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I think chemtrails are without a doubt sinister just look at those things they look like someones got a normal cloud stretched it skinned it then turned it inside out no one can atleast deny that they block out a good portion of the sun which the normal clouds would absorb but instead the chemtrails absorb them anyone can see that but who cares of it really is some big conspiracy what can we do anyway conspiracies aside im so looking foward to christmas this is embarrassingly the first christmas I have had enough money to actually buy my family gifts out my own pocket it feels really good I walked 5 miles as high as I was freezing just wondered around town for a bit enjoying the vibe all I gotta do now is clean my room and I can sit down and enjoy my solitude being the loner I am ?

Merry Xmas all x
 
Pete556 said:
I think chemtrails are without a doubt sinister just look at those things they look like someones got a normal cloud stretched it skinned it then turned it inside out no one can atleast deny that they block out a good portion of the sun which the normal clouds would absorb but instead the chemtrails absorb them anyone can see that but who cares of it really is some big conspiracy what can we do anyway conspiracies aside im so looking foward to christmas this is embarrassingly the first christmas I have had enough money to actually buy my family gifts out my own pocket it feels really good I walked 5 miles as high as I was freezing just wondered around town for a bit enjoying the vibe all I gotta do now is clean my room and I can sit down and enjoy my solitude being the loner I am ��

Merry Xmas all x
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Merry Xmas to you too bud
 
Happy Holidays Pete! I wish I could say the same about the gifts, but I have to scrap some money so I can take my ps4 pro out the pawnshop ( had to pawn it in order to pay rent, bills and etc ) and maybe get myself a shitty phone ( I don't mind because I've been without a phone for 2 weeks and I usually don't spend time at all on them so a shitty one will do it). I wouldn't normally take the ps4 back but I pawned it for like 30% of its price but after I got it back I'm gonna sell it for sure (jokes on me because I just bought it this summer when I was doing better with my habbit, but all I do all day is do drugs, work from time to time or study so I'm fine without it too but I'm just mad bc it's new and I could sell it for 75% of the original price).

Try to not isolate yourself in your room bc you are gonna do it anyway the rest of the year and these kind of holidays are not about baby fucking jesus but about family time, I'm having a decent time with my family this year ( last year I got out of rehab and my head was full of Seroquel, Valdoxan and Effexor ) although I can stay for only 2 more days because I'm running out of tramadol, I could score some oxy but it makes me wayyyy to noddy noddy so it is not an optimal choice.
 
morpheuspapaverus said:
it anyway the rest of the year and these kind of holidays are not about baby fucking jesus but about family time
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I don't have any family, so they mean even less to me.

I literally can't wait for them to be over. They make me so depressed that I try my best not to think about them...
 
you shouldn't be, disregarding the biological term, family are the ones you get over everything so friends, life partners etc. so you'll always have a family, sure your blood and genes don't reflect that but your experiences and feelings do. so try to spend it with them even if they are just a few or maybe one person. I always was and am a loner sometimes I think that I'm a sociopath but everytime I thought that I could figure out everything by myself, some people show me that I don't have to be alone and go through things alone.
 
morpheuspapaverus said:
you shouldn't be, disregarding the biological term, family are the ones you get over everything so friends, life partners etc. so you'll always have a family, sure your blood and genes don't reflect that but your experiences and feelings do. so try to spend it with them even if they are just a few or maybe one person. I always was and am a loner sometimes I think that I'm a sociopath but everytime I thought that I could figure out everything by myself, some people show me that I don't have to be alone and go through things alone.
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Thsnks bro. You're a good guy and say some very comforting things man...
 
No problem mate! I find you EADD guys very kind, it always fascinated me because your ways of dealing with people are same as mine, you guys don't judge people and give everybody a chance, a good word and help without taking in consideration superficial things like regular human beings do. that's why I always try to give back to this community, you guys made me accept myself when I did not think it was possible . we are all good guys but with bad habbits unfortunately.
 
Slots are not worth it in opinion in the long run you are not on the profit side of things. Some rich kinds from my birth town play on big bids like 100 pounds a hand ( a screen roll or how do you call it in english) and they usually spend more than 100 pounds but they tend to win a lot because the higher the bid is if you got a lucky hand you win a pretty nice amount, but I am not the person which can afford losing this much money on these kind of things. Plus there is the addiction side of the things, when I was in rehab there was a guy who checked himself in because it was cheaper for him than staying outside and playing daily ( it was 60 pounds per day the rehab fee - very expensive considering the wages from romania). He had already 6 months in that rehab and I'm pretty sure that he stayed for a couple months after I checked out.

Btw with the method I described above the kids won so much money in so many places that they were forbidden to play unless an employer of the casino/pub was present till they played because they thought they were cheating and hacking the machines but they did not, regular folks don't play on big bids like that, they spend more money than the kids but because they spend more time there, they just play a few big bids and always get a lot of money through a lucky hand or getting the jackpot.
 
morpheuspapaverus said:
Slots are not worth it in opinion in the long run you are not on the profit side of things. Some rich kinds from my birth town play on big bids like 100 pounds a hand ( a screen roll or how do you call it in english) and they usually spend more than 100 pounds but they tend to win a lot because the higher the bid is if you got a lucky hand you win a pretty nice amount, but I am not the person which can afford losing this much money on these kind of things. Plus there is the addiction side of the things, when I was in rehab there was a guy who checked himself in because it was cheaper for him than staying outside and playing daily ( it was 60 pounds per day the rehab fee - very expensive considering the wages from romania). He had already 6 months in that rehab and I'm pretty sure that he stayed for a couple months after I checked out.

Btw with the method I described above the kids won so much money in so many places that they were forbidden to play unless an employer of the casino/pub was present till they played because they thought they were cheating and hacking the machines but they did not, regular folks don't play on big bids like that, they spend more money than the kids but because they spend more time there, they just play a few big bids and always get a lot of money through a lucky hand or getting the jackpot.
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During my teens I would often play the slots in the amusement arcades and as I got a bit older in the pubs. Many if my freinds did also and it seemed w normal thing to do but I eventually became addicted. I still rememeber that awful feeling of walking home having spent all my pocket money on the slots as a kid and how it would make me feel physically sick...

I first was prescribed opiates at the age of 21 and while I didn't become addicted for many, many years I often think I have an addictive personality and throughout my life have tended to swap one addiction for another. Some of these "addictions" have been fairly benign and some not so much.

When I joined the parachute regiment I became "addicted" to the adrenaline rush of parachuting and some of us would often go along to the RAF base near Colchester at 5am to hitch a lift up in a C130 to get a jump in before that days training activities... Incidentally, I've always thought it a misnomer calling it an "adrenaline rush" when surely it's a dopamine rush not adrenaline? Anyone who has experienced the adrenaline storm thwt you get while going through opiate withdrawls knows that it's very very unpleasant and certainly not something that you would become addicted to.

I suppose some of us are just naturally predisposed to become addicted to things...

@Pete556 - don't lose all your money man!!
 
and throughout my life have tended to swap one addiction
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Yeah I feel you, at first when I was much younger I called them obsessions but as you say it is indeed sawn in our personalities/mentalities. Some habbits are more or less harmful, but this opiate one affected my decision making abillities tremendously. Even now when I'm rock bottom money wise and I have to get the playstation out and an older phone I think of ordering 3g of some paki heroin I tried earlier last week, that's all I'm thinking about and reading about really instead of enjoying this "vacation". Although I know that the money involved would be wasted and I should stay on trams as they are better ( I have to take them only once a day ) and I already tappered to a much more ok dose, but it's like I lost my mind because I can't deal with the cravings at all, just thinking of the needle piercing my skin and the blood flowing through it when I register makes me have goosebumps.
 
apocalypse_when said:
Good luck mate, but just rememeber when to stop if it doesn't go your way. Easy way to inadvertantly burn through a large amount of money very quickly!!
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Indeed my friend I used to have quite the problem on them maybe I still do a bit but I defo can stop myself from gambling if I need to all I have to do is think of the weed and stuff the money could buy although I do feel pretty good about myself when I hit a big win collect it and treat myself it's a mugs game in the long run know one guy who had his own business which was drug dealing but he got into those roulette machines and every day he would lose his money and apparently he spent some money he got on tick off a dealer and after that I never heard from him again probably ran away or got stabbed over the money all for a stupid gambling buzz.
 
morpheuspapaverus said:
Slots are not worth it in opinion in the long run you are not on the profit side of things. Some rich kinds from my birth town play on big bids like 100 pounds a hand ( a screen roll or how do you call it in english) and they usually spend more than 100 pounds .
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Some part of me, can't stand seeing people wager so much I'm such a careful gambler the most I usually gamble in a sesh is ?20 on slots horse racing and football coupons the football coupons are the best you just gotta bet only 25p and if all the team's you pick come up you can win a lot I've won those bad boys a few times most I ever won was ?230 on this stupidly lucky one I haven't had any luck like that in a while though..
 
apocalypse_when said:
During my teens I would often play the slots in the amusement arcades and as I got a bit older in the pubs. Many if my freinds did also and it seemed w normal thing to do but I eventually became addicted. I still rememeber that awful feeling of walking home having spent all my pocket money on the slots as a kid and how it would make me feel physically sick...

I first was prescribed opiates at the age of 21 and while I didn't become addicted for many, many years I often think I have an addictive personality and throughout my life have tended to swap one addiction for another. Some of these "addictions" have been fairly benign and some not so much.

When I joined the parachute regiment I became "addicted" to the adrenaline rush of parachuting and some of us would often go along to the RAF base near Colchester at 5am to hitch a lift up in a C130 to get a jump in before that days training activities... Incidentally, I've always thought it a misnomer calling it an "adrenaline rush" when surely it's a dopamine rush not adrenaline? Anyone who has experienced the adrenaline storm thwt you get while going through opiate withdrawls knows that it's very very unpleasant and certainly not something that you would become addicted to.

I suppose some of us are just naturally predisposed to become addicted to things...

@Pete556 - don't lose all your money man!!
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Wow I would love to do that jump but it I got the chance I think I would be to much of a pussy to actually go through with it because I saw this woman did from one on Hollyoaks the british soap some jealous bitch cut something inside the parachute because she wanted her lesbian friend all to her self but just at the last minute.. The instructor switched all the bags and instead of owning up she done the skydive with the other to the one that ended up dying was the one she was in love with anyway it was so intense that it gave me a permanent fear of heights that's the sign of good tv right their.
 
Pete556 said:
Wow I would love to do that jump but it I got the chance I think I would be to much of a pussy to actually go through with it because I saw this woman did from one on Hollyoaks the british soap some jealous bitch cut something inside the parachute because she wanted her lesbian friend all to her self but just at the last minute.. The instructor switched all the bags and instead of owning up she done the skydive with the other to the one that ended up dying was the one she was in love with anyway it was so intense that it gave me a permanent fear of heights that's the sign of good tv right their.
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It's a massive buzz. You have a reserve chute of course but military parachute jumping is done from such low level thst you would have no time to deploy it.. Normally when people do charity jumps and the like it is from 10,000 feet but in training we jumped from 800 feet and in an actual combat jump it would be as low as 500 feet. The theory being that you want to be on the ground as soon as possible so as not to he a sitting duck and so that you can start shooting back.
 
Ah yes that happened to German paratroopers the Fallschirmj?ger in ww2 at the battle of Crete can't imagine that is a dignifying way to go but that's what for you ain't evil and ugly all throughout history to this day
 
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