JustSayYesToDrugs
Greenlighter
What a great forum. I'm glad I stumbled my way to this forum. I just wanted to send a shout out and introduce myself. This may be longer than you want to read so if so you can leave now. I'm totally new to drugs as of last year. I grew up during the Reagan "Just Say No to Drugs" era. I was constantly told over and over growing up you're either going to end up in jail or dead if you use drugs. Sad to say that I bought into all of that bullshit. However, I do have a type A addictive personality. When I like something I go all out and you could say I get addicted to it. Sex, golf, travel and many other things.
It's somewhat of a miracle that I ended up not trying drugs sooner. It's not to say I wasn't exposed to it. In college I was in a fraternity and saw every drug imaginable being used/abused. I just told myself, "just say no". And did just that. Then out of college, I was responsible. Worked my ass off and made partner at my firm. My goal was to make enough to retire earlier in life so I slaved away working hard.
My sole interaction when I was younger (late 20's) was this super sexy girlfriend that just loved to smoke pot. She was this sensual girl that I actually met at a strip club. She wasn't a dancer but that cool type of girl that went in with her guy friends to watch girls dance. She was one of those trust fund kids that never had to really work. All she did all day was smoke weed, sleep in and then would go out to eat with her friends and go partying at night. She was only 22 but one of those wise beyond her years type of girl. She respected the fact that I wasn't into drugs but she did ask me several times to get high with her. OK, looking back now I feel like a total idiot for not getting high with her! What a moron! She would go on and on about how some day marijuana would be legal all throughout the USA. How it was less harmful than even cigarettes and was almost scholarly about the medicinal purposes of marijuana.
One night before we were to go on a super romantic trip to Mexico she made me dinner at her apartment. I had a big house at the time but she had this amazing penthouse apartment with the most marvelous view downtown. I remember she made the most delicious food. Her family owned a chain of restaurants. After dinner we were making love and all I remember was time just flying by. It was sunset when we were starting but then I remember it blurring into evening. While I was inside of her I remember the most amazing euphoria. But then I started getting paranoid and just got weird. I stopped her and told her I felt sick. She told me to calm down. I was trying to be rational and think what could have happened. I told her the only explanation was she drugged me. I felt so betrayed. While I totally was ok with her smoking pot, this was back in the early 2000's and pot wasn't legal in any state, I just wasn't into drugs. I blew up and broke up with her. I called my friend as I couldn't drive and he drove me home.
I was confused, betrayed, sad and as much as I liked hanging out with B., I told myself I could never trust someone like this. She came by my house for several days crying and begging for forgiveness. I never did and told her never to contact me again. I was stupid and stubborn and just ignorant. Granted, it was totally NOT ok for her to drug me without my consent. Just not cool. But I tell you this story to tell you about the one time that I was high.
Fast forward 20 years and I'm now in my late 40's. Married with kids. I just never thought I'd want to use drugs. But one day I was getting my haircut by my hairdresser. An attractive younger girl, D. D. did hit on me and gave me her phone # but I never called her. Not so say, I'm a saint and would never cheat on my wife. I had before and was at the time but this was too close to home and D. knew some of my other friends. D. was wild and would tell me about some crazy stories. Most involved sex and then sex and drugs. I got curious because she told me about feeling so amazing the previous weekend. She said it was her first time doing MDMA (Ecstasy). She was describing it and it sounded so amazing.
I got home and I started researching about MDMA. I went to all the various websites that talked about MDMA. I read several books by Shulgin and listened to audiobooks of interviews of Alexander Shulgin and his wife, Ann. I read about the FDA and PTSD patients that were trying MDMA in clinical trials. It was all fascinating.
The next time I got my haircut, I asked D. if she get me some MDMA. I didn't know how/when I'd do it but I asked her and she did get me a few pills. She did. Then I made the bold step of asking my wife (who also never did drugs before and was against them) if she would do MDMA with me. Surprisingly she said she would try it. We booked a fancy hotel and officially did drugs for the first time. Looking back I was a little foolish because although I knew and trusted my hairdresser, I didn't test the drugs. Now I'm very careful and test (Marquis + Simon's A+B) and measure out MDMA, that first time I only got the pills. It was in gelatin capsules and if I had to guess it had about 100 mg of MDMA each pill. D. told me to take it and if I liked it then take another one 90 minutes later.
So that's what we both did. About 30 minutes in we both started feeling a little dizzy and nauseous during the come up. But that only lasted about 15 minutes and then it was amazing. We took the redose 90 minutes later as instructed and it was an amazing first experience with drugs. I felt like a total idiot for not starting sooner! And I remember thinking how stupid I was to have not listened to B. 20 years earlier.
Since then, I tried marijuana and really love the sensation. I remember having sex with my wife the first time super high on marijuana and it was the most amazing feeling. I literally went back in a time machine and it reminded me of the sensation of when B. drugged me so many years before. I so regretted not trying drugs sooner but feel like now that I'm older and more responsible this is probably the best time to do drugs.
I did have an "oh shit" drug episode last year a few months after this experience I wrote about above. I ordered and tried LSD. I know, I know some would say that was a big step. Luckily I read quite a bit and read it's a good idea to do it with a sitter first. I just took too much for my first time. I took about 250 ug which ended up being way too much for me. I had an ego death and I literally thought I was dying. I was panicking. I read that 250 ug. was too little to cause any major problems but that didn't change the fact that I thought I was going to die. My marble floor in my bathroom I thought was moving. The most shocking thing was that I admitted to my wife that I was cheating on her. And when she asked me about it, I couldn't lie. It was like the LSD was a truth serum. I remember trying to lie but couldn't. My wife was saying she wanted a divorce but I just asked her to help me get through the night.
That LSD scared me! But ultimately it saved me because I was selfish and seeing other girls when I was traveling out of town for work. That night totally changed me and my philosophy. I have an amazing, gorgeous wife and it took that episode to really give me an ego death. I promised my wife that I wouldn't cheat again and she agreed to forgive me. It's not always easy but I would have never admitted something like this. And I don't think I could have stopped cheating had it not been for that episode with the LSD.
I told myself I would never try LSD again but have to confess I've tried microdosing it. So far, the highest is only 35 ug which does give a good feeling. I do MDMA about once every 5 or 6 weeks and amazing every time. I am fortunate that I live in a state where marijuana is legal so it's effortless to get. I've also tried 2CB which is great but really difficult to get here in the USA. I had to order from the Netherlands but after COVID mail service is too undependable.
I'm wanting to try some other drugs. After all those years of "Just Say No" now I'm saying "Just say Yes to drugs". And my ex-girlfriend that drugged me was totally correct. Fast forward to today and many states have legal marijuana and more states are heading that way.
It's somewhat of a miracle that I ended up not trying drugs sooner. It's not to say I wasn't exposed to it. In college I was in a fraternity and saw every drug imaginable being used/abused. I just told myself, "just say no". And did just that. Then out of college, I was responsible. Worked my ass off and made partner at my firm. My goal was to make enough to retire earlier in life so I slaved away working hard.
My sole interaction when I was younger (late 20's) was this super sexy girlfriend that just loved to smoke pot. She was this sensual girl that I actually met at a strip club. She wasn't a dancer but that cool type of girl that went in with her guy friends to watch girls dance. She was one of those trust fund kids that never had to really work. All she did all day was smoke weed, sleep in and then would go out to eat with her friends and go partying at night. She was only 22 but one of those wise beyond her years type of girl. She respected the fact that I wasn't into drugs but she did ask me several times to get high with her. OK, looking back now I feel like a total idiot for not getting high with her! What a moron! She would go on and on about how some day marijuana would be legal all throughout the USA. How it was less harmful than even cigarettes and was almost scholarly about the medicinal purposes of marijuana.
One night before we were to go on a super romantic trip to Mexico she made me dinner at her apartment. I had a big house at the time but she had this amazing penthouse apartment with the most marvelous view downtown. I remember she made the most delicious food. Her family owned a chain of restaurants. After dinner we were making love and all I remember was time just flying by. It was sunset when we were starting but then I remember it blurring into evening. While I was inside of her I remember the most amazing euphoria. But then I started getting paranoid and just got weird. I stopped her and told her I felt sick. She told me to calm down. I was trying to be rational and think what could have happened. I told her the only explanation was she drugged me. I felt so betrayed. While I totally was ok with her smoking pot, this was back in the early 2000's and pot wasn't legal in any state, I just wasn't into drugs. I blew up and broke up with her. I called my friend as I couldn't drive and he drove me home.
I was confused, betrayed, sad and as much as I liked hanging out with B., I told myself I could never trust someone like this. She came by my house for several days crying and begging for forgiveness. I never did and told her never to contact me again. I was stupid and stubborn and just ignorant. Granted, it was totally NOT ok for her to drug me without my consent. Just not cool. But I tell you this story to tell you about the one time that I was high.
Fast forward 20 years and I'm now in my late 40's. Married with kids. I just never thought I'd want to use drugs. But one day I was getting my haircut by my hairdresser. An attractive younger girl, D. D. did hit on me and gave me her phone # but I never called her. Not so say, I'm a saint and would never cheat on my wife. I had before and was at the time but this was too close to home and D. knew some of my other friends. D. was wild and would tell me about some crazy stories. Most involved sex and then sex and drugs. I got curious because she told me about feeling so amazing the previous weekend. She said it was her first time doing MDMA (Ecstasy). She was describing it and it sounded so amazing.
I got home and I started researching about MDMA. I went to all the various websites that talked about MDMA. I read several books by Shulgin and listened to audiobooks of interviews of Alexander Shulgin and his wife, Ann. I read about the FDA and PTSD patients that were trying MDMA in clinical trials. It was all fascinating.
The next time I got my haircut, I asked D. if she get me some MDMA. I didn't know how/when I'd do it but I asked her and she did get me a few pills. She did. Then I made the bold step of asking my wife (who also never did drugs before and was against them) if she would do MDMA with me. Surprisingly she said she would try it. We booked a fancy hotel and officially did drugs for the first time. Looking back I was a little foolish because although I knew and trusted my hairdresser, I didn't test the drugs. Now I'm very careful and test (Marquis + Simon's A+B) and measure out MDMA, that first time I only got the pills. It was in gelatin capsules and if I had to guess it had about 100 mg of MDMA each pill. D. told me to take it and if I liked it then take another one 90 minutes later.
So that's what we both did. About 30 minutes in we both started feeling a little dizzy and nauseous during the come up. But that only lasted about 15 minutes and then it was amazing. We took the redose 90 minutes later as instructed and it was an amazing first experience with drugs. I felt like a total idiot for not starting sooner! And I remember thinking how stupid I was to have not listened to B. 20 years earlier.
Since then, I tried marijuana and really love the sensation. I remember having sex with my wife the first time super high on marijuana and it was the most amazing feeling. I literally went back in a time machine and it reminded me of the sensation of when B. drugged me so many years before. I so regretted not trying drugs sooner but feel like now that I'm older and more responsible this is probably the best time to do drugs.
I did have an "oh shit" drug episode last year a few months after this experience I wrote about above. I ordered and tried LSD. I know, I know some would say that was a big step. Luckily I read quite a bit and read it's a good idea to do it with a sitter first. I just took too much for my first time. I took about 250 ug which ended up being way too much for me. I had an ego death and I literally thought I was dying. I was panicking. I read that 250 ug. was too little to cause any major problems but that didn't change the fact that I thought I was going to die. My marble floor in my bathroom I thought was moving. The most shocking thing was that I admitted to my wife that I was cheating on her. And when she asked me about it, I couldn't lie. It was like the LSD was a truth serum. I remember trying to lie but couldn't. My wife was saying she wanted a divorce but I just asked her to help me get through the night.
That LSD scared me! But ultimately it saved me because I was selfish and seeing other girls when I was traveling out of town for work. That night totally changed me and my philosophy. I have an amazing, gorgeous wife and it took that episode to really give me an ego death. I promised my wife that I wouldn't cheat again and she agreed to forgive me. It's not always easy but I would have never admitted something like this. And I don't think I could have stopped cheating had it not been for that episode with the LSD.
I told myself I would never try LSD again but have to confess I've tried microdosing it. So far, the highest is only 35 ug which does give a good feeling. I do MDMA about once every 5 or 6 weeks and amazing every time. I am fortunate that I live in a state where marijuana is legal so it's effortless to get. I've also tried 2CB which is great but really difficult to get here in the USA. I had to order from the Netherlands but after COVID mail service is too undependable.
I'm wanting to try some other drugs. After all those years of "Just Say No" now I'm saying "Just say Yes to drugs". And my ex-girlfriend that drugged me was totally correct. Fast forward to today and many states have legal marijuana and more states are heading that way.
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