jackie jones
Bluelight Crew
Never again will I live like that.
Yeah, I was pathetic at times. My life is nowhere near perfect currently, but the needle thing is over.
Never again will I live like that.
Even in the depths of my addiction I put effort into doing things cleanly. Use new rigs and swipe my arm and spoon with alcohol. What is so difficult about that?
Rigs and prep pads are so cheap though.
I have been with people who have said stupid things like "I like my old rig" when I offer them a new needle or "I need to get it in my arm as quickly as possible" when I offer them a prep pad.
I suppose when one has accepted such a damaging habit, they are not concerned with basic health precautions.
I suppose when one has accepted such a damaging habit, they are not concerned with basic health precautions.
Same, my cephalic vein from my right arm has a Target from so many years of banging. Literally takes me 5 seconds to register.I am fortunate to still have great veins. I never had to search.
Drugs dont discriminate, they dont care of Ur white,black,tall,dat,have Money,are poor, with a wife AND kids, single,jew, Catholic,etc.... They fuck all us up inthe end.It is kind of funny. When I first began shooting, I viewed it as a medical thing. Like I was doing the kind of thing nurses and doctors do. Being smart and playing with lure lock syringes and micron filters. Buying bacteriostatic water and sharps containers. My own little lab. Exotic plants. Good wine.
And after a few years it was just something sick and depraved.
How could I have fucked up my life so bad? I was smart. I got everything I wanted, according to plan. I had such a high caliber woman, beautiful children, my own house, driving a Volvo.
Why, Jackie? Why did you throw it all away? You had everything. How could you be so weak?
It is kind of funny. When I first began shooting, I viewed it as a medical thing. Like I was doing the kind of thing nurses and doctors do. Being smart and playing with lure lock syringes and micron filters. Buying bacteriostatic water and sharps containers. My own little lab. Exotic plants. Good wine.
And after a few years it was just something sick and depraved.
How could I have fucked up my life so bad? I was smart. I got everything I wanted, according to plan. I had such a high caliber woman, beautiful children, my own house, driving a Volvo.
Why, Jackie? Why did you throw it all away? You had everything. How could you be so weak?
On a grimer musing, I understand lethal injection is administered via some old school barbituate - pentobarbital or something.
But there was an issue with lethal injections cause pentobarbitol was in short supply or something.
Is there any reason why authorities simply don't sub in fentanyl as the drug of choice for state executions/lethal injections?
I mean if it's so efficient and effective at inducing fatality in even relatively small quantities, and let's face it - cheap.
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Mentions one case of fentanyl use for lethal injection.
And yes apparently there's several reported cases of injection failures resulting in prolonged and painful gasping etc.
I watched something on the death penalty and apparently lethal injection death can take up to ten minutes
Same, my cephalic vein from my right arm has a Target from so many years of banging. Literally takes me 5 seconds to register.
In regards to what is so difficult, is when there isn't enough money to barely get by without being sick. In those situations, you're already in a constant desperate state, so taking precautions goes right out the window.Even in the depths of my addiction I put effort into doing things cleanly. Use new rigs and swipe my arm and spoon with alcohol. What is so difficult about that?
Women especially have such small veins, i cringe when i see documentaries about em and they're struggling to find a vein when their boyfriend's already registered and pushing the plunger.That's funny. I used to use permanent marker to circle where I could hit in an emergency, and I remember marking a reference position/landmark (a brown dot, for example) as well, so i would remember what direction to insert the needle as well. I was forced to hit into deep veins when my superficial veins collpased.
In regards to what is so difficult, is when there isn't enough money to barely get by without being sick. In those situations, you're already in a constant desperate state, so taking precautions goes right out the window.
A lot of addicts don't have those luxuries. But yes, if you're in a position to take those precautions, then I'm glad you took advantage and did it.
Also, keep in mind, some drugs are extremely dirty and non-sterile, like BTH. So even with good technique and sterile equipment, the drug itself will quickly destroy smaller veins due to their inability to saturate the drug quickly enough and it will start eating away the vein wall - sometimes one shot alone would be enough to partially collapse a vein.
People with bigger vessels don't suffer from that issue as severely, since the more blood available immediately, the more it mitigates that risk.
Women especially have such small veins, i cringe when i see documentaries about em and they're struggling to find a vein when their boyfriend's already registered and pushing the plunger.
Women especially have such small veins, i cringe when i see documentaries about em and they're struggling to find a vein when their boyfriend's already registered and pushing the plunger.
Nor do I know how well it works for the majority of women outside said group but from my anecdotal experience it was a surprisingly viable location that many wouldn't normally consider.
I'd agree there. I was often called upon to hit other people as I always carried good equipment. The majority of the time women were the one's I was asked to hit due to the vein issues you've mentioned. Hands seemed to be a common go to point for a lot of the women I knew for some reason.
Funny you should say that. Back of my left hand was one of my main go to sites for a long time. I couldn't really tell you why (other than that I'm right handed), just that it worked surprisingly well even though it's probably a smaller vein than the ones in my arm.