I don't believe anymore of those PCP horror stories. These people must have been seriously fucked before, or thrown caution about dosing in the wind which isn't too difficult to see when you're talking about some random liquid in which some random cig gets dipped for a random time. But PCP is said to have a strong manic pressure; I am pretty susceptible to this and loved the hypomanic energy of MXE, DCK & Co. even ketamine made me walk for hours on end when I should have been rather exhausted. Paid my price in pain afterwards. Yet these don't trigger full on mania which PCP can, at least 3-MeO-PCP can (among others, I suspect that it was impure and/or the bunk stuff before not just bunk but toxic, also some dumbass doc put me cold off memantine - this should be rather depressive though instead of triggering the one and only manic episode I've ever had.)
The -HO dissociatives are weird. They should feel like MeO + opioid but to me 3-HO-PCP was dysphoric. Felt wrong, stupid and wasted when I had a pretty strong tolerance and greatly enjoyed DCK.
3-MeO-PCE was characterized as being feminine by somebody to which I have to agree. Unfortunately also heavily impairs my ability to speech which K never did.
The PCEs are much more nice than the knockout dissociative PCP. That said incident which made me manic shortly after was nice initially but I passed out off a very low dose which is unlikely. I happened to pass out from sky high doses of MXE and DCK later but it was only cold and confusing, I was chasing a hole which I never reached. The MeO-PCP felt very salvaged but the allegedly same substance shortly after was just harsh (different batch - these arylcyclohexylamines are dirty as in affecting many different receptors with similar and individual strength, so each and every is its own kind). I theorize of some being steroids or -mimetics.
Please be careful with the dosage and don't do the embalming fluid route. Wait at least one hour before redosing serious amounts and know that PCPs have a long half life which is PCP > PCE > PCM. Also some of them are strongly vasoconstrictive, don't know for sure whether it was specially DCK or impurities because MXE didn't have this but you shouldn't smoke too much on them and preferrably e-cig. Also marijuana strongly interacts, very differently so than psychedelics. With psychs some low dose of disso actually takes away all the anxiety and as a cherry on top, 5ht2a agonists protect against disso induced neurotoxicity (which I'm not so convinced to readily happen in humans but prolonged use isn't healthy for sure).
I need the therapy part of the psychedelic therapy. I have the psychedelics I just need to find a modern shaman that I trust, that I feel can help me.
Me too, both sides. I'd need a modern shaman (who better knows what he does) as well as that I'd love to assist / sit others when making their experiences. It's kinda boring to be the only one sober I guess but that's a good task for me to solve. I'm constantly bored and often enough take drugs just for the distraction (while staying more focused than sober - I'm not the meditation guy unfortunately.)
Oh, dissos can make you meditate. Darken your room, put on some soft music you like, preferrably with comfortable headphones, maybe some trippy visuals but best is just a cuddly bed in darkness. With or without somebody close, doesn't have to be a romantic relationship as you'll forget the other one at some point anyways and sex on dissos isn't much fun, but it definitely helps with letting go (specially if you're a control freak like me). Might bring you closer together. I had a girl falling in love with me after doing some MXE nights together, didn't think that because she was one who could choose between many men, and I was stuck in a bad relationship, unfortunately. Didn't end good.
Also you don't wanna do the more oxytocinergic dissos like DCK, possibly MXE (R.I.P.) etc. with homophobic people of the same gender. While I thought of nothing bad (we were sitting some meters apart anyways), a buddy freaked out, and because of his energy I did the same. Locked myself into the bathroom while he somehow took/flushed all my stash and forget all until that he'd seen "a demon in the window" and was scared off me ever since. He's physically much stronger. I shoulda have used this to get my debt back but I;'m too soft for this sort of business..