Yup, right side of my head and feels it was is throbbing. Mine was triggered by stress. How have you been coping?
It comes and goes. But I’m really scared I might be like this for ever.
Yup, right side of my head and feels it was is throbbing. Mine was triggered by stress. How have you been coping?
I used to go the gym 3 to 4 times a week, but now I feel like exhausted all the time. And with the headaches... will I be able to hit it back?Alcohol definitely makes it worse. I remember I went to a Festival, got smashed on alcohol, and had really bad facial twitching for a few days during my recovery. Stay away from alcohol and any drug in general. You guys will recover, keep reinforcing that to yourself and you'll see drastic improvements. Light-moderate exercise daily helps, once you've been working out regularly for about a month, ramp it up a bit to heavy exercise a few times a week.
Im feeling super guilty and sad. I cannot stop thinking I have done this to myself and that I fucked everything up and it makes me feel awful.
Hi all,
I've been reading this forum and after 4 months of crippling anxiety I think I finally found what's wrong with me...
4 months ago we went to a festival where we used xtc and I experienced a severe panic attack. As it was festival season, I used xtc a couple of times in two months (not smart) but I never did a lot and was always cautious. Prior to this, it had been a long time since doing xtc, and I only did like once or twice a year.
This severe panic never went away. It went on in ruminating and catastrophizing thoughts as where I couldn't go to work any more, being in a constant fight/flight mode. I tried neurofeedback for two months, which didn't help me and cost me a lot of money. Tried EMDR because the psychologist thought I had to process my trauma from the festival, didn't work either.
We went to a party a couple of weeks ago, when we came home I could still hear a sound from the party (which I often had when I went out, but it always went away after sleeping and it never bothered me before) but now, due to my anxiety, I immediately freaked out about having tinnitus. I kept hearing it from then on (a really high hissing sound coming out of my head), not being able to work again (I was working parttime at that moment). I'm sure I don't have hearing loss for my age (I'm 29) I can hear up to +16000hz, much more than my boyfriend who is younger. My GP described me Sertraline for my anxiety but I had such side effects (trembling, extremely agitated, diarrhea, not being able to sleep, and a night when I tried to sleep I heard an extreme loud noise coming out of my head so I had to take a Lorazepam to calm down and sleep), I stopped it after two days. My GP in my parents town described me Escitalopram (Lexapro) but I didn't have the guts to take this. He said I also had water in my ears so I have to use a nasal spray for 2-3 months.
I stayed at my parents from there on for two weeks. My tinnitus gradually subsided, as where I could only hear it (before I could hear it above the TV and everything) when it was completely silent if I went to sleep or woke up and this noise was something I always heard in silence (always thought it was my blood rushing) also my anxiety levels went down and I was more relaxed.
The next week I started working again (parttime), this went okay. That week we had to go to my boyfriend's family which stressed me out because they know nothing about my anxiety problems and I had to pretend everything was alright. The tinnitus came back in full force and I had a new vague ringing coming out of my left ear.
This monday I went drinking with a friend of mine, got wine drunk, went home, ate something and took melatonin for sleep. The alcohol combined with the melatonin must have caused some reaction because when I was falling asleep suddenly my head was screaming and I had to take a Xanax due to severe panic. I was really scared again to drink something, although normally I would drink some wine with dinner or in a restaurant and this had no effect at all on my T. I was with my parents this weekend, less anxiety, drank three glasses of wine without a problem.
I saw a psychiatrist yesterday, he described me Cymbalta but I'm way too afraid to take it, again. I went from being a really active female 29 year old with an amazing job, who loved to go out and dance every weekend, was planning on starting her own business, to a miserable girl not being able to do something except for take a walk and cry the rest of the day.
All my googling didn't help me. I've read the worst things about every antidepressant, about tinnitus, about frying my brain from the xtc.... by reading this I think I'm experiencing some sort of long term comedown.
What can I do to feel better?
Often side effects of antidepressants subtle within few weeks to 2+ months. You have the choice to try to endure it for a chance that it will work. If it doesn't then you can cross the antidepressant from your list and try next one. Often takes 2 or 3+ tries before you get the right one.
So that's your first option. Second is to handle it with healthy lifestyle, therapies and alot of non-stressing distracting activities. I often imagined the silly picture of running out of happy fuel, and MDMA gave me a hole in the tank. So had to constantly fill with positive feedback til the hole is repaired.
It's dim, however I've made a discord server with few people in there. One of the channels has pinned 20+ recovery stories. I can easily make them 50+ but lazy. Oops.. tell me it you're interested.
I'm really interested in reading success stories...
Are you experiencing or did you experience any visual symptoms? If so, what do they consist in?
Are you experiencing or did you experience any visual symptoms? If so, what do they consist in?
Just visual snow, been worse now I'm no longer sure it's normal or not.
Hey Guys,
Here is my story,
I went to EDC Vegas this year rolled really hard all 3 days had normal recovery and comedown and bounced back. A month later a rolled again another 240mg of MDMA. A month after that I rolled again for another 240mg.