Misanthrobbing
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- Feb 2, 2019
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Hi OP,
I've been a type 1 diabetic since the age of 6 (diagnosed in 1989) and I am now 35. I've been an invtravenous meth user for 17 years now, usage has fluxtuated from a few points once every couple of weeks to a gram a day (yes very bad, I know) and everywhere in between.
I am in good health. I have regular bloods and physical checkups done, my most recent being done by a corporate health provider I was working for and BP, Cholesterol etc were all good. My last HbA1c was 6.1 (I think that on the NGSP scale) which is not too bad. Would be a bit high for a non-diabetic but decent for a T1 DM.
Anyway whilst none of this is any sort of proof that I haven't done horrible things to my insides and am sure to die a swift and brutal death in the very near future - it does show that by paying attention to the fact that you ARE different to the poeple you're using with and you DO need to do additional things that they will not - you can definitely keep yourself a lot safer.
People without a chronic illness may not be aware of what you or I go through on the daily, I understand that T1 Diabetes is a burden and personally, there is almost not a single fucking minute that passes in a day where my brain does not wonder what my blood sugar is doing at that exact time and then ponde the consequences/how to improve it/how the current level will affect me in the short and long term. It is fucking exhausting and it's the kind of exhaustion that bubble below the surface and you may not notice.
The hedonistic "throwing caution to the wind" feeling that meth gave me felt like it came straight from god themselves (I'm not religious, just a crude analogy) as I finally felt free and normal for a blissful 8-10 hours.
But when I came back down the diabetes was still there, lying in wait with a nice side of guilt and paranoia about how this binge and temporary lack of care had affected me.
I'm not for a second going to tell you not to do meth - meth is fucking wonderful and has been responsible for some of the best and most enlightening/beautiful experiences of my life. I hold a reverance for meth the way a lot of peole hold a reverance for psychedelics. But the absolute fucking worst thing you can do is pretend you're normal and that you dont have diabetes.
Accept it, embrace it, overcome the hurdles. Set alarms on your phone to test your BSL and inject (insulin lol) or eat food. Speak to a doctor, if you don't have an understanding one then perhaps have a scout around and see if you can find one.
Also I cannot recommend enough speaking to a counsellor or psych or Alcohol & other Drugs worker - they will all have invaluable input. Above all, remember you have to do things slightly differently than other people and that's just the way it is. I know it sucks but if you ever need to chat you're welcome to message me.
Hope I didn't get the wrong end of the stick with your post, be careful with monster shots too - as you may well be fine after a monster shot, but it is very hard to go back to 0.5 or 1 pointers when you've just done a 4 point screamer the day before. Amphet tolerance is an absolute motherfucker.
Take care
I've been a type 1 diabetic since the age of 6 (diagnosed in 1989) and I am now 35. I've been an invtravenous meth user for 17 years now, usage has fluxtuated from a few points once every couple of weeks to a gram a day (yes very bad, I know) and everywhere in between.
I am in good health. I have regular bloods and physical checkups done, my most recent being done by a corporate health provider I was working for and BP, Cholesterol etc were all good. My last HbA1c was 6.1 (I think that on the NGSP scale) which is not too bad. Would be a bit high for a non-diabetic but decent for a T1 DM.
Anyway whilst none of this is any sort of proof that I haven't done horrible things to my insides and am sure to die a swift and brutal death in the very near future - it does show that by paying attention to the fact that you ARE different to the poeple you're using with and you DO need to do additional things that they will not - you can definitely keep yourself a lot safer.
People without a chronic illness may not be aware of what you or I go through on the daily, I understand that T1 Diabetes is a burden and personally, there is almost not a single fucking minute that passes in a day where my brain does not wonder what my blood sugar is doing at that exact time and then ponde the consequences/how to improve it/how the current level will affect me in the short and long term. It is fucking exhausting and it's the kind of exhaustion that bubble below the surface and you may not notice.
The hedonistic "throwing caution to the wind" feeling that meth gave me felt like it came straight from god themselves (I'm not religious, just a crude analogy) as I finally felt free and normal for a blissful 8-10 hours.
But when I came back down the diabetes was still there, lying in wait with a nice side of guilt and paranoia about how this binge and temporary lack of care had affected me.
I'm not for a second going to tell you not to do meth - meth is fucking wonderful and has been responsible for some of the best and most enlightening/beautiful experiences of my life. I hold a reverance for meth the way a lot of peole hold a reverance for psychedelics. But the absolute fucking worst thing you can do is pretend you're normal and that you dont have diabetes.
Accept it, embrace it, overcome the hurdles. Set alarms on your phone to test your BSL and inject (insulin lol) or eat food. Speak to a doctor, if you don't have an understanding one then perhaps have a scout around and see if you can find one.
Also I cannot recommend enough speaking to a counsellor or psych or Alcohol & other Drugs worker - they will all have invaluable input. Above all, remember you have to do things slightly differently than other people and that's just the way it is. I know it sucks but if you ever need to chat you're welcome to message me.
Hope I didn't get the wrong end of the stick with your post, be careful with monster shots too - as you may well be fine after a monster shot, but it is very hard to go back to 0.5 or 1 pointers when you've just done a 4 point screamer the day before. Amphet tolerance is an absolute motherfucker.
Take care
