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Audiobook said:
Basically, like acquaintances are nice but you need a few people you trust!!
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Completely agree. :)

Though, honestly I have a high tolerance for being lied too. When I think of trust, I mean trust that someone is acting in my interest.

If someone lies to be but it's still in an effort to help me, I can forgive that. I don't like it, but I'll get over it.

If someone actually disregards my best interests though, that's when it's a true betrayal to me.

And the same with my family, I trust my mother, but when I say that, I don't mean that I trust that she'd never lie to me, I mean I trust she's never knowingly and deliberately acting against my best interest.

That's what I value.
 
Audiobook said:
To me it depends on what the lie is about, but overall I prefer to not be lied to.

And I can usually suss out lies and shit.
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Well I don't like being lied to either. All I mean is, I'll forgive and get over being lied too.

Intentionally going against my best interest is gonna be muuuch harder for me to accept.
 
Audiobook said:
I think the internet has good and bad aspects.

Depends on how you use it and what you interact with.
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Absolutely.

I no less than owe my entire education to the internet. I'm a high school drop out and got horrible grades pretty much up till then. I never went to college.

So any education I appear to have is self taught thanks to the internet.

That's part of the reason it infuriates me that so many people squander such an amazing resource. Using it for bs social media shit or to learn about complete nonsense.

When it can be so much more.
 
Audiobook said:
I learn about so many things through the internet…and you can look up so many things about people.

I mean after the shooting and resulting break in to my apartment I was able to learn my upstairs neighbor is stupid enough to have cheap hookers and his family…all on his Facebook page with his name and picture.

I wonder if his current/ex knows (IDK if they are still together…hoping she is taking him with her bc she is moving).
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It's amazing how much personal shit people will put on Facebook. And then they'll blame Facebook that everyone can find everyone about them!

I mean Facebook certainly is a privacy nightmare, but Facebook didn't MAKE its users put up every aspect of their lives. I don't have a Facebook page. Or a Twitter account. And I'm not gonna.

Even if it wasn't a privacy nightmare. I just don't get the appeal.
 
Audiobook said:
I plan to have a camera system that I control if/when I get married.

And if he fucks with it he will have so much drama that he will be in therapy for the rest of his life.
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Hopefully you find a man who you trust enough that you wouldn't feel that you need to do that! :) <3


JessFR said:
Honestly we should probably all be doing that. :D

Way too many messed up violent crazy guys out there.
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Amen to that sister
 
I have been battling depression last couple of months and today it seems to be only getting worse. It has been messing with my apatite, and I am not the healthiest of eaters. There will be periods where I won't eat anything besides maybe a honeybun in the morning, then there are days where I might go out to lunch and eat a huge meal.
I am supposed to have my 'shit' together ', and I think hiding my depression from my 'social' life is draining my soul.
Have seen multiple health care providers and they just want me to take Zoloft and then everything will be better. I'm not against that, I just don't see that helping me much at this very moment.
 
D's said:
I have been battling depression last couple of months and today it seems to be only getting worse. It has been messing with my apatite, and I am not the healthiest of eaters. There will be periods where I won't eat anything besides maybe a honeybun in the morning, then there are days where I might go out to lunch and eat a huge meal.
I am supposed to have my 'shit' together ', and I think hiding my depression from my 'social' life is draining my soul.
Have seen multiple health care providers and they just want me to take Zoloft and then everything will be better. I'm not against that, I just don't see that helping me much at this very moment.
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Medication can definitely help, it's just not every medication works equally well for everyone. It can take time to find one that works.

Personally I've had more luck with SNRI's than SSRI's. But meds definitely can help, irrespective of the underlying circumstances that you feel are depressing you.

I bring this up cause, sometimes people feel like meds won't help because their depression is the result of their circumstances. I used to believe that too.

But, with time, I've come to believe that's not true. I've felt depressed when nothings seriously wrong and not depressed when everything's falling apart. I think it's always chemical. And so meds are always worth trying if you haven't tried them already.

With me I was on escitalopram, uhh mirtazepine too for a while, duloxetine was probably the most effective. They can also take time to work. It's subtle.

It's worth being cautious when first taking them too because in some cases they can actually make you feel worse, if that happens it's the meds and they should be changed.

One advantage of ending up in a psychiatric hospital is they were able to try meds and keep an eye on me and determine a lot more clearly how well they were working.
 
Man I hope my nerves are a bit better this morning, things were really hard yesterday morning. Anxiety fucking sucks.
 
D's said:
Man I hope my nerves are a bit better this morning, things were really hard yesterday morning. Anxiety fucking sucks.
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I'm really hoping you have a better day today too man <3 Let me know how you go okay? Love ya bro.
 
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I haven't felt this drained in a long time. Haven't done much this week, besides switching between my bed and the couch. I also have about 1000 messages on whatsapp I haven't even bothered to look at, most are probably nothing but some are actually important.
I need to get out of this state, and I know I will get going again (sooner rather than later). I'm only posting this because I feel like it may help me "wake up", somehow.
 
4meSM said:
I haven't felt this drained in a long time. Haven't done much this week, besides switching between my bed and the couch. I also have about 1000 messages on whatsapp I haven't even bothered to look at, most are probably nothing but some are actually important.
I need to get out of this state, and I know I will get going again (sooner rather than later). I'm only posting this because I feel like it may help me "wake up", somehow.
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Oooooh I know that state ALL TOO WELL my friend. It sucks big time, and it can be so difficult to drag yourself out of it huh.
Whenever I've been in that state, I make a list of all the little tasks I have to do that day, and I literally tick them off as I go. It makes me feel like I'm accomplishing a lot, and it motivates me. I'm talking like, ALL the things you need to do, literally:
- get out of bed
- make the bed
- eat something
- drink some water
- do some washing up
- clean up the kitchen
- wash some clothes
- have a shower
- drink some more water
- read and reply to 5 messages on whatsapp (or 10, or whatever you can manage, be realistic).


Audiobook said:
It’s hot where I am today…fucking bitch…
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It's cold here!!! Where are you? I'm in Sydney, Australia, and it's snowing all over my state (not in Sydney though, it never actually snows in Sydney). So the maximum temp here today is 45F, and last night it got down to 35F! Luckily I have my pets all over me keeping me warm haha.
 
My productivity has been pretty low but tomorrow got some work to hand in hopefully i pass it. Then a long as grind of other work over the weekend. Hopefully by the end of next week i will be finished. Then ill go catch up with two close friends havent seen them in ages. Then prob see my family and see how my kittens grew up. They already look so fucking big now got them in jan then i had move. Had to climb trees a few times cause they got stuck up the top alot lol.

My holiday is going to be way shorter than i imagined at the start. I no longer plan on frying my brains out on a bender anymore and instead will do something constructive like try meditate each day lose all this weight i gained in the last 3 weeks from stress eating. Learn biochemistry fucking asap.

Life is a grind been a bum sure was easier but becomes empty in itself of doing nothing and then the hole you get trapped in. I have myself to rely on. I knew it was going to be a hard grind this year getting life back on track instead of giving up. Shit getting back into the work force is daunting aswell I don't want to end up in a bad work place enviroment where there is bullying but that is rife in NZ. I hate bullying so much and it triggers my PTSD so yeah lol if somebody tries that in a work place i just black out in rage and would lose my job. but i hate bullies idc if they are my boss if they bully me it gonna be trigger me really bad. For the aspect i probably want to be my own boss one day maybe try figure out a business idea but im so fucking side tracked and lazy i would suck at running at one.


I been looking at these cool lamps

But it cost to much money for me but i want to maybe try figure out how to make one myself surely that would save me alot of money. My dad has alot of tools for making cool things so maybe ill try figure out a way to do
 
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