☮ Social ☮ PD Social Distancing Tripping Thread: Viruses Can't Penetrate Hyperspace

[Jabberwocky]

Debating whenever to take another 150 ug to help peel back more layers of my mind and reprogram myself more still a few things i need to address need to really address some mental barriers to eating a balanced diet for most my life i had avoidant food intake eating disorder been working on it for a few years and slowly things got better once i knew it was accepted it was a true disorder but still barely any doctors or people i have seen have much knowledge on it let alone fix it. MDMA and cannabis was good for trying new food. LSD helped in some ways but the issue was deeply embedded in my mind. Once i knew i could change and it could be cured is where things picked up and my diet expanded alot to be able to stomach more types of food but it did fuck my nutrition up for a long time.

Also want to try fix my neural pathways stimulants destroyed my focus and concentration but i believe all things can be fixed and program the mind like a computer using LSD. So many layers always to peel back as you dive within. John c lilly bio programming book was a good read. I yearn for the day once psychedelics become main stream psychotherapy so many people have missed out due to this drug war on life saving treatment a professional psychedelic psychotherapist could provide.

Wasted so many trips just to have a good time i should of used it as a tool in the early days of my life but i didn't have much widespread knowledge about acid then and was trying to figure out what this molecule was took a long time til it clicked and even then i just abused it. If only it was never suppressed people would be able to avoid my same mistakes with psychedelics and get the most out of them in fewer trips.

Alcohol is still one of my struggles aswell but i moved past the stage of black out drinking by myself a few years ago but now its just black out every day drinking if its a bender with friends for a few days. Still remember how i screwed up one night by passing out under this tree back in college days drunk nearly half a bottle of 151 before the night got to bad one of the hottest girls i ever met in my life i was charming her and we going to do some drugs and go back to mine but i got to wasted at this party was pretty much black out coma for hours when i came to i spent hours spewing and that girl was long gone to never talk to me again. If only i had paced myself and did the drugs instead would of been a very good time.

That's the funniest thing I read all night. Story of my life in Ordinary Time. RFLMAO.

I meant the story about girl, Jesus Christ victory is at hand, or is it? I'm crying here somebody help.

 

[Deleted member 521610]

Moral of the story drugs are fucking better than alcohol we going to do my speed and cannabis and i was suppose to try find some coke aswell which would of cost me alot to fuck this super hot girl in the end but alas been 18 and drinking 75% rum is not a good combo could of been one of the best memories.

 

[Jabberwocky]

When you swing and miss you REALLY swing and miss.

HOLY COW!

 

[Jabberwocky]

I'm blind as bat too......

And I struck out at t-ball when I was first grade too...so humiliating.....

True story.

I mean I don't mind striking out and all but why did have to be at t-ball. Of all things t-ball? Why couldn't God just let me hit ball? It haunts me to this day.

Postscript:

I can go back to that very day and sometimes and pray to God for answers, and I think I hear God, but it's so indistinct and muffled but is sounds like.....

Strzthrsks yerooouoz or something, I can keep turning it over on my tongue, but so far nothing.

On the bright side the rehab doctor called today to ask me about my drinking and ask me "Do you even know what name of this department is?" And I'm like "What? Your the doctor and I thought you worked there." His last question to me (and this guy asked a lot of fucking questions) was "Okay so what's a stupid question?" I swear to God this just happened to me.

 

[Deleted member 521610]

dosed 150 ug initially now at 40 mins took another half to smooth out come up. Redosing sure is its own experiment to work with so far the few times have been wonderful.

 

[Xorkoth]

Take care Charlie, those posts have the look of a total lack of remembrance. Love you man. ♥

Last day of detox. I'm going home this evening. Just packing up now, we're gonna show up at a whitewater rafting place and hope they can get us some kayaks for the day, they haven't been answering their phones for 2 days, but the place is really close. Yesterday's mushroom trip was interesting, the come-up was euphoric, then the peak was kinda grim for me, not grim exactly, but very inward-facing, a tempest of sensations and thoughts, some unpleasant and difficult. The weather blew in and stormed on us, we swam through it (no thunder/lightning, just rain), it was a struggle to stay warm. Overall, for me it was a message that hey, you don't need to trip to figure this stuff out, you already had a great cap on this experience. We got home eventually and played music, I recorded it, too. It was an awesome session, but the Internet is far too shitty to upload. I intend on uploading it tonight or tomorrow and sharing it here, been wanting to since we did it. End-of-detox trippy loop pedal jam, with bass, too.

It's been a trip. I haven't felt this solid without drugs in some years. I'm really ready to be home, it'll be so great to snuggle up with my girlfriend at night in our own bed, and snuggle my cats, and get back to work on my house.

 

[AutoTripper]

Take care Charlie, those posts have the look of a total lack of remembrance. Love you man. ♥

Last day of detox. I'm going home this evening. Just packing up now, we're gonna show up at a whitewater rafting place and hope they can get us some kayaks for the day, they haven't been answering their phones for 2 days, but the place is really close. Yesterday's mushroom trip was interesting, the come-up was euphoric, then the peak was kinda grim for me, not grim exactly, but very inward-facing, a tempest of sensations and thoughts, some unpleasant and difficult. The weather blew in and stormed on us, we swam through it (no thunder/lightning, just rain), it was a struggle to stay warm. Overall, for me it was a message that hey, you don't need to trip to figure this stuff out, you already had a great cap on this experience. We got home eventually and played music, I recorded it, too. It was an awesome session, but the Internet is far too shitty to upload. I intend on uploading it tonight or tomorrow and sharing it here, been wanting to since we did it. End-of-detox trippy loop pedal jam, with bass, too.

It's been a trip. I haven't felt this solid without drugs in some years. I'm really ready to be home, it'll be so great to snuggle up with my girlfriend at night in our own bed, and snuggle my cats, and get back to work on my house.

Just out of curiosity, have you ever overcome a fairly heavy benzo addiction?

I got myself into a ditch since Oct 2019, im on 10-12 mg Etizolam daily currently for managing severe anxiety disorder and depression.

I can't take any allopathic benzos, they all got lactose, sugars, additives that would be equal torture to withdrawal for my allergies, so seeking doctor help to taper off would seem a non option.

I am pretty concerned about what I may have to go through to reduce and ideally discontinue.

Just not in that position in life right now, but changing circumstances, different living location, and support services may lie ahead.

Real good though mate to hear you so posiitive and upbeat, well done on your hard work and commitment. Have a real nice evening with your lady.

 

[AutoTripper]

dosed 150 ug initially now at 40 mins took another half to smooth out come up. Redosing sure is its own experiment to work with so far the few times have been wonderful.

Again, redosing can work magic for me. On Friday, I didn't really need my 2nd 200ug dose, or redose 5 hours later.

After peak levelling, it can appear we are close to ground on a trip, when in fact it is the smooth sailing, comfortable bit I enjoy it all for in the first place.

The redose was quite intense on top, and even more so the next evening afyer some sleep, to have redosed, I was way more off my head than I would have been from just 200ug.

So even if redosing doesn't appear to do much noticeably at times, you will still get the effects in a more subtle, delayed and prolonged back door way later on.

As in- it catches up.

 

[Jabberwocky]

Feeling really traumatized by my rehab doctor (he has 20 years experience you know) asking mano a' mano "What's a stupid question?" For the life of me I truly have no answer for that. May need to dose again before years end. Fellas, I've literally never anything like this. Hoping for recovery here (was actually going to ask rehab doctor "So Doctor, in your professional opinion what is recovery?") but I had already hung up the phone by that time. I'll try to remember to ask him the next time he calls. Until then over and out.

I mean why would the doctor ask me his name and title when we both already know that? Why ask stupid questions unless he's clearly communicating to me he really really truly and clearly couldn't give a shit? I knew rehab was tricky but not this deviliciosly tricky.

 

[Deleted member 521610]

Again, redosing can work magic for me. On Friday, I didn't really need my 2nd 200ug dose, or redose 5 hours later.

After peak levelling, it can appear we are close to ground on a trip, when in fact it is the smooth sailing, comfortable bit I enjoy it all for in the first place.

The redose was quite intense on top, and even more so the next evening afyer some sleep, to have redosed, I was way more off my head than I would have been from just 200ug.

So even if redosing doesn't appear to do much noticeably at times, you will still get the effects in a more subtle, delayed and prolonged back door way later on.

As in- it catches up.

I should really cut up my tabs for redosing before the trip not while im already under LSD. Took a bit more than i expected total launch into hyperspace unplanned. Still tripping heavy balls. Redosing is actually a wonderful experince it removes that horrible come up part of a heavy dose and floats you into a magical peak rapidly after the initial dose. I can see now why leary would sometimes give people 200 ug to start with and if they were having a good time another 200 ug a few hours in.

 

[AutoTripper]

I should really cut up my tabs for redosing before the trip not while im already under LSD. Took a bit more than i expected total launch into hyperspace unplanned. Still tripping heavy balls. Redosing is actually a wonderful experince it removes that horrible come up part of a heavy dose and floats you into a magical peak rapidly after the initial dose. I can see now why leary would sometimes give people 200 ug to start with and if they were having a good time another 200 ug a few hours in.

I get you exactly. I sort of wanted to trip in some way today, but was in dark frame of mind, high anxiety, very weak generally.

I considered a 50ug dose, but even that can feel intense and disrupting for several hours, and physically strong, like sedating, lethargic for several hours.

50ug is a brilliant experience at the right time.

So I decided no!

Then I was out in the garden early evening, after some kava, and I suddenly thought "damn, I wonder if I am in the mood for necking 3 or 4 tabs?"

But then it came to me, my equally favorite dose to 50ug- 25ug!

It brings a liveky, magical edge to everything but I can always cope with it without ever feeling too uncomfortable on the come up.

I may try some larger trios with multiple, spontaneaus smaller doses, gradually building the trip. Like 20-30 ug a time, no specific dosing plan or objective setting out

I know it goes against the LSD usage Bible haha, but I really see this working for
(me).

So I estimated a 1/4 tab, about 30ug in the end. Already wasted on kava, cannabis edible, etiz....

 

[Jabberwocky]

I should really cut up my tabs for redosing before the trip not while im already under LSD. Took a bit more than i expected total launch into hyperspace unplanned. Still tripping heavy balls. Redosing is actually a wonderful experince it removes that horrible come up part of a heavy dose and floats you into a magical peak rapidly after the initial dose. I can see now why leary would sometimes give people 200 ug to start with and if they were having a good time another 200 ug a few hours in.

Yeah forgetting to precut my doses frustrates me to no end. Its like I beat myself up over one stupid mistake so I might as well eat the whole thing.

 

[Deleted member 521610]

Time travel is fucking real i must of eaten more closer to 400 ug. I saw this entire day and the most impossible coincidences in my lifes chapter play out on this day all a long time ago. LSD never fails to blow my mind.

 

[Deleted member 521610]

Anybody listen to phutureprimitive around here?

 

[Pfafffed]

Spoiler

I had a 23-hour masturbation marathon on speed yesterday. How degenerate I am? I think it's the ultimate hedonism activity to do for like once or twice a year :D I think I had like 2000 tabs of porn open at the end. At one point it said that my RAM was not enough even tho I got 16gb LOL.
Money better spent than seeing an escort for 30min. Don' quote me :D

 

[Jabberwocky]

No just listening to my marriage walk out the door, no funeral needed

I'm praying Jumangi

 

[Jabberwocky]

 

[Deleted member 521610]

had a dream last night was just laying in my own bed but tripping hard it felt so real that i acutally thought i was still feeling the lsd from the other day then i woke up which was relief cause it was intense and the visuals were spot on with acid.

 

[Xorkoth]

Just out of curiosity, have you ever overcome a fairly heavy benzo addiction?

I got myself into a ditch since Oct 2019, im on 10-12 mg Etizolam daily currently for managing severe anxiety disorder and depression.

I can't take any allopathic benzos, they all got lactose, sugars, additives that would be equal torture to withdrawal for my allergies, so seeking doctor help to taper off would seem a non option.

I am pretty concerned about what I may have to go through to reduce and ideally discontinue.

Just not in that position in life right now, but changing circumstances, different living location, and support services may lie ahead.

Real good though mate to hear you so posiitive and upbeat, well done on your hard work and commitment. Have a real nice evening with your lady.

No, I have ever been dependent on be nzos, I have just used them 7+ days in a row sometimes for sleep during drug binges or other drug withdrawal. I have always managed to escape addiction because I don't find them recreational, and I'd rather take some days of no sleep sometimes than face benzo addiction.

Thanks. I'm struggling right now since my cat died yesterday. Trying to just feel the pain and accept it, instead of hide from it.

 

[AutoTripper]

No, I have ever been dependent on be nzos, I have just used them 7+ days in a row sometimes for sleep during drug binges or other drug withdrawal. I have always managed to escape addiction because I don't find them recreational, and I'd rather take some days of no sleep sometimes than face benzo addiction.

Thanks. I'm struggling right now since my cat died yesterday. Trying to just feel the pain and accept it, instead of hide from it.

Thank you for replying and very sorry you lost your cat.

I really feel like, in life, my best friends, besides my fantastic mum, have been my beautiful dogs over time.

Like, most people have really let me down so much.

NEVER my animals.

We actually have a pet here in the house now for the first time in 2 years since our really special dogs died eventually and it just hasn't been the right time.

So we have a beautiful 6-year old ex racing greyhound called Val! She's really lovely anyway and my mum's very pleased which was all that mattered essentially.

Anyway I can definitely empathize with the pain you feel at losing such a close friend. Time will heal is always so true not that you can escape pain, pain in many cases is the the basic sensation of Healing in my experience physical or psychological most of the time anyway.

But....I am tripping atm, so I could well be talking nonsense....

Regardless, sorry for your loss mate. So much though to look forward to in life, by the sounds of it.