Esoteric the use of crystals and pray to ensure good trip.

[Jabberwocky]

"Frying" is a myth spread by people of the Nixon administration.

Ehhh... it's not wholly a myth but is certainly overstated and overfeared.

I really did fry my brain with tryptamines.... permanent damage, but I was also using ridiculously irresponsible amounts of those drugs in a way that 0.0001% of people ever would..

 

[HOOH]

Ehhh... it's not wholly a myth but is certainly overstated and overfeared.

I really did fry my brain with tryptamines.... permanent damage, but I was also using ridiculously irresponsible amounts of those drugs in a way that 0.0001% of people ever would..

How much were you using and what were the results of your usage? You seem coherent enough to me

 

[Jabberwocky]

How much were you using and what were the results of your usage? You seem coherent enough to me

over a period of about 5 months... at my peak I was smoking 240mg+ of DMT per day, about 3mg+ of LSD and dozens of grams of mushroms per week... (in combination)

I had to take quite a bit to trip due to insane tolerance

Results:
Drug induced schizophrenia (NOT genetic) which I have mostly recovered from but will never be the same
The schizo episode resulted in homelessness, eviction, job loss, etc.. lasted about 1.5 years, but 4 years later still have symptoms

I still suffer from rather extreme hypnagogic hallucinations and jerks

 

[HOOH]

over a period of about 5 months... at my peak I was smoking 240mg+ of DMT per day, about 3mg+ of LSD and dozens of grams of mushroms per week... (in combination)

I had to take quite a bit to trip due to insane tolerance

Results:
Drug induced schizophrenia (NOT genetic) which I have mostly recovered from but will never be the same
The schizo episode resulted in homelessness, eviction, job loss, etc.. lasted about 1.5 years, but 4 years later still have symptoms

I still suffer from rather extreme hypnagogic hallucinations and jerks

Oh wow.

Do you still trip at all?

 

[Jabberwocky]

Oh wow.

Do you still trip at all?

after that episode I did not take any psychedelics for about 2.5 years

I started taking LSD again around 200-400ug doses every 2 weeks for about a year and noticed my schizo was definitely coming back, so I stopped and haven't dosed in about 7 months and it's going away again thankfully

There is something screwy with my serotonergic system... SSRI's give me a mild psychosis almost... just one pill

Although for the record - I am much more scared of tryptamines than lysergamides. I have not taken mushrooms or DMT again and really do not want to any time soon. That's what did me, not the LSD.

Anyways someone in my position continuing to trip is rather dangerous, but I know myself and my body. It's ok - but I need to keep a very close eye on it, because I believe my schizo could come back at any time if I'm not careful.

 

[HOOH]

after that episode I did not take any psychedelics for about 2.5 years

I started taking LSD again around 200-400ug doses every 2 weeks for about a year and noticed my schizo was definitely coming back, so I stopped and haven't dosed in about 7 months and it's going away again thankfully

There is something screwy with my serotonergic system... SSRI's give me a mild psychosis almost... just one pill

Although for the record - I am much more scared of tryptamines than lysergamides. I have not taken mushrooms or DMT again and really do not want to any time soon. That's what did me, not the LSD.

That's fascinating, do you have any other "faulty serotonergic" signals (e. related to mood or appetite) that could possibly explain a bit of your neurology.

Sorry if too invasive, just very curious

 

[Jabberwocky]

That's fascinating, do you have any other "faulty serotonergic" signals (e. related to mood or appetite) that could possibly explain a bit of your neurology.

I've never really thought about it tbh, not relating to my serotonin system. I was diagnosed with "Drug induced schizophrenia" by 2 doctors, one of whom was also a neurologist.

I have a very serious lack of appetite... I have to force myself to eat, but I really blame that on the alcoholism and it destroying my gut.

Mood, well, I was also diagnosed as bipolar. My sister, father and aunt are also bipolar. Yet, I don't have a normal type of of it. I very very rarely ever would get "manic"*, although I do seem to have hypomania on occasion.

TBH what happened to me and my current symptoms I also find fascinating. I'm completely lucid, never delusional, well spoken, but also have wild intense hypnagogic hallucinations and also musical hallucinations which are known to be rare.

I wish I could donate my brain to science.... maybe later

*thinking back I do sometimes get manic, but we're talking maybe a few times per year here... it's not normal for me

 

[telepathetic]

Musical hallucinations, totally different topic here but after taking a lot of LSD at festivals I hsve literally had my brain synthesize/produce amazing psychedelic music from the sound of the wind or passing cars on the highway. Only wish I had known how to translate that into producing my own

 

[Jabberwocky]

Musical hallucinations, totally different topic here but after taking a lot of LSD at festivals I hsve literally had my brain synthesize/produce amazing psychedelic music from the sound of the wind or passing cars on the highway. Only wish I had known how to translate that into producing my own

I've experienced that.

As well as a 7 second segment of a song repeated in my head for days, from the moment I wake up before I open my eyes....

it varies

my brain has created completely unique grammy winning songs completely inside my own head... seriously, I've heard some shit

 

[pupnik]

as to addiction, while I do not suffer any withdrawal without at least some psychedelic spike at least once per week (often light doses more frequently), my wife probably worries that I am addicted, due to my enthusiasm for the genre, and this type of forum usage. (I have more withdrawal from coffee if I miss 2 cups per day)

I joke that I am addicted to psychedelic (here) but do not believe it.

And I think belief is the essence of ceremonial magic as well, though I do not knowingly perform magic. But, how exactly do I actually perform anything? (I know somewhat how, but it is not common for people to even know that much)

As an infant I discovered how to move my body and make sounds which progressed to other ways of connecting with and consuming my environment and making things that I imagined I needed or wanted to share. All these things I do and did, do I really know how it was or is being done?

THE GAP between finding (a need) and responding (producing a needed result) may be reflex to me now, but as I was learning about each thing it was a total mystery. That GAP is the domain of magic. Honestly, I am amazed I can move my fingers and type - it is totally magical - and this is being typed in a state of wonder - without psychedelic over breakfast.

Ceremonial magic or just speaking to the universe directly about your need or about your appreciation addresses the gap.
It indicates that you know you are less than omnipotent and omniscient but are present and participating in something amazing.

Hineni

 

[Jabberwocky]

I don’t know whether addiction is the right word but I have a pretty compulsive desire to trip again as soon as the tolerance from the previous one has subsided.

So at least once a fortnight though i frequently ruin my chances by trying again too soon and just adding to tolerance for minimal psychadelic gain.

At the moment I notice that frequency inhibits meth use between trips and leads to many quite productive days in terma of work and exercise.

 

[simstim]

I prefer lighting saint candles (like the ones from Mexican groceries) these days for prayer myself. Stuff like The Virgin of Guadalupe, Sacred Heart of Jesus, St Jude, St Martin of Tours, etc. I try to keep them burning 24/7. Especially while tripping and rolling. Reading the entire Catechism of the Catholic Church, and believing in it, while I was homeless changed my life. I really believe in communion with and interdiction from angels and saints.

 

[flabberghost]

i can ateest to this amen by the lord there are blessed batches of needlepoint that is beyond the normal levels of magic ever seen on acid this shit is the next level stuff when you come across it its like the most amazing smooth magical trip ever like next level visual fuckery. Lucky this type of lsd is easy to find now. The europeans mass produce this stuff now.

Yup, I recently had something that was another level of good. Seemed to have less “edge” to it. Kinda’ warm, with an easy and CLEAR comedown . It had been a couple years for me, and it was gifted to me as a “this is it, there ain’t no more”. Very small white blotter, with a tiny stealie in black. I figure it had to be Needlepoint. 🕉

 

[flabberghost]

Ehhh... it's not wholly a myth but is certainly overstated and overfeared.

I really did fry my brain with tryptamines.... permanent damage, but I was also using ridiculously irresponsible amounts of those drugs in a way that 0.0001% of people ever would..

I would be interested to know which trytamines you are referring to, how you consumed them, at what level and frequency, and why you consider actual brain damage... please respond.

 

[flabberghost]

Ehhh... it's not wholly a myth but is certainly overstated and overfeared.

I really did fry my brain with tryptamines.... permanent damage, but I was also using ridiculously irresponsible amounts of those drugs in a way that 0.0001% of people ever would..

I would be interested to know which trytamines you are referring to, how you consumed them, at what level and frequency, and why you consider actual brain damage... please respond.

 

[flabberghost]

Had a particular batch of needlepoint LSD that I swear was alchemical enchanted, and hugely influential on my life.

Yeah, I felt like the stuff was blessed. Serious intent was behind its synthesis. I try to moderate my romanticizing of the stuff, but this was a new deal. Extreme potency, and purity. It was a gift, and it showed up at exactly the right time. I’ve tripped thousands of times, since 1977. Just good to know there are some serious chemists out there.

 

[flabberghost]

How many people consume psychedelics in a tradition way like the mexicans with shrooms. How many people pray and bless their psychedelics before taking them. it is reported that LSD chemists are well known to bless and pray their batches to ensure holy light is spread to the four corners of the earth.

How do those who operate within the linear confides of linear time ever catch those who operate outside of the regions of time and space aka those european cartels making this stuff. Are these drugs even safe to take? i always say they are but fuck knows man some people might be fucked forever if it brings up something,

We must provide counter balance in the new revolution of psychedelics and spread safe awareness and tips to ensure people do not harm themselves. This shit is hardcore stuff that is becoming to attractive to take in the media now by naive people. Been hearing many more 30 year old people freak out in the news reports. Like seriosuly can people just act like a adult at that age. If your over 25 and never done drugs just stay away from doing something hardcore like LSD to pop ur drug cherry thats fucking stupid. At least fucking smoking on the regular weed at least and if that don't give u ur buzz then maybe take acid but be safe its serious shit only take one tab at a time. Never just up ur doses liek crazy it will fuck u up in a bad way.

There needs to be more guidance. Acid ain’t going away. That Genie has been loose for nearly 80 years now. It’s a tricky balance between “popularizing” it, while making announcements about its proper use, and also safeguarding those of us who are constricted with a turgid and fragile intellectual framework. Yeah, it’s DANGEROUS! I’m all for the research popping-up, but too much press coverage prompts irresponsible use. I’m 65... I’ve tripped HARD ( 1000ug ) in fucking public. Never did find my clothes. The hard rain became an issue. Nearly jumped out of a car, on the freeway “to get to the next level... NOW!” Stuff gets wild. Nowadays, in this social static field? -Fuck no. You get too permeable for the erratic and malevolent signals radiating around now. Michael Pollan? -Hey great. This is the intellectual class in that audience. If you try running 220 through twinkle lights, yur gonna have problems. And yes, I always pause, get clear on where I’m going, open up, and make the Sign of The Cross. -Always. I’ve been to Hell. They ain’t got no postcards. Compassion for who you meet there, catapults you out to the stratosphere... or Bardo. It’s dicey stuff. I never “recommend” it anymore.

 

[flabberghost]

"Frying" is a myth spread by people of the Nixon administration.

Yeah, actually it's not, on the other hand, taking something compulsively without an ability to stop and detriment to life quality is addiction.

“Addiction” is an inneresting word, as it relates to psychedelics. I had to look at it, about myself. “Detriment” is a hard thing to scale, or compare to any baseline. I have no control subject, of myself. The “A” that never did Acid, Psilocybin, DMT, and Salvia... or the “B” that has done arguably TOO MUCH of all of them, for over 45 years. I ain’t got Alzheimer’s ! ( amyloid plaque reduction? ). So anyway: “Addiction”. I go years between Trips anymore. Then do a series. Yeah, I’m addicted. If yur stuck on a thing, and you can’t leave it alone... compulsive attachments can be associated to a LOT of things, and behaviors. -Like the sleep that I need right now. We Bid you Goodnight, Goodnight, Goodnight...

 

[Jabberwocky]

I would be interested to know which trytamines you are referring to, how you consumed them, at what level and frequency, and why you consider actual brain damage... please respond.

over the course of 5 months LSD, mushrooms, DMT, LSA, and Harmaline, I think that's about it. Also another mystery psychedelic that I believe was either a DOx compound or possibly an exotic nBOME (but not 25i). Other drugs were involved but not psychedelics.

My use varied greatly over this time. Some days I was smoking DMT 3-4 times per day. Sometimes I was dosing LSD/shrooms 2-3 times per week in large doses. Other times it was more reasonable like a small dose once per week. Every time I dosed LSD/mushrooms I would smoke DMT at the peak. My doses were never that crazy, but early on I was being a bit reckless and trying to overcome tolerance. The craziest night I had was about 1.2mg LSD, 5mg mushrooms, LSA and 100mg DMT, but I had a ridiculously high tolerance at that point.

The last 2 months were almost exclusively mushrooms and DMT, then I had my psychosis, this is why I blame the tryptamines

Eventually my brain completely snapped and sent me into a prolonged psychosis. Official diagnosis was drug induced schizophrenia. It's been 4 years and I'm still not the same. This is what I mean by 'brain damage'.

It wasn't just the drugs, other factors like chronic sleep deprivation, stress, malnutrition were also factors in what happened.

 

[flabberghost]

over the course of 5 months LSD, mushrooms, DMT, LSA, and Harmaline, I think that's about it. Also another mystery psychedelic that I believe was either a DOx compound or possibly an exotic nBOME (but not 25i). Other drugs were involved but not psychedelics.

My use varied greatly over this time. Some days I was smoking DMT 3-4 times per day. Sometimes I was dosing LSD/shrooms 2-3 times per week in large doses. Other times it was more reasonable like a small dose once per week. Every time I dosed LSD/mushrooms I would smoke DMT at the peak. My doses were never that crazy, but early on I was being a bit reckless and trying to overcome tolerance. The craziest night I had was about 1.2mg LSD, 5mg mushrooms, LSA and 100mg DMT, but I had a ridiculously high tolerance at that point.

The last 2 months were almost exclusively mushrooms and DMT, then I had my psychosis, this is why I blame the tryptamines

Eventually my brain completely snapped and sent me into a prolonged psychosis. Official diagnosis was drug induced schizophrenia. It's been 4 years and I'm still not the same. This is what I mean by 'brain damage'.

It wasn't just the drugs, other factors like chronic sleep deprivation, stress, malnutrition were also factors in what happened.

Ouch. I’m trying to understand where you are on this.

Your writing is exceptionally coherent.

That’s quite a load of chemistry.
What might you think is the bio-mechanical ( if only it could be that singular ) cause involved? Maybe you should seek-out the people at John Hopkins that have been running studies. They may be able to help you, and I’m sure they would appreciate the case study... if you could deal with that exposure.

Help me with the math, please... but isn’t 1mg of LSD equivalent to 10 times 1000ug? We talkin’ 100 hits at once?

Dude, I’m sorry. I’ve been at the edge, and prolly further with psychosis. You can re-track.

I wish I had the skill and knowledge to give you something of value to help.

Healing can happen.
Don’t lose hope.

Eat right. Take lots of Vitamin C. Something called Sodium Ascorbate might be good for you... look into it!

I just found-out about it today.
-Serendipity? I dunno.

Google-up foods that promote serotonin.

Get some GOOD doctors...

Stay the fuck away from psychedelics now... not even POT!

I knew a Schizophrenic that did some pot, and it flipped his shit.

Sometimes, when we open up excessive channels to the unknown, we become vectors for extraneous and malevolent extra-dimensional entities, and energy networks well beyond our mortal capacity to comprehend.

Were you with The Elves? I dunno what those little fuckers are about.

Rebuild your barriers. Your filtration system, and collation system has been made: A) More permeable B) Scattered.

It can re-sort.

How old are you, and where are you?

I hope I’m not coming-off as pompous... or speaking outside of my sphere of genuine understanding. Make your OWN time, and re-define yourself with these new characteristics.

Check out Buddha, and Christ.

Read Richard Alpert’s “Be Here Now”

EAT RIGHT!