Thanks spacejunk, that really does mean a lot.
It is hard to believe that almost 17 years has past since I became a member and started contributing to this site. The chronology of my life was such that I took MDMA and joined this website long before I finished my university degrees and even longer before I then embarked on the now many years working in an entirely related, but for the purposes of this website unidentified, field. Bluelight has simply always been there and I don't see that changing for the foreseeable future; whilst the drug usage over the years has naturally changed, the desire to share the knowledge and wisdom that comes from learning and living this entire "subject" for such a long time, more than makes up for it. (I accept that this paragraph is somewhat off topic in a "Methylamphetamine Discussion Thread", but given that canberracrack has had several opportunities to share his backstory in the many incarnations of this thread, I thought I'd throw in a little counterweight from me as well, fully accepting how fortunate I have been in this regard).
Bluelight has taught me so much, as it no doubt does for everyone; it is not only a valuable resource in its own right but it also drives interested individuals towards topics worthy of further research and understanding; this knowledge and understanding is then returned in kind back to BL's knowledge base, thereby continuing a cycle of providing access to an ever improving bank of information --> which is why myself and many others, particularly those of the old guard, are fed up with people making a mockery of everything the site stands for and grabbing undue attention and recognition in the course of doing so.
The reality of the recidivist drug addicted prisoner or the involuntary psychiatric patient suffering from severe psychosis or schizophrenia brought on by prior drug abuse, is no laughing matter. People in these situations, until they start to come out the other side, often present as some of the saddest, pathetic and despondent people you are ever likely to see. It is a cold hard fact that the vast majority of people occupying our prisons in this country (focusing on those situated in our larger cities) have a methylamphetamine addiction or a mental illness for which methylamphetamine abuse is a significant causative factor.
All the immature, naïve and pseudo-masculine fuelled bravado in the world, cannot explain canberracrack's ongoing and unbridled enthusiasm, frivolity and excitement over his increasingly dire predicament. The drug addicted prisoner facing gaol surely suffers from lengthy periods of low emotions and ongoing confusion, where the future must be both bleak and frightening. canberracrack speaks about his affliction and the probable loss of his liberty in a few weeks with a level of equanimity that conveys, more than anything else, the completely disingenuous nature of this entire saga. Again, if I am wrong and it is all bravado, then not only do I offer my sincere apologies for being judgmental in addition to being wrong, but in my opinion it sadly appears that even more help is going to be required than is already readily apparent.
don't think its the stuff, been through 6 different pal s who even on their bad days don't dissapoint, is their any other variables im not taking into consideration? I haven't increased the water by much, had fresh vains at the start . Or any just having a really unlucky streak at the moment?
