, but if I’m feeling literally the sensation, illumination and high of a 250 ug trip right now,
I swear I am, well that encourages me. It’s like weather watching and forecast.

I can only keep resting, catching sleep, wait a week and could be feeling very back to normal. I’m just not banking on there being no residual nerve harm, and it’s such a bad feeling mentally, I’ve been there times before, when suddenly your life is new, hard in a way it didn’t need to be, wasn’t before and you know it was your own fault and infliction.

I’ve had these mental experiences so many times, always resolved it, but it has always taken time to overcome- its trauma basically.

Even my Tinnitus which onset suddenly Nov 2013 direct result of an ear infection, suddenly losing substantial hearing clarity was one more minor one.

The worst at the time, Feb 28th 2016 I damaged my optic nerve by accident. It was a huge shock, real trauma. I also had true flu coming on unknowingly, 6 full weeks from there.

I seriously damaged my optic nerve, on the right side. It made focusing, holding focus or mental/ visual and both together concentration for more than 3 seconds impossible.

It felt sore to use the visual cortex, the consciousness factor in seeing.

Zero pleasure suddenly in my greatest pleasure in life until then- gazing my eyes upon the world, looking, seeing.

Plus the nerve injury directly caused extreme anxiety and unease, physically.

I was really depressed by the trauma shock and loss.

I overcame that, like my tinnitus, I don’t consciously bother over it at all, ever.

I adapted, evolved, grew. Like losing an arm, say. 10 years on, it’s just life and it’s okay, well maybe not I’m glad it wasn’t that truthfully.

More similar incidents.

The optic nerve injury though, it changed me. In a good way. I became more internal, philosophical flexibly minded. Deeper and more spiritual. My imagination adapted to support the reality of experience, compensate and provide.

I would not be the same AutoTripper today no optic nerve injury 5 years ago.

And as much as I see all sides of myself, and my uncleaness disgusts me still, and so it should IMO if I’m really committed deep down to my roots, I’m pretty okay with myself.

If you gave me a normal body, a normal life and easier survival, opportunity for choosing a life, that’s all I need really.

In a way, better that than the other way round. That’s what I call being thankful.
 
i found 2c-t-4 to be a bit stressful even in normal dosages, the only other 2c-t i had was 21 which was nice but that one does turn out differently than all the other 2c's.
 
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Buzz Lightbeer said:
Honestly not too bad right?
Who's ever gonna synth 2C-T-4 again? Chances are real you encounter 2C-T-2 some other day in your life.
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I‘m not mad at all, it could‘ve been sooo much worse. Like you said, T-4 is extremely rare and chances of ever receiving it again are slim.

I am a little disappointed that I still don‘t have the magical half dozen though. :( Whatever, I‘m sure T-2 will cross my path some day.
 
Really like t4 has a very unique quality to it; was actually planning to plug some later today maybe.
 
Sleep deprivation definitely adds an extra level of craziness to trips.

Debating weather or not I should dose my t4 today maybe wait till tomorrow.
Running low on oil again keep going through shit too quick each time.
Hopefully the afterglow from the trip will help me ration what's left.

Maybe might just do a low dose; don't really find low doses to be a waste if you plug it. Not in the mood for a full blown trip.
 
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