Thanks for the informative answers. IThat is an interesting insight on drug psychosis. I'm sure you are aware of the danger of using psyches when you have schitz but I must say I don't recommend that. 7.5 grams is a lot of shrooms that would almost certainly make schitz worse, I am no expert but I have read many reports of this. I think anti psychotics reduce the effect of psychedelics and that is a lot going on in your brain.
Have you ever seen how schitzophrenia is seen culturally outside of the Western world? Like in India where they are known as people with insight and connection to the spiritual? Their symptoms are even different than here, in my opinion because they are portrayed and treated in a more positive light.
Absolutely. I am most certainly aware of the danger psyches can cause, but sometimes I just feel like I need a nice mild 150mcg acid trip to kind of flush my brain out. Although I’d be aware of the risks going into it. And yeah, would not recommend 7+g’s of shrooms for anyone, let alone schizophrenics who are already prone to psychosis and may not be at the most stable they could be.
Huh, I knew antipsychotics can numb the effects of stimulants like amphetamines but I never heard that about psyches, interesting. Although you’d think antipsychotics dull the effects of a lot of drugs, as the main role of antipsychs is to block dopamine receptors. I’ve always been interested in the theory that schizophrenia and psychosis is caused by an “overflow” of dopamine, because I certainly am not feeling like I’m having a lot of dopamine flowing when I’m mid-hallucination.
You know, I can’t say I’ve really ever learned anything about how the rest of the world views it, aside from stories about how back in the past, people who were widely believed to have been possessed by demons at the time are speculated now to have actually been suffering from schizophrenia. Which makes perfect sense to me, because the “theme” of my schizophrenia (something not many people know is that schizophrenia commonly has “themes” it follows for each person who has it, i.e. believing you are a prophet/Jesus, believing the voices are angels or maybe ghosts etc) has always been that I’m being possessed by several demons. Which is actually the purpose of this whole thread, I have been recently battling with the “delusion” that I’m possessed, and I put delusion in quotes because I’m still not certain that I’m not actually just possessed rather than mentally ill. It would explain a lot of spooky things that I’ve experienced since being diagnosed, for example, having visual hallucinations of a cat walking around in my room only to find out the next morning my friends cat had died that night around the same time I saw it, the girl seeing the same “vision” I was seeing as I mentioned, and even things as far as the voices having made predictions about the future which have always ended up coming true, for example the aurora movie theater shooting. In my 10 years of whatever the hell this is, I’ve spent a lot of time 100% convinced I am indeed possessed by demons, and thus spent a lot of time researching demons and how they infest you and their abilities and such, and according to the key of Solomon, several of the “demons” that “possess” me (I know them by name but I won’t share those here) actually are infamous for their ability to be able to tell you of things from the past, present; and *future*. When I read that, after having been told prophecies which all came up true, my heart dropped into my stomach. And I know the first thing one might say is “why not tell somebody when they make these predictions before they happen, so that if they do, you have someone who can verify it” and that was my first thought too when I noticed the pattern of predictions coming true, so I started sharing every time I’d hear voices making a prediction of something that isn’t too mundane and can’t possibly be just a coincidence. And I do have several totally able minded non-psychotic people that can verify that I, through the form of my voices, predicted the future, the most recent being I told my mom after I heard voices telling me there was going to be a giant bomb that goes off somewhere the next day, one day before the explosion in Beirut. Although I don’t think it was necessarily a bomb, it’s an explosion so I’m counting it. And I have even more spooky and convincing ones, but I’d rather not share some of the worst ones out of fear of appearing to be delusional. Unfortunately a large amount of the people that would tell these predictions to were girlfriends at the time (usually the one person in my life I feel most comfortable sharing deep feelings with) and are now ex girlfriends, and I’m not in contact with most of them anymore so some of my stories that somebody else can confirm, can’t be confirmed.
Anyways, sorry, got a bit off topic, but it’s funny you mention that, because my neighborhood is mostly black and native, and the natives are very spiritual, and many of my native friends who I’ve spoken to about this all seem to conform to the belief that I am indeed correct, and that I’m not schizophrenic I’m possessed, and even that there’s no such thing as schizophrenia, but instead it’s people who are more “in touch” with the spiritual world and the other realm, sometimes moreso than with this one. I’ve tossed around the idea that, when I have heavy heavy psychosis or dissociation (I realized I didn’t mention dissociation in my list of phases, but once it gets to a 2 I become mildly dissociated, only to the point where I may not remember things correctly, and then phase 6 i become so dissociated I sometimes even go catatonic, and then the phases in between are just on the spectrum relative to the severity of that stage) that I’m actually alternating in between worlds or “astral projecting” and I sometimes believe this is the reason I even dissociate, because my literal spirit wasn’t present in my body. The whole idea behind the theories about schizophrenia actually being a very real spiritual ability to sense entities that truly are there, others just cant sense them, etc. has always been a huge topic of interest to me, because it just goes so deep, although it typically ends up being harmful in the long run because diving too deep into that rabbit hole reaffirms my “delusions” and just ends up making life harder for me.
I apologize for the long, ranting post, I actually started to have a fair bit of hallucinations while writing it and ended up getting lost and jumping all over the place on different topics.
Ever hear the diagnosis criteria of “disorganized speech”? It’s a typically very fast and jumbled up way of speaking where your mind is going faster than your mouth can go and what you want to say makes sense in your head but it just comes out all wrong. Yeah, this post was literally just written disorganized speech, thankfully I can go back and read what I wrote if I get off track, real life doesn’t have a playback button.
