Working_Class
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Aug 12, 2019
- Messages
- 523
Man, there`s been some busy minds here the last while. It`s cool to see other people experiencing similar things while being on a completely separate journey.
I`ve had a doc suggest I try taking Cipralex for my anxiety, and while I`m sort of on the fence about it, I`ve had so many friends die from overdoses lately, and I hate my current medication enough that I`m pretty much willing to give up my ``rotating`` functional daily drugs I use to just feel motivated and normal ish, and just at least try this SSRI at a very low dose and attempt sobriety and see where it gets me. I`ve been sober except a nightly 2 mg dose of etizolam which I`ve been having a hell of a hard time shaking lately because of situational anxiety (episodic, not permanent situation).
I just got work for 12 months lined up, I`m going to visit my dad for a month as of next month, but the whole of June is going to be taxes and studying for Physiology and Anatomy exams while in another city. So it won`t be a vacation, but man do I need to get a grip on just trying to be at least free of recreational substances for 30 days. What a wrastle of a time, I never pictured it being such a difficult task, but when stress is around, man I just can`t seem to give myself a break. I hate to say it, but I`m fucking hooked like a worm on a fishing line and I want to regain some control of my own thoughts and emotions.
I - LOVE - psychedelics, but I need to get my fuckin life together so I can really enjoy another trip. This is gonna be a bit of a hike into unknown territory... Sobriety, for the short term at least, or maybe for the long term. I`m not sure. I feel torn about it all. But there`s the fact that I can`t moderate my use, and that`s become a thing. Not as though I can`t pick with and stay at a given dose, but that I can`t just put it ALL down for a month and see how I feel.
Cest la vie hey haha. Preachin to the choir here
I`ve had a doc suggest I try taking Cipralex for my anxiety, and while I`m sort of on the fence about it, I`ve had so many friends die from overdoses lately, and I hate my current medication enough that I`m pretty much willing to give up my ``rotating`` functional daily drugs I use to just feel motivated and normal ish, and just at least try this SSRI at a very low dose and attempt sobriety and see where it gets me. I`ve been sober except a nightly 2 mg dose of etizolam which I`ve been having a hell of a hard time shaking lately because of situational anxiety (episodic, not permanent situation).
I just got work for 12 months lined up, I`m going to visit my dad for a month as of next month, but the whole of June is going to be taxes and studying for Physiology and Anatomy exams while in another city. So it won`t be a vacation, but man do I need to get a grip on just trying to be at least free of recreational substances for 30 days. What a wrastle of a time, I never pictured it being such a difficult task, but when stress is around, man I just can`t seem to give myself a break. I hate to say it, but I`m fucking hooked like a worm on a fishing line and I want to regain some control of my own thoughts and emotions.
I - LOVE - psychedelics, but I need to get my fuckin life together so I can really enjoy another trip. This is gonna be a bit of a hike into unknown territory... Sobriety, for the short term at least, or maybe for the long term. I`m not sure. I feel torn about it all. But there`s the fact that I can`t moderate my use, and that`s become a thing. Not as though I can`t pick with and stay at a given dose, but that I can`t just put it ALL down for a month and see how I feel.
Cest la vie hey haha. Preachin to the choir here