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Day 1 of Hell

don't beat yourself up about shouting at your mum. she will understand. this is dfficult for both of you.

you're doing really well, the shits are awful, especially once your ass is raw and you can't even fart safely. god opiates are horrible drugs.
 
Excuse me sir but I am a lady and you have offended my delicate sensibilities... haha. Just kidding. When you're right, you're right. I'm trying to laugh as much as I can. It helps my state of mind. Day 4 now. Still sleeping pretty good and eating pretty good. Managed to get a little weed yesterday. Weed is my salvation so far. When I'm stoned, I cant even tell I'm withdrawing other than the whole hot/cold thing and being really lethargic... and of course the shits.
 
JessTD said:
Still can't bring myself to eat and I'm shitting my brains out. Just took some bentil for my stomach. I keep forgetting I have Kratom. My brain is constantly switching channels. I can't focus. My mom snapped and yelled at me for a solid 20 mins. Irritable, I yelled back. I feel bad now because I know she's going to be the one to help me through this. I should definitely take that Kratom now.
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get some LOPERAMIDE take 20-30mg that's gonna stop the shits and make the aches & pains bearable for a day or so.
 
JessTD said:
Excuse me sir but I am a lady and you have offended my delicate sensibilities... haha. Just kidding. When you're right, you're right. I'm trying to laugh as much as I can. It helps my state of mind. Day 4 now. Still sleeping pretty good and eating pretty good. Managed to get a little weed yesterday. Weed is my salvation so far. When I'm stoned, I cant even tell I'm withdrawing other than the whole hot/cold thing and being really lethargic... and of course the shits.
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I remember the first time I was going through my first REAL cold turkey from a MASSIVE IV morphine habit, On day 3 or 4 I started shitting and projectile puking at the same time uncontrollably. I had only taken Diazepam for the first 3 days and it was rough as hell, finally I caved in and took some loperamide. After 40 mins my belly stopped hurting, I stopped shaking, Stopped the shits and I was able to eat at night.
 
too much loperamide puts pressure on the heart so i'd avoid it unless you are about to crack.

and lol jess i am also a lady and even writing that disturbed my own delicate sensibilities! i'm glad you're finding things to laugh about, that ability to try and find any sense of joy, no matter how small or fleeting, will help you massively.
 
JessTD said:
I would I'm just scared to leave the house and barely have the energy to do so.
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I'm dead serious, LOPERAMIDE is the best withdrawal aid, along with gabapentin. If you can get at least Loperamide is gonna cut the withdrawal Intensity by half. You're unnecesarily suffering atm.
 
chinup said:
too much loperamide puts pressure on the heart so i'd avoid it unless you are about to crack.

and lol jess i am also a lady and even writing that disturbed my own delicate sensibilities! i'm glad you're finding things to laugh about, that ability to try and find any sense of joy, no matter how small or fleeting, will help you massively.
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20mg loperamide is not that big of a dose to cause those kinda problems. I've probably taken that dose at least 100 times in my life and my heart is fine, never had any problems or felt any 2ndary symptoms.
 
I actually just went ahead and ordered some lope off amazon. I keep forgetting things. I just got a gift card from someone on amazon so BOOM, will have it tomorrow and dont gotta leave the house. Resourceful!
 
JessTD said:
I had a little weed so I was using that to combat the lack of appetite and insomnia and I've actually so far been able to eat and sleep ok but I'm hella irritable. And I feel bad because I dont wanna be mean to anyone but I just wanna be left alone. It's not as bad as I thought it would be so far. We have multivitamins so I have been trying to take one every day. My stomach feels like death today though.
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Try to take the multivitamins with something to eat. Preferably after food because they are harsh on your stomach. I will straight up puke if I haven’t eaten and take a multivitamin. You seem to be doing good so far! I’m really pleased for you and it’s totally understandable that you’re irritable. It’ll pass like everything else. Just eat as best as you can and push through. You’re getting there! ❤️
 
I think I can make it to tomorrow. Hell, I think i may actually be able to do this! My mom and i apologized for yelling at each other yesterday. I still feel bad. Shes my greatest ally. Now that I've got some Kratom in me, my stomach feels a little better but oh my god the aches today you guys! I have a pounding headache and my neck and back are killing me.
 
PrincessDiz said:
Try to take the multivitamins with something to eat. Preferably after food because they are harsh on your stomach. I will straight up puke if I haven’t eaten and take a multivitamin. You seem to be doing good so far! I’m really pleased for you and it’s totally understandable that you’re irritable. It’ll pass like everything else. Just eat as best as you can and push through. You’re getting there! ❤
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Shit! I took one on an empty stomach right before you posted this! 😔

Hopefully I'll be ok
 
You’ll be fine, probably feel nauseous just. That’s just the fillers in them and shit. Honestly even if you can take a wee yoghurt or something now it’ll help.
 
JessTD said:
I think I can make it to tomorrow. Hell, I think i may actually be able to do this! My mom and i apologized for yelling at each other yesterday. I still feel bad. Shes my greatest ally. Now that I've got some Kratom in me, my stomach feels a little better but oh my god the aches today you guys! I have a pounding headache and my neck and back are killing me.
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When u feel uncomfortable stretch your arms and legs, try taking hot showers aswell. Those things help for a bit atleast to take ur mind of for a while from the pain, i Know withdrawal is hard. I'm on day 3 atm but i've reduced my tolerance to a point it's bearable and I'm only taking gabapentin to aid me. So far I'm good, after u pass the 1 week mark it's all in your mind.
 
oh yeah stretching for sure.

i'm really glad you and your mum have apologised to each other, must clear the air. try and avoid any heavy conversations right now, at least until you're feeling physically better, cos guilt can set you straight up for relapse. i know when you are with someone who is very upset about your addiction that can be difficult. i spent a week at my parents detoxing before i went to rehab, so as not to waste a week of very expensive treatment just rattling, totally failed at doing my rattle and had huge rows with my mum. it took her ages to not be furious at me, like 6 months in she still couldn't stand being in the same room as me sometimes. i only started making progress with her when i told her about the traumatic events that had lead to me getting so messed up and she stopped blaming herself.
 
Yeah. Unfortunately, this is BY FAR not my moms first rodeo as my brother is also an addict. She is also a nurse so I think shes able to view me more as a patient right now. It allows her to disconnect from her anger. But yes, it took me a long time to convince my mother that it wasnt her fault. Every relapse I have to convince her again and it breaks my heart 😔
 
JessTD said:
Yeah. Unfortunately, this is BY FAR not my moms first rodeo as my brother is also an addict. She is also a nurse so I think shes able to view me more as a patient right now. It allows her to disconnect from her anger. But yes, it took me a long time to convince my mother that it wasnt her fault. Every relapse I have to convince her again and it breaks my heart 😔
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Everytime we indulge in opiates, we tend to hurt our loved ones very deeply.This has happened to me in the past countless of times, it shall pass eventually. Right now focus on yourself, the things you want to change in your life, how you can maintain your sobriety, etc. Ofc, take it easy. You can do that in a few days, right now just lay in bed and try to relax.
 
I wish I could but my moms kinda nocturnal and cant help me with the kids until at least early afternoon so I gotta take care of them still, for a little while.
 
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