Chapter II: The Abyss is Eternal !

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BK38 said:
Everytime I crash off the phenibut and booze, I get all these feelz of inadequacy and sadness. I need to make some solid progress tmrw, I need to get rid of the sad feelz. I just took 2mg of lormetazepam so gonna insta-pass out soon. Later BL.
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just reading "Lormetazepam" made me jelly

you're not inadequate bb you're loving, you're cute, you have a nice dick and a cute face and a hot body. Just gotta shake your money maker when it counts IIRC

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Captain.Heroin said:
just reading "Lormetazepam" made me jelly

you're not inadequate bb you're loving, you're cute, you have a nice dick and a cute face and a hot body. Just gotta shake your money maker when it counts IIRC

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Tx Cap. I just want off the sad feelz train. I want to get on the good feelz train again. The one where I wake up excited for my day and the future.

 
BK38 said:
Tx Cap. I just want off the sad feelz train. I want to get on the good feelz train again. The one where I wake up excited for my day and the future.

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I don't know why you feel bad coming off the downers because I feel *so good* after a hypnotic benzo that the next day feels even better than being on the drug, then I kinda just go back to normal.

people like me NEED benzos and the doctors who are like "OH THEM DRUGS R BAD MKAY" are SO STUPID and it makes me MAD.

I'm so fucking pissed I NEED MY PILLS and have like 6 left... and they're SO GOOD. Oh god it's such a good feeling.

I'll probably space them out pretty far.

OH AND I HAVE SHATTER AGAIN FIRST TIME IN DAYS OMG IT'S GOING TO BE LIKE SO GOOD

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Captain.Heroin said:
I don't know why you feel bad coming off the downers because I feel *so good* after a hypnotic benzo that the next day feels even better than being on the drug, then I kinda just go back to normal.

people like me NEED benzos and the doctors who are like "OH THEM DRUGS R BAD MKAY" are SO STUPID and it makes me MAD.

I'm so fucking pissed I NEED MY PILLS and have like 6 left... and they're SO GOOD. Oh god it's such a good feeling.

I'll probably space them out pretty far.

OH AND I HAVE SHATTER AGAIN FIRST TIME IN DAYS OMG IT'S GOING TO BE LIKE SO GOOD

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I don't feel bad. I just come down off the Phenibut and the booze and I'm like oh yeah, reality blows. I wish I had some pot. I'd moderate my use of Phenibut a lot more and prob stop drinking almost entirely. I'm not drinking that much, 1-2 a week, but I tend to go hard. Today was just a bottle of wine but last weekend I had 17 beers in a day (light beer though, like 4.2 %). Meh. The cure for the pain is in the pain as Rumi said. I need to work hard and then I'll be motivated instead of just praying for motivation and getting nowhere really. I NEED DISCIPLINE. I do manage a half-assed workout daily and I made an electronica mix today, but that's just masturbatory stuff, I was meant to be working on a web design for my writing biz. Meh. MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEH. Anyhow, new day tmrw. Also, noice titays there.
 
Also, don't be jelly, Lormetazepam is a boring af hypnotic benzo, basically no recreational value besides the knockout power.
 
BK38 said:
I don't feel bad. I just come down off the Phenibut and the booze and I'm like oh yeah, reality blows. I wish I had some pot. I'd moderate my use of Phenibut a lot more and prob stop drinking almost entirely. I'm not drinking that much, 1-2 a week, but I tend to go hard. Today was just a bottle of wine but last weekend I had 17 beers in a day (light beer though, like 4.2 %). Meh. The cure for the pain is in the pain as Rumi said. I need to work hard and then I'll be motivated instead of just praying for motivation and getting nowhere really. I NEED DISCIPLINE. I do manage a half-assed workout daily and I made an electronica mix today, but that's just masturbatory stuff, I was meant to be working on a web design for my writing biz. Meh. MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEH. Anyhow, new day tmrw. Also, noice titays there.
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oh, yeah, booze and phenibut probably are shit drugs imo I would throw that trash away

stick to benzos

I like alcohol at times but it is very much so shit compared to benzos
 
Captain.Heroin said:
that is like 99% of why I love them... I GET REAL SLEEP and I wake up feeling like a billion dollars

instead of shit

*fantasizes about the hypnotic benzos*
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Hehe, yeah, they are good for that. I ran out of Zopiclone and then found this random stash of the Lormetazepams that I randomly squirreled away a year ago. I found them in an old suitcase and was like, score! Too bad they weren't fun benzos like Valium or Xanax or Ativan... Alcohol is trash af, but Phenibut's actually kind of a useful substance to have in the arsenal. Some magical deity of the drugs needs to send me 200 Oxy 5mgs, 200 Adderall IR 20mgs, 4 zips of quality weed, 100g hash, 2 zips Opium, a sheet of acid, a zip of shrooms, 30 240mg mdma pills, 200 10mg Valiums and a zip ok coke and a zip of ket just to have. I can't wait to be gainfully employed again and in a big city so I can start a proper stash again. *crys in small town france*
 
BK38 said:
Hehe, yeah, they are good for that. I ran out of Zopiclone and then found this random stash of the Lormetazepams that I randomly squirreled away a year ago. I found them in an old suitcase and was like, score! Too bad they weren't fun benzos like Valium or Xanax or Ativan... Alcohol is trash af, but Phenibut's actually kind of a useful substance to have in the arsenal. Some magical deity of the drugs needs to send me 200 Oxy 5mgs, 200 Adderall IR 20mgs, 4 zips of quality weed, 100g hash, 2 zips Opium, a sheet of acid, a zip of shrooms, 30 240mg mdma pills, 200 10mg Valiums and a zip ok coke and a zip of ket just to have. I can't wait to be gainfully employed again and in a big city so I can start a proper stash again. *crys in small town france*
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oh I totally get nothing out of diazepam, lorazepam type drugs. lormetazepam seems so heavenly - intermediate acting hypnotic benzos are like the best class of drugs I've ever discovered. Other than psychedelics and what not.

you so need to make it out to my neck of the woods because most of that is floating in the air *omp omp omp*

except for THE BENZOS. Why don't I know degenerate junkie scum who can find benzos? I don't know ... I guess I outgrew that scene... *CRIES INTENSELY*
 
Captain.Heroin said:
oh I totally get nothing out of diazepam, lorazepam type drugs. lormetazepam seems so heavenly - intermediate acting hypnotic benzos are like the best class of drugs I've ever discovered. Other than psychedelics and what not.

you so need to make it out to my neck of the woods because most of that is floating in the air *omp omp omp*

except for THE BENZOS. Why don't I know degenerate junkie scum who can find benzos? I don't know ... I guess I outgrew that scene... *CRIES INTENSELY*
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mmmmm, sounds good. Amsterdam was great for the MDMA, coke, pot, lsd, shrooms, ket, even pharm dex-amp etc. Opium would probably be kind of tough to find. You can find cheap high grade heroin for sure, but I don't fux with that no mo. Prescription opiates are a bitch to find. You could get Valium np though. Hypnotic benzos never seem to be around, I always got em from a doc for insomnia. Meh. Hold me Cap. Anyways, going to put on a trash movie and pass out. Until tmrw! You made me feel slightly better, so tx for that. Ni ni.
 
BK38 said:
mmmmm, sounds good. Amsterdam was great for the MDMA, coke, pot, lsd, shrooms, ket, even pharm dex-amp etc. Opium would probably be kind of tough to find. You can find cheap high grade heroin for sure, but I don't fux with that no mo. Prescription opiates are a bitch to find. You could get Valium np though. Hypnotic benzos never seem to be around, I always got em from a doc for insomnia. Meh. Hold me Cap. Anyways, going to put on a trash movie and pass out. Until tmrw! You made me feel slightly better, so tx for that. Ni ni.
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Glad to hear you're feeling better. Remember, you're awesome, and somewhere a French woman is wondering why she isn't getting any either and likely is just waiting for a gentleman like you to come around.

You'll probably end up touching the same shrink wrapped wedge of gouda at the same time, and she'll give wine pairing recommendations, and before you know it you'll be waking up the next morning with a big grin.

And she'll have metamorphosed into this...

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Captain.Heroin said:
Glad to hear you're feeling better. Remember, you're awesome, and somewhere a French woman is wondering why she isn't getting any either and likely is just waiting for a gentleman like you to come around.

You'll probably end up touching the same shrink wrapped wedge of gouda at the same time, and she'll give wine pairing recommendations, and before you know it you'll be waking up the next morning with a big grin.

And she'll have metamorphosed into this...

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Mmmm, I'll probably ask her if she wants a bit of my baguette to pair with the cheese...

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i need my blue busses
hook up moved to mass for a relationship that turned abusive quickly... shes coming back... yay!
if necessary will aid in her return for blue bars. =D
nah... will help her regardless but told her i need my bus ticket connect back. lol
she laughs at me... poor thing. at least we gettin her outta there....
 
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PtahTek said:
i need my blue busses
hook up moved to mass for a relationship that turned abusive quickly... shes coming back... yay!
if necessary will aid in her return for blue bars. =D
nah... will help her regardless but told her i need my bus ticked connect back. lol
she laughs at me... poor thing. at least we gettin her outta there....
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I'm glad she is able to get to safety
 
holymoly sleep is elusive tonight and I have to be up stupid early for a stupid reason, so anyway have got up for a minute and had a huge dab of blue dream shatter with a side order of 30mg temazepam washed down with some oatmilk, should help to remedy the awakeness, sleeeep come to meee
 
^^^it's good n getting better.....make that 2 dabs and no.2 was a monster...dammit sticking some heavy dub on and awaiting the temaze drift....
 
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