Hi guys
6 weeks ago I took MDMA for the first time, taking a 0.25g and redosing smaller amounts in the night 2 hours apart. I believe the product was purer than most(was expensive) and am fully aware that this was far too much to be taking for a first time. I smoked cannabis before and after taking the drug. I had a 4-5 day comedown starting the night of the day after I took the drug, where I experienced extreme anxiety, inability to eat, panic attacks, terrible sleep problems where my heart was racing as I tried to fall asleep and a raging headache. It was a living hell that eventually subsided, however I still had some anxiety in the days after and was feeling very off, although I was sleeping a lot. 3-4 days after the comedown I began suffering from heavy derealization and depersonalization. I had all the classic symptoms of these including absolutely no emotion, visual changes, inability to lose a train of thought and feeling completely detached from reality/my own memories. I also had a constant "floating" sensation when i sat on the sofa/in bed and could only fall asleep by passing out from exhaustion . My dreams were also incredibly vivid and strange. This lasted for around 1-2 weeks when I snapped out of the DP/DR.
After snapping out of this, I have been depressed, although it has been getting better. I also have anxiety regarding going to bed and can only sleep in the daytime. Most notably I have very poor episodic memory and find it extremely difficult to recall what happened yesterday or the day before. I also have trouble picturing thoughts e.g "think of an elephant in your head". I have also completely lost motivation and interest in life, which was not something I experienced until I recovered from DP/DR. My vision seems to have changed, and is a tiny bit more blurred than usual. In pitch black, it is almost as if there are colourless dots/bubbles moving around. I have been out drinking twice, and feel a lot less pleasure than I used to, one of these times I found myself becoming very anxious whilst mildly drunk.
I feel like I have somehow damaged my hippocampus and amygdala. I have avoided all drugs since 6 weeks ago, although my exercise and diet has been poor. Is it likely that I will recover, and if so how long is the process likely to be, and what can I do to speed it up?
Thank You
6 weeks ago I took MDMA for the first time, taking a 0.25g and redosing smaller amounts in the night 2 hours apart. I believe the product was purer than most(was expensive) and am fully aware that this was far too much to be taking for a first time. I smoked cannabis before and after taking the drug. I had a 4-5 day comedown starting the night of the day after I took the drug, where I experienced extreme anxiety, inability to eat, panic attacks, terrible sleep problems where my heart was racing as I tried to fall asleep and a raging headache. It was a living hell that eventually subsided, however I still had some anxiety in the days after and was feeling very off, although I was sleeping a lot. 3-4 days after the comedown I began suffering from heavy derealization and depersonalization. I had all the classic symptoms of these including absolutely no emotion, visual changes, inability to lose a train of thought and feeling completely detached from reality/my own memories. I also had a constant "floating" sensation when i sat on the sofa/in bed and could only fall asleep by passing out from exhaustion . My dreams were also incredibly vivid and strange. This lasted for around 1-2 weeks when I snapped out of the DP/DR.
After snapping out of this, I have been depressed, although it has been getting better. I also have anxiety regarding going to bed and can only sleep in the daytime. Most notably I have very poor episodic memory and find it extremely difficult to recall what happened yesterday or the day before. I also have trouble picturing thoughts e.g "think of an elephant in your head". I have also completely lost motivation and interest in life, which was not something I experienced until I recovered from DP/DR. My vision seems to have changed, and is a tiny bit more blurred than usual. In pitch black, it is almost as if there are colourless dots/bubbles moving around. I have been out drinking twice, and feel a lot less pleasure than I used to, one of these times I found myself becoming very anxious whilst mildly drunk.
I feel like I have somehow damaged my hippocampus and amygdala. I have avoided all drugs since 6 weeks ago, although my exercise and diet has been poor. Is it likely that I will recover, and if so how long is the process likely to be, and what can I do to speed it up?
Thank You
