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Mental Health Mental Illness Support Thread V. How do you feel?

madness00 said:
No shame in seeking help, but I understand. I guess the key for you then is to keep busy. Do you have hobbies?

Yeah I'll take a seroquel tonight in hopes that I can sleep. If I wake up tomorrow feeling like I just blew through an 8 ball of coke, my first day of work will be interesting. I hope it's low key.
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I used to go out alot, but then since this shit has developed I've sorta abandoned that for the most part. This year, I've started to do a bit more with other people again though. I read, but sometimes it feels like I have to pace that.
It's a bit weird, though. I often feel like I don't really achieve much since there is a bit of constant exhaustion playing into it and I don't really give stuff the focus I probably could, but I suppose from the outside my current (study and work) activities might look like high-achieving, productive shit. Maybe I'm just generally a bit dissatisfied.

I think you'll be fine, first day of work will probably force you to focus. More often than not such things will go well because unconsciously you adapt to make it work :)
 
It seems like you're managing fine, but things could be better. It is great that you're on the up and up though, maybe it's just a matter of time?
 
Jack123456 said:
Also, a diagnosis would potentially not be too good career-wise, so that's another big consideration.
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I left my job due to anxiety and depression, I now realise so many life situations could have been easier if I just went to the doctor sooner.
In Australia mental health is some work places are frowned upon if they dismiss it or don’t take it seriously. Allot more people are upfront about it to - I wasn’t ?

Anxiety for me is a far greater hell than depression. I think I had anxiety worse and befor I ever had depression.

but currently things are peachy, my use is down and I’m not medicated ( taking my meds) I was prescribed Prozac & Zopiclone.
I am achieving allot but only had a few down days which were situational. I’m going to see my doctor next week to touch base and I don’t know if I will tell her about me using. I can sugar coat it all I want, making excuses like I’ve reduced my intake, I was fine when I went away and didn’t use for two weeks etc ... but I’m still using and I just can’t gauge how she will take it and what steps she will want me to take.

But today was a good day!

My doctor when I saw her last said I still require about a year off work but I will aim to go back sooner I think ??‍♀️
 
Today at the drug councelor/mental health meeting

"I found a year old benz script btw, so Im gonna be testing positive during getting my lisence back"

"how will you be able to quit taking opiates?" "I just double my masturbating."

My life
 
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madness00 said:
What type of ciggies do you smoke?

Do you like Camel Turkish Gold? Ever tried?
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Turkish golds were my shit back in the day. I used to enjoy them with one of these. Always stuck in my head because they were both "gold" by complete coincidence. They stopped making these though ?

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The black and gold Rockstar's are good too:

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All the rest suck, IMO.

Dude.. Bangs are pretty good and have 300mg caffeine. Every tried one @mal3volent?
 
I've been meaning to. My brother recommended them to me. What flavor should I get?
 
mal3volent said:
I've been meaning to. My brother recommended them to me. What flavor should I get?
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Froze Rose is pretty good.

schizopath said:
Yeah I loved the camel filtered when I smoked them.
I roll my own now cause its only like 2€ a day.
I prefer the red rollable flavors.

You?
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My buddy rolls his own, gets like a couple ounces at a time and has a metal roller. I like to roll mine by hand, though.

Right now i'm poor as hell so I go for the double diamonds which are $2.50 a pack of 20.

Sometimes I even pick snipes off the ground. I know, i'm savage.
 
Yeah. I FUCKING LOVE rolling my own cigs <3

Had to smoke already smoked/pick from ground today cause I was out.

In Finland rolling ur own is 3-4 times cheaper so I dont really have a choice lol
 
While under the care of your primary care provider, who you have been identified under the care of is no longer employed with the medical group. You were and are currently on a so-called Schedule-II medication, or other controlled substances that require a certain operational protocol and require regular monitoring ( e.g. drug-screenings, and follow ups).

Please note that per regulations, we are not authorized to call-in or refill Schedule-II medications or controlled substances for a healthcare provider that is no longer affiliated with the medical practice.

To provide you with the best possible care, while meeting those govermental regulatory requirements, we are kindly asking you to establish care with one of our available PC providers at your earliest convenience to avoid a possible gap in your prescriptions.

We do apologize for any inconvenience and will gladly schedule an appointment for you to meet one of our primary care providers and give our team an opportunity to take care of all your healthcare. respectfully.

This is a RECENT letter that I got !! very recent.
sooooo Pain management has been gone for THREE YEARS. Pain management used to drug test me for weed.

And I got my xanax prescription way over a year ago from the psychiatrist and DID NOT require a drug test, who then got me a weed prescription instead of the benzo.

So then the mm card expired in a YEAR so I went to the Dispensary and renewed my card with them instead.

So for two solid years I have been crying for pain meds, and everyone I have went to so far said NO WAY. except the bone and joint specialist who gave me a pain med prescription but I don't see her anymore after I got my cast removed.

So why are they tormenting me with this letter.
All I ever get from them is : you need a colonoscopy, you need your breasts squished in a machine, and you need a pap smear and your vagina examined.

And all I want is just a bit of relief from my pain.
I am really mentally depressed but that is what the weed is for. It helps alot until the pain starts up.

Thank goodness I wasn't this bad my entire life or I would have ended it along time ago.

But I thank God everyday for the time that I was able to have the help of pain relief and be able to do things in life that I wanted to do.
 
Sounds like you just need to see someone there to establish yourself as a patient since your dr isn't practicing there. Most doctors are going to want to do check ups once in a while, especially if you're on a medication that's considered a narcotic.
 
Have you tried all types of weed/concentrates for pain relief?

I'm reading that CBD is best for inflammatory pain, while THC is best for central and neuropathic pain.

"There are certain times where you may prefer the effects of a higher THC or higher CBD strain. One example would be if you are experiencing inflammation, yet you are wanting to go about your day normally, without the psychotropic effects of THC. In this situation, a high-CBD low-THC strain can provide relief without much of an impact on mental function.

Other times you may be in enough pain that you would like something that takes your mind off the pain while also offering pain relief. In this situation, the greater “high” that you would experience with a high-THC strain could be of benefit."

I'm sure there is CBD oil as well, and all sorts of other cannabis alternatives that are out there for pain relief.

BUT, as nuttynutskin said, getting that check up may just be the more simple answer.
 
right, however, if they give me narcotics if it was like it 'used to be' then they will drug test me therefore I won't be able to use beautiful flower.
that was prescribed by a psych md. (very awesome doctor, experienced. but I would have to quit for at least 30 days and workout to pull the the TEE (thc) from my fat ass metabolism.

lol, they will never give me narcotics anyway, and I do need
them. lol.
I will get used to it, if i can ween from xanax I will be okay. I mean at least there was the xanax.

so yeas, so yes I tried to read the rules and it is tough and scary trying to stay at normal again.
Its doable and when you do it, it is great. that's the part that scares me.
okay i will go now ♡
 
@Hylight

On the off chance that you don't give you narcotics, or you don't follow through with the check up, I hope cannabis can help relieve pain in the meantime.

Hopefully you don't become dependent on psychotropics.
 
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