Going on 48 hours awake - I've been rotating stims ('cause I'm out of tweak - no real source for more, either. You know those scenes in star wars, where darth vader is all like "come to the dark side, it is your destiny"? I'm hearing that voice, only instead of coming from darth vader, it's coming from a vision of myself holding a bulging plastic soda bottle full of off-white sludge in one hand and a meth pipe in the other. I seriously started saving the striker pads from matchbooks back in highschool (when, unable to score fireworks, I would cut the heads off books of matches, wrap them in tinfoil, and ignite the corner - it makes a lovely cloud of smoke and jet of flame - at least by bored pytomaniac highschool kid with no access to drugs, fireworks, or anything fun), because I knew you could use the red phosphorus from them to make meth....). Never actually wound up trying it until I was 35 though! But I digress, as one might expect.
I started of with addies and dexies on friday into saturday, for a while I was doing bumps of 4-F-MPH (mediocre drug, sadly - I had high hopes it would be like isopropyl phenidate, which was fire - but it's kinda lame). Last night I was desperate for some smokable stim, and had sunk to 3-FMC, which is a mediocre drug at best. I'd have gone to sleep that night, except I was like, wait, I have coke, I have baking soda - why don't I try making freebase? And whaddya know, freebasing coke is actually pretty fun (I don't like coke up the nose). I've gotta stay up another 3-4 hours because I've got a zoom call with a developer who I'm working with who lives overseas, and I need to try to be reasonably coherant during the call too :-( So I guess I should lay off the ketamine, and be careful not to go tooo heavy on the G (but ofc, not too light either, or I'd freak the fuck out!)... Should probably take some more addies amnd/or dexies so I don't have to excuse myself from the call to freebase more coke to avoid passing out during the call..
And I'm listening to a bunch of antidrug songs... takes me nowhere by the offspring, methamphetamine by old crow medicine show,... while freebasing coke out of a meth pipe....
It's funny how I've been mad productive, and to an outrsider, it looks like I'm on the top of my game, but by any other metric, this weekend I've been an absolute shitshow!
Okay, that;s enough of the anti-drug music - now, it's time for "I found my way to die" by Magic Circle, a truly epic song...