Deep Fighting The Anguish

[Jabberwocky]

FIGHTING THE ANGUISH

Paradoxical discomfort
Unable to discern my own feelings
Anxiety
Lethargy
Mania
Depression
Anhedonia combined with the need for activity
A constant urge to self-medicate
with no known panacea to kill my pain
Desparately searching for healthy endeavors
Writing
Painting
Cooking
Praying
Afraid of distractions prolonging the agony
Forcing myself to confront that which haunts me
Facing the fears that I wish to avoid.

Dreamflyer
5-22-2020

 

[Howsway]

Keep going! I wanted to relapse so bad today it I got through it! Keep your head up we’ve all been there

 

[clovey2014]

FIGHTING THE ANGUISH

Paradoxical discomfort
Unable to discern my own feelings
Anxiety
Lethargy
Mania
Depression
Anhedonia combined with the need for activity
A constant urge to self-medicate
with no known panacea to kill my pain
Desparately searching for healthy endeavors
Writing
Painting
Cooking
Praying
Afraid of distractions prolonging the agony
Forcing myself to confront that which haunts me
Facing the fears that I wish to avoid.

Dreamflyer
5-22-2020

thank you for sharing. I hope you can stay strong, it does get better. good luck!!

 

[Jabberwocky]

Thanks so much for the kind words!

I have a lot of good days but last week was a particularly rough one. I'm stressed about so many things (COVID-19, looking for work, my mom's health concerns, etc.) that it's been really hard for me to enjoy the things that usually make me happy. I'm still doing pretty well though.

Peace, Love and Faith,
Dreamflyer