TDS Masturbating on speed

CrimpJiggler

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I spent about 5 years on speed, and during those 5 years I spent half my time studying for college, and the other half masturbating. I would stay up 36 hours, and sometimes I could spend 12 hours straight masturbating without realising the time went by. Now I feel like I lost all of my life force, my sex drive, emotions and energy is gone. Is there anyone else here who has possibly 1000 hours spent way too long masturbating on speed? If so, are you suffering from long term consequences?
 
Hmm I think you desensitized your dopamine receptors pretty bad with that combo. Did you watch porn with it? I guess you did. Maybe you should check out this site: www.yourbrainonporn.com

Stay away from speed and stop masturbating to porn fore a while and your energy, libido, motivation etc will come back to normal.
 
Really common I think..

How long have you been off and what have you done to heal yourself from the physical effects of the use.

I've been off it for over a year now. My sex drive is still completely gone. I've tried implementing a healthy lifestyle, eating healthy, exercising and meditating.
 
I know it may seem to be taking forever but be patient and keep doing what you are doing now. What about emotional intimacy? Do you have that in your life but still lack a sex drive?
 
I've been off it for over a year now. My sex drive is still completely gone. I've tried implementing a healthy lifestyle, eating healthy, exercising and meditating.

Have you had your hormone levels checked.. low T possibly.


You may also need to explore your sexual values and reclassify them.

With long term porn use we constantly need to get more graphic and hard core... shit gets pretty gross in the end. Explore sexual values in the context of intimacy and love rather than hard core filth.. this may be an area you have not maxed out.

Also focus on the difference between masturbation and intercourse.
 
^ good suggestions/points

OP, doing speed and obsessively getting yourself off is a proud tweaker tradition. It's extremely common, the deluge of rabid, depraved sexuality intertwining with the flood of dopamine coursing through your mind...it's really something.

The good news is that you're almost never too damaged to make a full or near-full recovery from speed abuse (IMO, anyway). It may take longer for you but it's ultimately just a question of time and putting in the work...a matter of when, not if. I bet those 5 years on meth flew by in the blink of an eye, didn't they?
 
damn i wish i could do that. maybe after i retire i will think about doing exactly this. congratz to the OP! that's what I'm talking about! jacking off on speed is what makes life worth living. unfortunately, life is also about work and making money. yeah, i did this for a while but not as long as you. i would reckon that you would suffer the same side effects as a habitual speed user. your hormone levels may be out of whack too. you should get that checked out. you may get some kind of erectile dysfunction from all the jacking off you did, so I would definitely see a doctor about that. I didn't experience any real side effects other than I'm cumming faster than usual. also, it permanently skewed my perspective on women in that I view them as only sex objects now.

and yes! of course you are suffering side effects! for each hour that you jack off on speed, you will spend 2 hours in depression. 5 years of doing this shit, I can only imagine the damage you did to yourself. How do you get your energy and motivation back? You wait it out. also, I'll let you know, I used caffeine to taper off the speed. Caffeine helped me get through that depressing withdrawal phase of speed addiction although now I have to worry about caffeine withdrawal. But don't worry. Once you get to this point, caffeine withdrawal is only for a few weeks.
 
I want to help you man. Because this is something that I personally went through although not as severe as you. I know what you are going through. You lost your energy and motivation and now life feels like a fucking drag. Don't worry, the energy and motivation you can get back. It just takes time, and I'm not gonna lie, it's gonna take alot of time. As for life being a drag, you have to think of it like this: Life has always been a drag. There is nothing pretty about life. But you have to endure it, because you know what? You have no other choice! You just have to endure this bullshit that is life. All of the beautiful things in life, you already experienced it!! Am I right? Wasn't it the best feeling you ever felt in your life? So since you did that, now you have to pay your dues. I know I will get bashed for my opinion, but that is my take on things. That is how I feel right now.
 
^ I'm not going to bash you for your opinion but I am definitely going to disagree with it (and hope for your sake that something beyond enduring life is in your future). Robotically masturbating to porn for hours is experiencing the best life has to offer? Life is just life. You do have a choice in how you live it, what you get out of it; and you do have a choice about whether to live it at all.
 
Wait it out man.

I highly doubt you did any damage really. Sounds like low testosterone at this point.

The brain is very self healing. If you didn't do any neurotoxic damage, masturbating for 1000 plus hours probably just messed with those hormones.

You'll stabilize. In the mean time, see about talking to a doctor.

Above all, I would wait a few months for improvement before you show your terracotta warrior any more appreciation.

Peace!
 
I know what you are going through. I would recommend trying to get a job so you can do some gainful activity. Do physical work, not mental work. The reasoning is you can't do anything mental right now because your mental prowess is not up to par. Believe me, I know all too well. This will test your willpower and endurance. It will feel like a fucking grind and you may think that there is no reason for it. That is why I suggest retail. After one year, your side effects will subside and you will have gotten something out of it perhaps money or physical strength from working. After one or two years, you will regain some function and then I recommend you to go back to school or get a real job. I think this will rewire your reward circuitry in that once you have some money in the bank, you will feel like, wow, I actually made that much at the worst point in my life. I don't know if this is making sense but this is what I did, and although I'm not rich, I have enough to buy some things for myself now. And please don't go back to school yet.
 
Love to masturbate on speed - it's a big part of the fun of using it for me...

I was wondering, though, I've never heard of a woman doing this for 12 hrs (or to this extreme,) but hear of it quite a bit for guys, seems like. So is it more common for males? I'm not sure 12 hrs straight is physically doable as a female. I'd be too sensitive, maybe in pain even, to the point where it wouldn't be enjoyable and I could no longer reach orgasm.

I hope you get your groove back, OP. I think you will, slowly...
 
Same thing would happen to me and im a guy. If i even have sex for too long it starts to hurt and thats in vagina... the safest place my penis could ever be!
 
You just can't keep you girl wet enough or there is some problems with her juice flows and you should use lube. I don't have any problems with multihour humping marathons :)

Trunkofmycar, I know a girl who does those masterbation marathons while binging adnd even wrote about to SL&R part of this forum.

OP, I guess your dopamine receptors are still used to much higher flow than normal or you might have low T levels. For the former only time helps but for the latter there are treatments after tests.
 
It's not a scientific term, but sounds like adrenal burnout.

There's a class of medicines called trophorestoratives. They take severely depleted biological systems and slowly rebuild them, nutritively. We use them in herbal clinical practice all the time. They require long term use, at least a few months. And once you start feeling a bit better, you can't take that extra energy and then go wild again. You really have to take it easy.

Here is a list you could look into, in order of importance:
#1 Nettle seed, and nettle leaf. [Kidneys / Adrenals]
#2 St. John's Wort, Skullcap, Milky Oats (Avena) [Nervous system]
#3 Ashwaganda [Nervous system and reproductive]
#4 He Shou Wu / Fo Ti (short term, less than 30 days, for reproductive system)
#5 Hawthorn [Heart]

I can't advise you on how to take these, but you should look into them. They are all without harmful side effects, except for Fo Ti which can cause liver damage if taken long term (longer than 3 months straight) or in large quantities (more than 6-8g daily).

Basically you need to look into endocrine support, as a whole. You used all the energy of speed to overwork your reproductive system, now it's spent.

You also need to source these herbs as best quality, organic. Don't just go buy some random supplement. Really research it, or consult a professional who works with herbs.

If you have access to a MD, you should get your morning cortisol level checked, as well as your thyroid levels and pituitary levels. Speed has an impact on the HPA axis (hypothalamus-pituitary-adrenal).

You could also see a Chinese medicine doctor, for life gate deficiency. Which is what you have right now. You burned the candle at both ends and now your body needs restorative work.
 
The brain is very self healing.

I completely agree. Not saying you have ED or anything but ED due to porn is becoming more prevelant (that's without the meth so imagine with). I know for myself it takes at least several days before I start "popping boners" and that's usually a good sign that I can start doing hookups again. After my last "binge" period, took 10 days of being meth free and by day 7 I was getting excited on my own.

I've done this for maybe 5 months, 5 years and I know the wait would be much longer. That's not to say give up hope or anything, that's more like don't feel like your body is broken or your junk won't work again... anxiety can keep the most famous porn star from doing his job.
 
I've been off it for over a year now. My sex drive is still completely gone. I've tried implementing a healthy lifestyle, eating healthy, exercising and meditating.

What do you mean by that ? You cannot get aroused by porn or you do not experience physical symptoms if you are flirting with a person of the sex of your choice ? There is a huge difference. Masturbating to porn vs. sexual magnetism with a person is related like watching football in TV vs. playing it yourself. Masturbating on speed a lot is a sign of being underfornicated. I can totally relate but 5 years (non stop? =D), that is a lot.

Apart from that I recommend taking Rhodiola Rosea. It is rumored to stabilize the adrenergic/dopaminergic balance.
 
Masturbating on speed a lot is a sign of being underfornicated.

Hm I can agree with this but for me it was definitely a choice. I have my reasons but can't say I always want someone else.

sexual magnetism with a person

This is HUGE! Even if I've smoked hours before, if I meet a hot enough guy, I am ready to go.

With long term porn use we constantly need to get more graphic and hard core...

Another reason why I don't hookup a lot now though. Partner has to be really hot or into some... interesting things lol
 
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