Chapter II: The Abyss is Eternal !

[LadyAlkaline]

Nothing sexier than waking up next to a 65 y/o erection.

Gets me going every time my dude

 

[Captain.Heroin]

Yeah, I am really beginning to think so

Yeah. I don't mind talking about it.

I've been struggling with low libido ever since I got clean. I always assumed it was my brain chemistry or adjusting to life without chemsex. But 5 1/2 years later, this should not still be an issue

I'm totally disinterested in guys, but I find myself really being attracted to women and having romantic feelings towards them where before it was more of just a fun sex thing. I still look at guys and see that they're attractive in one way or another, but do I want to actually bang them? Nah

Have you been with a woman before?

 

[iLoveYouWithaKnife]

Yes. Oh wait. You aren’t talking to me.

 

[Juniper Bruhmomentius]

It’s tardetly according to @schizopath

 

[Juniper Bruhmomentius]

Fuck it, Ive become too good at iv. So hard to stop now. It was a mistake to try to speed intravenously.

 

[Joey]

Fuck it, Ive become too good at iv. So hard to stop now. It was a mistake to try to speed intravenously.

I remember when I first realized I was getting too good at that in the heroin days. Couldnt hit myself worth a damn at first, now I know my good spots and have a working methodology at it. I am trying to avoid IV use right now because it's embarassing to have as much tracks as I do, let alone more, at work. Can't longsleeve it all the time. Plus its sketchy as fuck.

I'm gonna IV some K now, the bump I just did earlier isnt Kutting it.

 

[Joey]

I am fuckin fried on meth and ket we met and cut my life. My laptops spinning otherworldly around me 3rd person I see in and inside it sees me.

I leaving that line as it is because I spent time on that and it was my best you see.

this isnt approprite I cant think on this mix at all. I'm being persecuted by myself. GOnna smoke a cig and weed and callllm down no more fuckin drugs holy fuck that k

written over a space of time

 

[Joey]

bad trip or anti-trip since disassciative whatever gonna lay down

 

[Juniper Bruhmomentius]

Ket made me trip hard. Im not sure but it sounded like some personalities were talking to me or some shit. Dont wanna do it again.

 

[Joey]

I didn't lay down just typed through it posting here. I'm much, much better now. Actually feel oddly finished with all this fuckin dope for the most part like I want to wean down quicktime and switch back to my meds, taken as prescribed (vyvanse 70mg should be my baseline not typing dysphoric methamketamine posts haha). This might be a positive.

 

[Joey]

Ket made me trip hard. Im not sure but it sounded like some personalities were talking to me or some shit. Dont wanna do it again.

The voices got really loud and my head spun out of control. Not usual for K, it's definitely the meth fucking it up. It was a shit experience.

 

[Jabberwocky]

That's good wizard.

I wish i had your adderall, even though its not what gave you the vigor.

I woke up considering going inpatient but i dont want to leave my cat.

 

[Jabberwocky]

Either way, at least we've got vigor in TL.

 

[Xorkoth]

Fuck it, Ive become too good at iv. So hard to stop now. It was a mistake to try to speed intravenously.

Sorry man, I wish I could say it was a surprise, but this is pretty much exactly what I saw happening.

That's good wizard.

I wish i had your adderall, even though its not what gave you the vigor.

I woke up considering going inpatient but i dont want to leave my cat.

Fucking drugs, man...

 

[Jabberwocky]

Yeah?

 

[Xorkoth]

Indeed

I just discovered a way to get 250mg of DOB powder. I jumped on it. I am a psychedelic drug hoarder. But at least DOB is well worth hoarding.

 

[Jabberwocky]

Oh i see.

Anyway I've never admitted because of drugs. Drugs i can handle.

Never been on dual diagnosis unit in my 8 visits.

Haven't been to a hospital in 4 years.

 

[DopeM]

Come on man. If you’re gonna IV drugs, do it right.

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Sounds like he's having trouble getting off of drugs not 9ff on drugs. He seems to have that latter part down pat.

 

[BK38]

Oh i see.

Anyway I've never admitted because of drugs. Drugs i can handle.

Never been on dual diagnosis unit in my 8 visits.

Haven't been to a hospital in 4 years.

What do you want to go in-patient for? Rehab? Psych?

 

[Jabberwocky]

Psych.

Having lots of bad thoughts.

I probably won't go because ive been before i know the routine and i dont want to worry anyone IRL.

My mood is very mecurial though ill wait it out.