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ShroomySatori said:
Sense a relapse coming with the dope should probably do something likely won't.
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Nooooo! You sound so much better lately! Don't waste all the hrs work and pain you been thru these last 3 months. You have done a great job , you are working now, feeling better, being social !!!! You can do this ! Drink or trip if you want a different buzz than weed .
 
Shroomi- write ?3months? on a piece if toilet paper. Then wipe your ass with it and flush it down the toilet. You won?t just get high once. You will do it until your cash runs out, then you will be back to oxy.
Then you will be posting here again about ending your life.
DONT DO IT.
 
Larimar and Squeaky are right ShroomySatori!

We all care about you!

We see the progress. Don't take steps backward. You have suffered so much. It is heartbreaking for all of us to see you like that.
Don't go back to that. Just hold. This feeling will pass.

❤️
 
Nice job Squeaky!
You will live!
Fight it off with your awesome mind/ heart power.

Don't stress through the terrible feeling of it. Remember that your mind is causing that feeling and tell it bullshit!
We are going through this and you are not going to act out so much!

I am rooting for you and on your side my brother! If you need anything, let me know.
 
The cravings seem to come later I'll be good though I'm not far away from 4 months now. And have access to top shelf mmj now too so I would rather smoke a lot of that than mess up my life any more than I have.

The cravings drive me crazy though when I get them. I didn't have any sort of craving for the first 3 months I guess I had been through way too much bullshit to even think about that. I'll never go back it would be so stupid at this point. I have so many good weeds to try. Thanks for those messages I am only now beginning to deal with cravings. I was preoccupied by the symptoms too much before.
 
Shout out to BL friends! I wish I was on your time zone so we could chat closer to real time.

Painful One, thank you for your thoughts and prayers - much love back to you sister!

Shroomy, thank you for your message! Keep fighting the good fight - almost 4 months - that is incredible!

Squeaky, I feel for you brother. Hopefully the worst of the physical withdrawal is over. Sending you positive vibes.

-SweetLeaf7
 
Hello RiversOfAvalon and welcome. I successfully tapered from 90 mg/day (17 years of pain mgmt.) and posted here since November. I tapered over 7 weeks, couldn't sleep after 17 days off and dipped back into the stash, daily, until about 6 weeks ago when my GP put me on max dose of Lyrica. Lyrica has been helping my pain. It is not nearly as strong nor does it give you that opioid feeling, but it gives you a relaxing feeling, which is better than nothing. Opioids are next to impossible to get prescribed in my state. I wish you much success.

-SweetLeaf7

RiversOfAvalon said:
Hello there, PainfulOne, Squeaky and ShroomySatori. I started reading this thread several months ago and have read through the whole thing, and it now feels like I know all of you intimately! Strange how you can develop such a connection just through reading someone's posts on a forum.

Anyways, I felt the need to create an account, and interact with you. You guy's insights and ups and downs have been of great support to me, on my own journey. I'm on 60 mgs of oxycodone a day, have been for two years. I live with a chronic illness that has cost me over 10 operations (mostly brain, couple of back and one abdomen) from 2016-2017, and has left me with bad daily headaches. I'm finding it harder and harder to adequately control the pain with the dosage I've been on for two years; enter, tapering. There is no opioid crisis in my country, but since I'm only 22, doctors are loath to increase dosages, since this is pain I'm most likely stuck with for life.

Anyways, I wanted to create an account, and say thank you to all of you! Your stories have helped me immensely!
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Brilliant Squeaky! The best advice I received and I can pass along is to always have an exit plan when taking daily opioids, or anything for that matter. Accumulate a month stash so when the time comes, you can taper on your own terms. Much love brother! By the way, I never liked alcohol until I could not get opioids anymore, lol.

-SweetLeaf7

Squeaky said:
Thanks PainfulOne. Im glad to hear youre getting better. The Loperamide is working better now for me. I tried this without lope a couple of times and I was absolutely miserable. I only made it a few hours before I caved in.

I forgot who asked, but my plan is to be 10 days off the opiates when I see my PM doc. Im going to get my prescription and lock it up for a couple of weeks. I do have pain from the screws in my back, but I want a life beyond an addiction to pills. I also don?t want to NOT have maintained my relationship with my Dr and the prescriptions I am getting in case I need them in the future. I hope to stash some pills for the future.
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Hey Shroomy,

I'm cheering you on!! The fact that we (you, Painful One & me) are interested in dating again is progress - we are getting healthier!! :)

Have you ever tried edibles? They last me 6-8 hrs when I can get them - dispensaries are not operational for a few more months here. Maybe that will help with cravings since they give more of a body high and last so long.

-SweetLeaf7

ShroomySatori said:
The cravings seem to come later I'll be good though I'm not far away from 4 months now. And have access to top shelf mmj now too so I would rather smoke a lot of that than mess up my life any more than I have.

The cravings drive me crazy though when I get them. I didn't have any sort of craving for the first 3 months I guess I had been through way too much bullshit to even think about that. I'll never go back it would be so stupid at this point. I have so many good weeds to try. Thanks for those messages I am only now beginning to deal with cravings. I was preoccupied by the symptoms too much before.
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Hey sweet leaf I was thinking something similar. I have access to the edible oil and like it. I don't really like edibles but I can get the oil with different THC/CBD ratios. But, I find that those can get me wayyy too high sometimes haha. Could help me stop smoking so frequently though, or just end up getting really stoned. I recently got my prescription so I have a lot of exploring to do. Starting off with two sativa dominant hybrids I am excited about trying. It is good to be interested in dating although I am not so sure if that's what you would call infiltrating a clique of hot yoga girls and having a chill environment to meet them. I think now that I have this in my social life it won't be such a challenge it's a great way to get to know them. Already have a few in mind after the first week lol. Especially this one fox... so damn useless though. I will try. I am too horny and she is way attractive I can't stand it hehe,. I want to fucking... ask her to smoke a joint right painful one? Why did I never think of that.
 
Hey Shroomy! I don't think I've ever been on the same time as you. It is just after 12 midnight here (00:15 in military time). I'm so jealous you have access to the dispensaries!! We still have 4 months to go. So please keep us posted on your experience exploring cannabis! Good luck with the yoga fox - women love a sense of mystery!

-SweetLeaf7

ShroomySatori said:
Hey sweet leaf I was thinking something similar. I have access to the edible oil and like it. I don't really like edibles but I can get the oil with different THC/CBD ratios. But, I find that those can get me wayyy too high sometimes haha. Could help me stop smoking so frequently though, or just end up getting really stoned. I recently got my prescription so I have a lot of exploring to do. Starting off with two sativa dominant hybrids I am excited about trying. It is good to be interested in dating although I am not so sure if that's what you would call infiltrating a clique of hot yoga girls and having a chill environment to meet them. I think now that I have this in my social life it won't be such a challenge it's a great way to get to know them. Already have a few in mind after the first week lol. Especially this one fox... so damn useless though. I will try. I am too horny and she is way attractive I can't stand it hehe,. I want to fucking... ask her to smoke a joint right painful one? Why did I never think of that.
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Hey sweetleaf, I don't think I ever posted at midnight before. I passed out right after. I'm trying to pull myself together enough to exercise this morning. I think I can do it without stressing myself too much. There are some simple steps that I'm used to since I've been more active.Either way feeling okay just completely exhausted wish I had slept more.

A sense of mystery eh well I am definitely super mysterious there. I will keep that in mind.
 
I decided I probably don?t need any more Loperamide yesterday so I only took my morning dose and quit. I start day five today (complete 48 hours no opiates) and I feel pretty ok. Still sneezing, lethargic, sensitive to noises and sunlight. But my body aches, restless legs, insomnia, hopelessness, all are gone or almost gone. I slept 8 hours last night and even cut back on my Benzos a little.
So to conclude: Loperamide usage: dosing every 12 hours in mg: 30,30,20,20,16,16,12, then off. It didn?t work at all for about 4-8 hours. Most noticeable at 24-48 hours. We will see if it carries me through the next day or if I get wds from the lope!
 
My biggest problem now is boredom. I have never been the type to sit all day doing nothing. Right now Im too fried to get up and go be productive, so instead Im sitting in bed going insane.
Family responsibilities this weekend too that I will have to flake out on..... making me feel REALLY guilty. I guess thats the depression from PAWS kicking me while Im down.
 
Squeaky said:
My biggest problem now is boredom. I have never been the type to sit all day doing nothing. Right now Im too fried to get up and go be productive, so instead Im sitting in bed going insane.
Family responsibilities this weekend too that I will have to flake out on..... making me feel REALLY guilty. I guess thats the depression from PAWS kicking me while Im down.
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Yup. That always happens to me. Ever single time I just need to be left alone for a day or two, family things always come up and I get that same guilty feeling. Remember that your mind is blowing everything out of proportion right now.
We do tons to help and support our families. It is okay to need some time to heal. It is okay, more than okay to take some time for yourself! In fact it is necessary. Even if it was not because of the dumb opiate withdrawal.

Don't feel guilty. I give you a written and signed note to not feel guilty and take some time to heal. For as long as you need!
Just let someone challenge me on that. Lol! My note is solid!

Geez! You just came through complete back surgery not very many months ago and were up to a crazy dosage. You are doing awesome!!

You should be fine with the lope. No lope withdrawal. You have not taken very much and that was a good decision to stop that ASAP.
The good thing is that the lope withdrawal lacks the horrific anhedonia dumb feeling and mental torture. It just shreds your stomach. Sounds like you may need some relief from constipation anyways so may be a good thing for you.

If you are already at this stage, you are doing great and I will tell you a secret, if you can get yourself to laugh a true laugh. It helps take all that away. Laugh as much as you can! It quickly makes you feel way more normal and better!

Sending you love and support! Proud of you.
 
I'm thinking that I want to be a cannabis consultant or even better, a tester.
Cannabis conisoir! I like it! :)

I have the qualifications needed too!

I am really liking that the medical marijuana is helping some of us SO much! It gives me much hope.
What a blessing it has been in some of our lives!

Feeling grateful, humble, and highly favored today.

I was up the entire night crying too. But I tell you I needed it and it felt so good. I have not been able to cry for years now.
Seriously, not one tear. Something gave and I had a flood and I feel like some kind of bad blockage and pressure were released.
Has anyone else had that? Cannot cry no matter what? What is that?
I'm glad it is gone whatever it is. I feel so much better despite no sleep, swollen eyes and being on the verge of a migraine. I feel like I won't get a migraine as long as I am real careful to avoid any triggers. Repetitive noises and stuff. Otherwise I am going down.

Not going down!

❤️
 
Honestly I need to be a grower.
I can speak to plants. I'm not even kidding.
We need good medicine grown with love with intent to help ourselves and others!

I think I could double or triple someone's crop with just a daily visit from me.
It would be the exact thing needed that grew too!
How awesome is that?
 
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