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keep trippin' and staying safe

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this is more like dmt though

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Speaking of psychedelic visuals, I still can't believe fractals describe so many things in nature and then they also pop up in psychedelic trips. With a fractal you can get infinite length in a finite area, so cool.
 
I remember reading a paper where some mathematicians proposed an "explanation" for the geometric nature of psychedelic visuals. I can't remember all the details but they were saying something like the spatial distribution of neurons in the visuals cortex was analogous to some of the common visuals such as spirals, webs and other tesselations.
 
That's pretty sweet IMG! I'm getting some 3-MeO-PCE. Only got to try that one a couple of times but enjoyed it thoroughly. It'll be nice to have a disso psyche trip again. Hopefully with some bud too. I ordered some good kratom too for a bit of opiate fun.
 
Personally I like it a lot more than I like 3-MeO-PCP. The latter is rather edgy, and quite behaviorally altering in an insidious way. The former is a warm and lovely substance, rather empathogenic oftentimes, with a psychedelic edge to it.
 
Guys I think I finally got a proper effect from kava. I've used it from time to time for years but never gotten much I could detect beyond placebo. Well, tonight I realized my girlfriend is leaving for a month in a few days, sooner than I thought. I can't drive myself anywhere and I'm not looking forward to it, and the loneliness. And I started thinking about my impending final divorce court and getting super anxious about it. I was having a really bad time, super consumed with worries. I made a drink with 2 tablespoons of kava powder, and whisked it into some warm water and half and half. Drank it up and damn if I don't feel really nice, positive, stress-free, with a nice body high, too. :)
 
Hola amigo !
How you doing CG??


Shadowmeister said:
Personally I like it a lot more than I like 3-MeO-PCP. The latter is rather edgy, and quite behaviorally altering in an insidious way. The former is a warm and lovely substance, rather empathogenic oftentimes, with a psychedelic edge to it.
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I think I like 3-MeO-PCP better thus far. I kinda like the "darker" character it has. With the PCE analogue, when I've dosed bellow 10 mg it feels barely dissociating, just a clearheaded stimulation and a slightly warm body high. When I've dosed above 10 mg the body high got stronger and it surely feels nice in my body but I suddenly get a really foggy headspace which I don't quite like. Maybe its too dissociating for how functional it feels ? I don't know, I feel I need more figuring it out, but so far it occupies a kind of ambiguous place for me in that it's too stimulating so I wanna do stuff, but its also too dissociating to perform them correctly. With 3-MeO-PCP I get mostly stimulation with subtle, functional dissociation (Unless I dose too high, then it's really dissociating), with ket or MXE I can get to hole, 3-MeO-PCE feels like it does neither of those but a kind of in between I'm not so sure I enjoy besides the body high.

I'm thinking it would be nice with a tryptamine.
 
Both good and bad.

I became injured during my training and have been released from my service. So now I'm unemployed and really have no idea what's coming next for me... I may try and claim some benefits if the medical personnel deem my case worthy, I have to submit a petition to them to find out. If I could get financial or medical compensation, that would be great. I have some lingering issues in my knees right now and I'm not sure if they'll cover the damage or if the issues will resolve themselves.

I feel very strange and lost. I've been cutoff from the outside world for months and haven't even been called by my first name for quite some time. It's still weird hearing people address me. I'm sure it will wear off but still, it's strange. Being around civilians the past 48 hours has been a strange experience as well. My wife almost seems upset at my return, mostly i think because she doesn't want to share our bed. I can sleep anywhere at any time now so I can't really empathize with such selfishness, and it hurts me. I'm sure she'll adjust too though.

For the past few months I was earning more than I ever had before and also not spending much of it, so I'm left with enough to float us for a few months at least. But now I don't know how to find a job that will pay well again. Right now I'm just gonna take the next two weeks off to think and relax, and to explore my individuality again. I think I'm gonna go pick up a fat sack of weed today too if I can heh.

How are y'all?
 
Oh man, that's crazy, you got injured? To the point that you can't continue? Sorry man, I know you were excited about your new path. I'm sure your wife will adjust. Maybe she's also a little upset at the situation? I don't know her so I wouldn't know. I'd feel hurt by that too.

I'm doing alright. The stress is pretty high at the moment, my girlfriend is leaving town for a month in a couple of days and I can't drive right now. So I'm feeling nervous and apprehensive about that. In a week I've got my hopefully final divorce court appearance and I'm really nervous about that, the uncertainty has been killing me for months. Will I get to keep my house? That's my main question. Though I think it's most likely I will, it would really devastate my life if I don't. And I fear to experience that level of anger and resentment it would cause because my anger and resentment are already the worst I've ever felt in my life and it's poisonous. And my girl isn't going to be here to confide in regardless, she's leaving before that.

Last night she got kind of upset at me, which just means she expressed exasperation in a rational and calm way, it was related to me accidentally getting curcumin stains on her freshly cleaned white sheepskin blanket. That shit stains so bad, it may never come all the way out. She didn't do anything even remotely inappropriate, I mean honestly she was still being sweet it was just obvious she was upset. And I had been thinking of my ex and I just found myself freezing up, I knew she wasn't going to act like my ex but with her it would have caused a horrible, hours long fight that ended in tears with lots of screaming and calling me worthless, a piece of shit, etc, which would only end when I agreed with her about what she was telling me I was. I found myself being mentally and physically affected like I was unable to get over the instinctual fear I felt at that response, even though intellectually I knew that would never happen with my girl, that she would never treat me that way. She could tell how I was feeling and she was asking me if I was scared of her because I seemed scared, and that it's okay. I couldn't even say anything (literally), I completely froze up, for like 10 minutes. Finally I managed to tell her how I felt traumatized right now and it's not her fault, and she understood, knowing what she does about my past, and told me she's not mad at me, just frustrated, and gave me a hug, and I started to come out of it. It made me feel so weird, I thought I was past that but I guess not. I find myself thinking about what I went through in my marriage like 10 times a day and it makes me feel angry and/or anxious every single time, it's so exhausting. She probably doesn't mean to be dragging me through this but the longer this shitty fucking divorce goes on, the worse the dredging up of old, painful emotions is. Anything I have to give her is going to piss me off, because she abused me greatly, I had fucking stockholm syndrome with her for years, it was sick. I was terrified of her. But some money is fine, whatever. But she better not get my house, that would be such a tremendous miscarriage of justice. But I'm nervous because there are things she can say about me that will reflect poorly on me. And I can say things back to her but what proof do I have? I don't know if she has proof. The uncertainty is driving me insane.
 
That's PTSD for yah brother. Abuse becomes ingrained in your mind and it'll take you right back there regardless of whether you truly believe it could go to that place. Certain things trigger it like that. It fucking sucks. I've been in many situations where I've been triggered and it's so aggravating. "Man what's wrong with you?!?", Sorry I'm freezing up the shit that's happening is just reminding me of when I was a kid and I was about to get my shit kicked in. I never say that though. It's only ever the small amount of family I have that does this. Or else I'd tell them to leave me be and if they didn't I'd tell them to GTFO off my face. It's tiring because it's been years since it's happened because I hadn't seen my family. I'm so chill the anger it instills in me is disgusting and angering because it takes so much to truly piss me off. Then I walk away, relax, and say fuck it cause it was just one passing moment, as was the abuse that caused that moment.... Eventually through effort you learn how to deal. Certain situations at certain times can bring it all flooding back in ways that are hard to imagine after years off peace. I did better homeless and as a heroin addict then I do dealing with some of my family. Truly hope all that shit works out mane. I know it's not the same but when your girls gone you know you can always vent to me! I'll always be here to listen! <3 The heart isn't showing up so just imagine one!

CG that's super rough man, so sorry to hear that ! Your a smart and good guy so I'm sure you'll figure it out.
 
My long-term relationship With my daughter's mom was a disaster and it effects me still. She was a really cruel and manipulative partner. Thank goodness the woman I'm with now and plan on marrying is the complete opposite. The key is her accepting the fact that I will always be "CosM1c Charlie" and my ex wanted to change me. She Pretty much tryed to control every aspect of my life.

if I let's say came back tripping on Acid it would be this huge issue. I just never should have gotten involved with a woman who hated psychedelics. And all drug us pretty much if it's not her own.

Thankfully my sexy soulmate ive got here trips with me <3

Picked up some cool shit from my friend

1 Gram of Blonde Hash
3.5 Grams of this Fire Girl Strain Bud
3.5 Grams of Psilocybe Cubensis
Ten of these 10mg THC gummies
Two of these Peach Sour Gummy Rings
<unknown THC content> feels pretty strong

Have a couple grams of last week's bud to throw under the hash in my bong. I took two hits of the Hash a couple hours ago and it was lovely. Ate one of the Ring Gummies, what a nice day.
 
I picked up a new bubbler and some good purple bud today. Feeling extra mellow. Found some whippits I forgot about, about to mess with a few.
 
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