Hi there. I'm so new to this wasn't sure where or how to post.
Ok, so I've been reading Socal424 religously getting off methadone...not sure if there's a way to let him know.(Dale? I believe). Then moscatel getting off oxys Im rrading now.
Anyway, before i lose my nerve here goes. I need help, encouragement, I don't know. I've done this before, successfully, or so I thought.
Ok so again brand new to posting, I've only read through daily for a couple months.
Ive been drinking a lot for abt the past 10 yrs, like a box of white wine a day = 4 - 750ml bottles. I wad also on oxy (old school)80mg , 30mg IRs, 8 mg dilaudid, sniffing them then shooting up, none of which prescribed, then of course to heroin. my husband needs meds for a bad car accident and he is in much back pain, deteriorating discs, Dr told him he'd be lucky to still be walking in 10 years (15 yrs ago) but we enable each other. He got really really bad on overmedicating and I just went along for the ride...ohhh it was such fun in the beginning.
Then after several years we decided to go to the methadone clinic and then he went to rehab and I did outpatient Subutex then somehow went completely clean until last year.
I honestly don't remember how I went off of it with so much alcohol in my brain. I really don't. I know you cant go straight from mdone to subs, but my short term memory is shot and i have huge ammonia levels ( and have hepatic encephalopathy - HE). I was diagnosed last year with stage 4 cirrhosis and have not been very well since. So I stayed off of alcohol until March of this year but was doing heroin the entire time. I went
back to the methadone clinic in March but now I started drinking again as of late April and don't know what to do.
I know I'm all over the place with this I don't know where to turn my husband doesn't know I'm drinking again at all. Our daughter has had her suspicions and has told my husband (shes 22 not a child) He's kind of oblivious because he's back on methadone as well plus he gets prescribed Xanax and muscle relaxers (all Dr.s are aware) and I feel like I'm all alone with this. I mean don't get me wrong I've been with my husband for over 20 years since we were like kids really I love him so much but we both have our vices.
Anyway that's it I know I ramble on and on and on song I'll see where this goes and if anyone has any advice or insight to give me I'd appreciate it thanks so much you guys sorry for any grammar errors or anything I'm just talking into my phone to type this
Ok, so I've been reading Socal424 religously getting off methadone...not sure if there's a way to let him know.(Dale? I believe). Then moscatel getting off oxys Im rrading now.
Anyway, before i lose my nerve here goes. I need help, encouragement, I don't know. I've done this before, successfully, or so I thought.
Ok so again brand new to posting, I've only read through daily for a couple months.
Ive been drinking a lot for abt the past 10 yrs, like a box of white wine a day = 4 - 750ml bottles. I wad also on oxy (old school)80mg , 30mg IRs, 8 mg dilaudid, sniffing them then shooting up, none of which prescribed, then of course to heroin. my husband needs meds for a bad car accident and he is in much back pain, deteriorating discs, Dr told him he'd be lucky to still be walking in 10 years (15 yrs ago) but we enable each other. He got really really bad on overmedicating and I just went along for the ride...ohhh it was such fun in the beginning.
Then after several years we decided to go to the methadone clinic and then he went to rehab and I did outpatient Subutex then somehow went completely clean until last year.
I honestly don't remember how I went off of it with so much alcohol in my brain. I really don't. I know you cant go straight from mdone to subs, but my short term memory is shot and i have huge ammonia levels ( and have hepatic encephalopathy - HE). I was diagnosed last year with stage 4 cirrhosis and have not been very well since. So I stayed off of alcohol until March of this year but was doing heroin the entire time. I went
back to the methadone clinic in March but now I started drinking again as of late April and don't know what to do.
I know I'm all over the place with this I don't know where to turn my husband doesn't know I'm drinking again at all. Our daughter has had her suspicions and has told my husband (shes 22 not a child) He's kind of oblivious because he's back on methadone as well plus he gets prescribed Xanax and muscle relaxers (all Dr.s are aware) and I feel like I'm all alone with this. I mean don't get me wrong I've been with my husband for over 20 years since we were like kids really I love him so much but we both have our vices.
Anyway that's it I know I ramble on and on and on song I'll see where this goes and if anyone has any advice or insight to give me I'd appreciate it thanks so much you guys sorry for any grammar errors or anything I'm just talking into my phone to type this
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