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It's not just this I've been fucked over a number of times in the last few months and it's left a bad taste in my mouth. I'm to trusting of a man in general trying to put faith in the good in all people and I'm consistently let down. It's one of the things that make me feel the way I do about this world and life in general. This guy calling me pathetic for struggling with my addiction was the icing on the cake and made this decision easier. Things will surely never feel the same for me here anymore. It's just been one thing happening after the other and it's time for me to walk away for awhile. I will reach out to the Admins and step down from my position. But i think posting more anonymously over on that other forum is in my best interests for awhile so as not to be judged by others, whenever it is I decide to start tripping again.
 
Cosmic Charlie said:
This guy calling me pathetic for struggling with my addiction
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That guy was talking about himself. As enlightened as he tried to sound, he's clearly taken no responsibility for his own terrible choices, and now tries to feel better about it by projecting onto everyone here.

At least you're honest about what you do and the impact that your decisions have Charlie. At least you take responsibility and are trying to get it together.


Whatever you do, all the best dude.
 
Charlie I hope you your only reason for stepping away isn't because of one guy's opinion. But also I understand that Bluelight can be a big trigger just because everyone is always talking about drugs on here... I had to step away for 3 years some years back because I needed to sort my shit out. We love you bro. ❤
 
I'm sorry for being so dramatic, I'm in opioid withdrawals and I'm so sensitive right now. I cur m try dose of Buprenorphine in half over the last 7 days after being on 16mgs for years. And bringing it further and further down and jumping over to Kratom eventually. My wife's new job isnt going to let me on her insurance until July and mine is about to end. I make to much money to get it through tr he state but I dont make enough to pay 700 dollars for a Bupe script. I dont wanna goto the Methadone clinic every morning it makes it really hard to get to work on time unless you wake up at 6am everyday which I dont wanna do. Once the summer is here I will go back on PST for awhile so I can piss dirty and get back on Bupe but right now I have to start planning ahead for when the pills will run out. I dont wanna have some big habit and have to quit that Cold Turkey it will make the transition to difficult. I'm drenched in sweat right now sitting still. Tommrow I might have to take 12mgs if it's still like this to get tr thru work.
 
I would rather be trusting and get screwed over than paranoid and being too cautious. It is endearing to trust people. I have been told I am naive. But I would rather keep trusting than pull my heart in because of a few idiots that walk the Earth.

Very happy to hear you are taking the bull by the horns Charlie. I am like Buzz, I have been worried too. I don't want to see any legal or health problems from neglect happen. And we all know that road very well where we need to get back on track. We are all human and all go through it. Thank you thank you for the update.
 
Appreciate all of your guys support and always I feel much better today. Have about 600mgs of that L-Theanine and 1,000mgs of FAA Phenibut in me and I feel so mellow and less worried about everything. Just recieved a gift from a friend of 40mgs DOC that I made a solution out of. Feel good knowing that I have something for when I get back to my exploring. Ended up putting my whole collection into solution in a Benzo blackout and was forced to make a wet mix with Mannitol.

Know I have this big bag of sandy Mannitol with like 8 different drugs in it will have to plug the stuff cause a big portion is DMT. It's not gonna be not so potent because of the amount of inert powder I'll have to bypass first metabolism so I will be getting some 3ml oral syringes and start out plugging 30-50mgs and redosing as needed. Gonna be a wacky ride with all those different treasures inside. Need to have zero tolerance when I give it a go because like I said I will need to gauge the potency. At least I didnt flush the stuff you know and I can get some type of use out if it.

Tell you what the only reason the psych binge ended was that situation happening probably would be tripping right now. It's a pity but I will start building a new collection again this isnt the first setback like this I have had I need to learn from it. This was one of the wackiest blackouts I've ever had and I feel embarrassed about it but at least I didn't get hurt or end up in a Psych Ward. Drugs come and go but we only have one life, the Universe needed to slap me around a bit to wake the fuck up.
 
Gonna get a tattoo in the near future.

Of the Owl in my avatar on the inside of my fore arm, this will be my first one ever. And its gonna be dope as fuck, the pattern behind him may be slightly modified and will rise to the crook of my arm and down to the wrist...this is the first one I've ever been absolutely sure to get. Hopefully my Wife is gonna be on board with this :)
 
Cosmic Charlie said:
Ended up putting my whole collection into solution in a Benzo blackout and was forced to make a wet mix with Mannitol.

Know I have this big bag of sandy Mannitol with like 8 different drugs in it will have to plug the stuff cause a big portion is DMT.
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:LOL: haha, christ. That did make me chuckle, although I'm sure it's not ideal. I can imagine doing something like this though, can't let your guard down with benzos for a second eh... as you say though at least you didn't flush them which is probably what I would have done.
 
Cosmic Charlie said:
Gonna get a tattoo in the near future.

Of the Owl in my avatar on the inside of my fore arm, this will be my first one ever. And its gonna be dope as fuck, the pattern behind him may be slightly modified and will rise to the crook of my arm and down to the wrist...this is the first one I've ever been absolutely sure to get. Hopefully my Wife is gonna be on board with this :)
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If you're thinking about tattoos, please realize the owl is very chemically isolated. It can't smell for crap. It kinda has to see well to make up for the remarkable chemical disconnect.
 
going to get a gram of racemix ketamine next week will start slow but will probably go out to a club on it. Most people i know think ketamine is way to cooked and no longer do it i will mix it up with some acid in a later date to see how deep it goes.
 
TripSitterNZ said:
going to get a gram of racemix ketamine next week will start slow but will probably go out to a club on it. Most people i know think ketamine is way to cooked and no longer do it i will mix it up with some acid in a later date to see how deep it goes.
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I first took ketamine in 2002, at an illegal outdoor rave on an ex army bunker ground.

Mad little place. Man made grass mounds in lines, small roads around, bunkers under the mounds.

Forrest around. Anyway, I had heard reports from friends of this, back then, pure veterinary ketamine suddenly flooding the scene. Like how one guy stepped out of the car on it then wham, flat on his back. Arms and legs looking around 20 foot long haha!

It sounded fun. This night, I was taking goid cocaine st start, then 3 of the most incredible ecstasy pills- yellow "B's" for Bentley. Strongest, classic, intoxicationg spine shivering Saffrole odor, from 3 feet away.

I double dropped. Wow. Followed with 3rd pill hour later. Incredible ecstasy heaven.

Then in a car back seat, my first ever ketamine. 3 lines of dark brown/grey pure horse ket.

Wow. First thing- the car literally stretched out like 40 foot long inside, right before my eyes. It wasn't long before all I could see was comfortable blackness, with vivid geometric type formations rotating.

Then group hallucinations of the parked car driving down lanes, dead real simulation.

Lasted hours.

I never saw or took "vet" ket again. "Kiddie", pharamceutical ket replaced it entirely by 2003. The much lighter, more user and importantly- trip friendly version.

Lots of people were falling prey to the severest, deepest bad trips on vet ket and acid.

Kiddie ket and acid, terrific combo. Still very deep, room for messy dark places.

But I loved it. Took it in my stride. Surprisingly synergistic and right feeling.

Thinking about it I'm sure I preferred ketamine on top of acid vs ketamine on top of MDMA where things would just be messy and amnesia like with no apparent significance or memorability. Still nice though. Just less legs, and more blurry.

Ket and acid is great. Not to be feared, can be unreal, sublime, wow wow at times.

Walls flowing like lava in luminesce colour. Lightness of body, and supreme effortless mobility and coordination.

Also very cushioning to the acid. Like, the ket resets you in the moment. Pure and fresh. Clean slate of all the useless psycho-mumble we build, store and harbour in our consciousness, which basically sets up and determines our trips- holds them back and interferes with the total freedom LSD can offer.

@TripSitterNZ enjoy that combo. Be sensible but confident. Have no fear, have fun mate. Please share a little feedback somewhere here.
 
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Doing a little bumps while out at a gathering'show is great, loosens you up, potentiates other drugs, and is actually stimulating. When you cross into hole territory though, it can be weird and you have to retreat to your tent or something. I like other dissos more than ketamine for lower dosing while out and about (3_MeO-PCP and PCE, MXE (oh god MXE))
 
Not sure what's happened but the DOx have somehow become my favorites that DOPr trip and my recent excursions into DOC deeply have been some of the most Euphoric and Visual experiences I've had on Psychs period. Disnt mention it but after I'd eaten that 40mgs that weekend I'd found the bottle with 100mgs of DOC...the days that followed proved to be some of the wackiest I have ever had in all of my days. Let's push the envelope a little further now shall we...

I'd stayed up for 5 days straight and dosed every last drop. It was one of the strangest drug experiences of my life and towards the end entered into stimulant psychosis. On the last days my Wife became really concerned because I started leaving the house for 3 hours in a clip in the middle of each night and coming back with random objects and professing their great importance. I'd become frustrated with her when she wouldn't understand. "Do you know what this is Mrs. Cosmic, we are going to be so rich I cannot believe how lucky we are!!!" never knew broken household appliances were the gateway to financial freedom, lol.

The energy surging thru me was electric and I could feel it eminating from the core of my being and moving from me into me down into the ground and returning, granting me more powerful. I'd felt almost telepathic in a sense and see my future, it blissful and my mind stretched infinitely. Pretty sure this may have been the heaviest DOC binge a human being has ever been on. I've found the sacrament and have had this truth burned into my memory. Didn't feel tired for a moment and would walk for hours on end around the streets of Brooklyn.

Needless to say Wife got pretty scared and thought I stopped taking my Psych Meds, might of well for all intents and purposes. On the 5th day I took 10mgs of Zyprexa and allowed my body rest. When I awoke the next afternoon I came to the decision I need to take a break from the drugs before I snapped something for good. When I do go back it will be with a single dose of 2.5mgs DOC and I'll not be redosing. The benzos were making me think it was okay and severely impairing my judgement.

During the binge I'd generally be taking 8-10mgs of DOC at a time and be lost in the Visuals when it would hit. The world swirling into a soupy blend of Geometric Patterns. I could literally taste the rainbow and the pleasure was orgasmic, wish I could write a more detailed report but as you can imagine it's hard to bring everything back from a trip like that and given the extended duration it would be harm to provide and accurate timeline, without question nobody should ever repeat these things I do to my body and mind I have a very large amount of experience with Psychedelics having easily tripped more than a thousand days I've been on this planet.

But even I've become deeply concerned with my drug use and fear for my sanity if I continue down this road. That new vial of DOC I was given yesterday needs to stay around for years if I can make it. Will have to acquire some more Tryptamines for the Spring to explore, plan on picking up a fat bag of DPT and meeting our maker this summer and digging deep inside to discover hidden truths. Have a feeling this is going to be one of the special ones but as of now that Phenethylamine has now moved into the spot of my favorite psychedelic and overtaken all by a great margin. I've flirted with Psychosis with stimulants but it had nothing on this mainly due to the powerful mind bending effects of said chemical.

Hope you enjoyed the read, take care PD Fam <3
 
Damn, that's nuts. I don't think there's any way you'll trip on 2.5mg of DOC for the coming years though :D
 
Damn that's a fucking huge dose! Sounds like some pretty heavy psychosis too, I'm glad it scared you and made you reassess because sadly every time you get psychotic, it's easier to go back, and people can and do cause themselves lasting mental problems.
 
Aren't the DOx family supposed to be pretty sketchy in high doses because of long duration vasoconstriction, and, potentially, cardiac stress? Haven't looked into it in detail for a while but I'm sure there's reports of people who have lost fingers or otherwise been in a dangerous place after accidentally or deliberately dosing too high... is this danger overblown or are some people less susceptible to the negative effects? Again, haven't looked into the details for a while so maybe those stories involved doses on another level... or other drugs were involved... but I always thought it was advised to be somewhat wary of these long lasting psychedelic amphetamines.

They sound absolutely fantastic to me that said, I'm still waiting for the appropriate rainy day to dip into my small stash of a couple of 'em, but very much looking forward to that day.
 
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