Mr_Sandman
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I need help managing the depression and sexual side effects.
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Mental Health Coming Off Invega Sustenna (Paliperidone) v4
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I’m kind of stuck. Don’t know how to fill the days. I’m admitted to a mental hospital because of suicidal ideations. I just kind of wait here until time passes. Until I can get home because I like my home better than hospital.
In the hospital I see many patients on neuroleptics. It’s such a waste of life. It’s the definition of being zombie.
I still don’t feel a lot. Libido is slightly coming back. Music sounds bland. No initiative, anhedonic.
I started St Johns wort today to see if it helps.
My thoughts are minimal to none.
I’ve been reading a lot on these forums and the majority seems to recover. But I’m scared. I just need confirmation and I want recognition for my condition.
In the hospital I see many patients on neuroleptics. It’s such a waste of life. It’s the definition of being zombie.
I still don’t feel a lot. Libido is slightly coming back. Music sounds bland. No initiative, anhedonic.
I started St Johns wort today to see if it helps.
My thoughts are minimal to none.
I’ve been reading a lot on these forums and the majority seems to recover. But I’m scared. I just need confirmation and I want recognition for my condition.
iridescentblack
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Sympathy is kind of in short supply for this one. The worst of all were the police I had to deal with when coming off Invega Sustenna. Those bastards never aided me whatsoever with a neighbor who played fucking death metal at 100 decibels in his apartment all night from 10 pm to 8 am but for whatever reason 10 of them arrested me because I ran away and screamed when a spider seemed to materialize from the inside of a soda bottle I had just gulped down. An hour passed after I ran away like that and then I go and sit down in my usual spot to have a smoke and literally 10 pigs surrounded me on all sides, ready to draw their guns and claimed that multiple people called to complain about me.
Worst of all was the highest ranking officer, some pig from Ireland who tried the usual good cop thing in order to get me to talk.
I pissed in the back of their cruiser that day. Thought it was hilarious. Then in the emergency mental temp portion of the hospital they wouldn't even take my handcuffs and footcuffs off before practically forcing me to get my hands from behind me to my front first. Must have been entertaining for those people.
But yea, anyone expecting sympathy on this drug - I wish I could provide you empathy! because I know how much it sucks. But just don't let your feelings get ahead of you here! People are bound to try and screw you over while you're on that drug. I could go into details about all the fucked up sociopaths I ran into that did so to me while I was recovering. That would fill up a lot of text though.
Worst of all was the highest ranking officer, some pig from Ireland who tried the usual good cop thing in order to get me to talk.
I pissed in the back of their cruiser that day. Thought it was hilarious. Then in the emergency mental temp portion of the hospital they wouldn't even take my handcuffs and footcuffs off before practically forcing me to get my hands from behind me to my front first. Must have been entertaining for those people.
But yea, anyone expecting sympathy on this drug - I wish I could provide you empathy! because I know how much it sucks. But just don't let your feelings get ahead of you here! People are bound to try and screw you over while you're on that drug. I could go into details about all the fucked up sociopaths I ran into that did so to me while I was recovering. That would fill up a lot of text though.
Have you spoken to your doctor or psychiatrist about your depression? It might be worth seeing a therapist to talk about it.
As for the sexual side effects....I don't really have any tips for that sorry. Maybe someone else can help? Are you in a relationship?
Thank you so much for checking in with this thread and letting us know how you're doing @LostVirgo . I'm sorry to hear you're experiencing so many adverse side effects though. When was your last Invega shot??
I hope you start to get some good feelings back soon, I really do. There's definitely still hope for you though. Some people have had their side effects from invega last a lot longer than that but it always seems to wear off eventually. Do you know when you're going home?
yeah I know it can take 8 months or so from what I've read on this thread........ so 5 long,long months until I will be 'healed'.
It's hard to see perspective. I don't currently see my life as ''worth it.'' I am just waiting, waiting, waiting. I don't like having an empty head at all. It is torture, torture. I don't want to live like this
I'll maybe get home in 10 days.
Mr_Sandman
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I’m going to have that conversation soon. Thinking about getting on an SSRI or something to help with depression.
iridescentblack
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I've found that some doctors can actually be quite reasonable, but my past experiences have shown me that having a general conversation with one isn't always within reach. Some are not to be reasoned with and seem to live their careers as charlatans passing drugs onto people. There are some good ones though.
Dre87
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I thought the forced injections of Invega might've ruined me, but fuck it, it's time to start trying to crush it in life as a big middle finger to them maybe. Start working out and getting some sunlight everyday, eating better, maybe trying to find a better way to make money, take up a hard martial art like Brazilian Jiu Jitsu or boxing or Muay Thai and get your ass kicked for a bit, go on Youtube and watch some of those 'red-pill' or pickup artist type videos, but not too much or it might just make you wierd, but in terms of the theory of male and female dynamics, some of those guys are lightyears ahead of mainstream psychology on the topic..Fuck it, go all in..
dirtyinvega
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I thought I would write something very interesting that has happen in the past two weeks I got diagnosed with ADHD and got approved for stimulates yesterday by the health department
I took my first dose of 10mg of Ritalin this morning and the anhedonia/depression lifted like I havent felt before the invega shots so without a doubt my Dopamine D2 and other Dopamine receptors are not fully blocked because I can feel the effects in my case but I have been off invega for four years nows so I hope this help people see the light at the end of the tunnel.
I took my first dose of 10mg of Ritalin this morning and the anhedonia/depression lifted like I havent felt before the invega shots so without a doubt my Dopamine D2 and other Dopamine receptors are not fully blocked because I can feel the effects in my case but I have been off invega for four years nows so I hope this help people see the light at the end of the tunnel.
loosewheelnut
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It says you've been here since 2017, so I'd hope you feel better by now. If you're saying you still have anhedonia after 4 years I don't think that's a good thing. You must be taking some other AP still otherwise it should be completely out of your system
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loosewheelnut
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Been in your position. I was in and out of hospital for the first since months after coming off invega sustenna. I was suicidal but I couldn't explain why (I think it's from a lack of dopamine and serotonin) and I also felt like a zombie, no inner thoughts or bad intrusive ones. When I was in my worst phase, I would literally lie on the couch all day. Staring at the wall, (trying) to watch tv but I didn't like it and sleeping if I could manage it. As time went on around the 6 month mark was when I began to feel better. I'm now 7.4 months off invega and I'm feeling emotionally ok. I'm taking St Johns Wort but I can't tell if it's making a difference. Hope that helps, coming off this drug is torturous and it feels like a continuous nightmare
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Any excuses to get off the shot?
loosewheelnut
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I said it gave me akathesia, which it did and they let me off. Tell them it's giving you terrible side effects and you want to go off otherwise you're going to take them to court. Probably your best bet
Specified
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yeah but i've been on the shot for about a year now so that probably wouldn't work. I guess just saying i'll take them to court will work, and I know a good lawyer to say to them i'll use this lawyer if that makes sense
dirtyinvega
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The thing is I tired many antidepressants and (one) AP for months after my last shot to try and feel well again/withdrawals and it didn't work infact i'm willing to bet lots of people in this thread did the same thing and didnt say it - So i quit all APs and antidepressants 3.5 years ago and I sat there waited and see if it improved but it never did sadly.
Just by chance it improved my anhedonia/depression ritalin is used for treatment depression resistant here in Australia and ADHD and narcolepsy but i'm taking it for ADHD. To be honest I definitely think I got drug-induced parkinsonism and NMS I defintely I think I got brain damage from the invega without a doubt or it completely rewired it who the hell know mate I dont really look at the past I just look at the future and worry and look after my 16 month old son and my partner.
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Good to hear you recovered a bit. I am worried I’ll never get my initiative and drive and cognition back so suicide is what I think about but I’m also so young and I’m afraid of death.
I spoke to someone who’s sperm is still clear after 9 months. How is that for everyone else? When did sperm go back to white?
dirtyinvega said:The thing is I tired many antidepressants and (one) AP for months after my last shot to try and feel well again/withdrawals and it didn't work infact i'm willing to bet lots of people in this thread did the same thing and didnt say it - So i quit all APs and antidepressants 3.5 years ago and I sat there waited and see if it improved but it never did sadly.
Just by chance it improved my anhedonia/depression ritalin is used for treatment depression resistant here in Australia and ADHD and narcolepsy but i'm taking it for ADHD. To be honest I definitely think I got drug-induced parkinsonism and NMS I defintely I think I got brain damage from the invega without a doubt or it completely rewired it who the hell know mate I dont really look at the past I just look at the future and worry and look after my 16 month old son and my partner.
I have ADD (not medicated for it though), and whenever I take ritalin the positive effects it has on me are very noticeable. Perhaps you had some symptoms of depression not related to any of the meds you've previously been on, i.e. maybe you were just depressed...?
Just be aware that SSRIs, whilst they can be incredibly beneficial for depression, most of them have negative sexual side effects, which is not going to help your current situation with that. Be sure to mention this to your doctor.
Their anhedonia may be completely unrelated to the medication, or any other medication in fact. It could just be a symptom of depression.
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